I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD 'AY, I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD 'AY WAITING ON THIS FOR A WHILE NOW So I think I will start every single blog post I have with some sort of song lyric/reference. It's just the way I role. And it makes off to meet better friends, this one guy and I have the EXACT same taste of music and I think him and I will become the really close friends. He keeps on sending me links to songs that I already adore extremely. It's actually pretty exciting that whenever I show him a song he likes it or knows it and I like/know the songs he shows me. He's like my music buddy

Anyways, the reason why I'm posting this is because the devil is gone. He told me he hates me, and I honestly don't care at all...I'm actually so happy I don't know how to even react...i finally feel awake. Like that demon just left my life and maybe just maybe i will be okay again. Life will go back to the way it was, where I was just living for the day and didn't care about anyone else.

Usually when someone tells me that they hate me, I would care. But I guess in this case.. I just didn't care at all. Actually, after he did that I was playing hopscotch on the coloured tiles at my work and having fun with my fellow coworkers. It was actually probably the most fun work nights I've ever had. I got to know some other girls that normally I didn't really hang with that much, but turns out they're actually really fun people.

Not only that, I guess I've learned to start thinking for myself and not about him. My thoughts are actually starting to become more creative I guess you can call it again. I am starting to feel ambitious of things again, I'm beginning to look forward to things again and I don't know life seems to have opened it's doors again. A cappella is starting again at school, i may be able to play violin for music class, i think i've found some of the greatest best friends I have ever met in my life all for which I love and adore, I have plans to get into an amazing school, the classes I have this semester are all my favorites, we may be going back to Florida this year, my best friend in the entire world and I go to the library weekly and get new books to read...I just don't know how to explain this. I feel finally awoken. Like I'm back. this is who I was before he came into my life. Perhaps I'm just at a high because of my reactive depression but maybe not. The resilience I'm feeling...it's just so amazing.

P.S. that picture of me was taken in December, wearing my ridiculous a Capella shirt