Now that I have your attention despite the joke in the title I do need help with a fairly serious matter. For those of you reading my blogs you know that I have to put with a lot of BS at my job and am fairly stressed out. I work at a grocery store as a dairy clerk and a backup checker and though I have been a dairy clerk for a few years I have only been a backup checker for a few months and I never wanted to be one in the first place. I am not in love with being a dairy clerk but for the most part at least for now I can live with it and do a pretty damn good job at it if I do say so myself. But to put it as bluntly as I possibly can I am the worst checker in that whole store.

 

Whenever I am upset or aggravated it is almost impossible for me to hide it, everyone can tell even customers. Last night when it got busy and I was called up my response to seeing the lines was "oh fuck" which I hope a customer didn't overhear because I already got chewed out for swearing once and I don't need that happening a second time. I don't bother doing fake smiles because I either look like a pedophile or a serial killer whenever I try.

 

And whenever something unexpected comes up or there is something slightly out of order my inner Twilight Sparkle comes screaming out and I flip out. One example of this was when I finished scanning this customers stuff and out of nowhere she pulls out two WIC checks (they are kind of like food stamps for mothers to buy food for their kids). Since each WIC checks has to be processed as a separate transactions and there were several other items she tried to purchase that are not part of those checks I had to get a manager to void the transaction and start over again. My freakout over this was so bad that the assistant manager had to close my line and lead the other customers waiting to another checkstand which one in particular was not too happy about.

 

I have made so many screw ups in the checkstands that I have got written up 2 thats right 2 TIMES in the last month the most recent one being last Saturday. Ever since then what little confidence I had has been ripped completely and thoroughly to shreds. I am so terrified most of the time that I can barely even think straight. The good news is since this one day a few weeks ago where my knee acted up after I was in the checkstands for 2 hours straight I haven't been up there as much.

 

You may be wondering "why are they having you do this?" When I was first promoted from General Merchandise Clerk to my current position of Clerk they wanted me to work night crew and I didn't so we compromised and I worked 4am shifts. It worked for a while until I got a few too many knee injuries and management took me off that shift. Normally I would be made a checker because all stockers that are above the rank of General Merchandise and work during store hours also function as checkers but I wasn't made one because management was concerned about my ability to stand in place for prolonged periods of time.

 

A few years later and out of nowhere some higher ups come to me and say "hey guess what you are going to be in the checkstand." At first I was reluctant to do it but management convinced me to give it a try so I went to checker re training and gave it a try and well I think you know the rest. I have talked to my union and had a meeting with the district manager and one of the district supervisors (one of them is the same person that hired and promoted me where she was still a store manager) and was hoping I could use the fact that I have Autism to my advantage so I could get an exemption and not have to be in the checkstands but that is unfortunately looking less and less likely to succeed.

 

If for some reason I am unable to get out of the checkstands with such an exemption then I am considering stepping down and becoming a General Merchandise Clerk or GMC again. It is not fair and it is not right that I should be presented with such a choice but at this point I just don't know what else to do. If I keep staying in the checkstands I will eventually make so many mistakes that I will probably get fired. I don't plan on being there forever as a matter of fact I am working on a plan to get out of there which if you aren't already falling asleep from the massive wall o text can see here.

 

http://mlpforums.com/blog/456/entry-2486-operation-exodus/

 

While like I said I don't plan on being there forever I would like to leave on my own terms and not be tossed out like yesterdays garbage so what should I do should I try to fight tooth and nail for an exemption that if it comes might come too late or just step down and be a GMC again?

Source: I Am Screwed, What's For Dinner?