I can't remember really! I've only just started using his place again

Things have changed a lot for me since I was last here.

I've got a full-time job, I no longer have crippling anxiety, I'm no longer depressed all of the time. I feel... comfortable, centered, at ease, one with myself, secure, optimistic.

All of those things above are probably symptoms of maturing, growing up, becoming an adult, putting myself out there, et cetera.