This weekend I have witnessed something that I feel has lost it's touch. I witnessed love, rekindled relationships and devastating breakups.

Now I'm not much for discussing relationship matters. I have only went on one real date that changed the fabric of my being. Her name was Nicole and we went out for 2 years. I thought she was great, until she cheated on me for some Football player in Santa Monica. I guess I was too sensitive.

Since then I've had countless relationships, all without that spark that me and Nikki had. And it's just occurred to me that I don't enjoy it.

Being single is fine with me, but now it's come to me just being lonely I don't like anyone either!

I live in a small hockey community, and have never met a girl here that's right for me. It usually goes down like this.

Girl:Hey wanna go out sometime?

Me:Sure

few months pass

Girl:Were breaking up!

Me:Oh, I understand, sounds good

Girl: Wha?

Other girl: Hey wanna go out sometime

Me:Sure

and it goes on and on. It's despicable!

By the way, from that story, it sounds like I see women as object. I don't I just have commitment issues, I can't sit still. I've never cheated and don't plan on it. I just can't say no! Well I have a few times for superficial reasons, but I've never whole heatedly rejected someone.

And there was one instance where this one girl who I totally despise for being a homophobe asked me out (I think). I just gave her false hope because I would NEVER date someone that hates people like that. She hates me now, and I'm fine with that, I hope she never talks to me again unless she changed her hateful ways.

But i'm rambling now! To get back on topic...

I'm gonna look for a special somepony soon, once I get my head out of all the clutter that is my office space. SO MUCH WORK AHH!

I'm tired of being so lonely, I mean I can talk to anypony about anything, but that special somepony...I don't know it's just different!

So before I was gonna do this quick write up article, I was asked by my friend "What would your special somepony be like" and I told her:

-She has to exist (seems like a good start)

-She should be sort of a geeky smart cookie

-She could be into games, or maybe she writes music

-If she writes at all, ESPECIALLY POETRY, then she's already near perfect

-She might be a tad shy,like I am. I like shy people because I can relate and they don't talk so much

-Has a passion for art or the environment.

But to be realistic, if she is a good listener, then I don't care what she's like at all, I will treat her right lmao :3

I'm not picky, people do have basic interests, but at the point I'm at it would be a freak'in fluke of nature, a glitch in the matrix if you will, if I rejected the first pony that has an interest in me.

So on that note, I wanna share a quicky poem, Then I'm off to go watch an episode of MLP, read a little, and go to bed. Good Night Ponies! This poems from my collection.

'So here I sit, on a rock in the middle of the river.

I wish she would come back

I miss her

The red in her mane, the way she laughed

The scent of mint everytime she walked by

And the tiny Mint/clover cutie mark that makes her

perfect.

She flew up the river about a week ago.

She told me she will be back when the time is right.

Its been 3 weeks now, and I haven't moved off this rock

I will die out here

Die knowing that my heart will ache forever anyway.'

Love Writing "Are these flowers for me?"

The Pegasus From the North ~ "A Day for Sleeping under the Clouds: A Pegasus and her tall tails of wonder" (2012-13)