I find it funny... For the first time in my life I've actually decided to blog anything. Guess there's a first time at everything after all.

So. For years I've been living my life without any issues (except the ones a typical human being would have, nothing really big though). Everything was fine, until I've encountered internet. That's when things started going downhill, since I've discovered that I'm nearly incurable altruist. Each time I saw somebody with a problem on the internet, I felt the urge of hasting with my aid. The fact I'm a male was not helping, since by default we analyze everything and seek solutions rather than care for emotions and ask questions about one's 'fettle'. It's one of those things genders *usually* approach differently, a rather confirmed fact, but as we know there are exceptions for everything and it's nothing wrong. Still, I was of the one trying to find solutions at once.

What's wrong with that, you'll ask? Sure, a little bit of altruism is nothing bad. But things complicate when you're dedicated to this treat of your personality. When you really care for other's issues, you do NOT remain uninfluenced. And that's what I've kept doing for a long time, before I've gained a few years on my age account and realized some important facts concerning internet and life.

It took a lot of strong will to turn into an egoist in here, or how I like to call it differently: "Cold Bastard". But I'm happy with the outcome. That doesn't mean of course that I became completely indifferent on the issues of others. I've started following the most basic and important principle in life: "If somebody needs help, he'll/she'll ASK for it (either directly or indirectly) and then at least TRY to cooperate with you." I cannot possibly count how many times I've encountered people who for all kinds of advices turned others down with sentences like 'You don't know how it feels.', 'What can you possibly know about it.', 'It won't work.'. I understand that in tough situations pessimism is a natural thing, but when it keeps going and going... and going... then isn't this just a waste of my time? That's why I stopped paying much attention to other's issues on the internet. Too many people either lie, exaggerate or simply seek attention. Or if they even tell the truth, they do not want to accept your help. Once again though, I've really helped a few people out as well, so I don't throw everyone into same box.

And that's where the egoistic part kicks in. As long as there's nothing wrong in being an altruist, it's even most admirable if you're being one in a moderate amount, I wonder how many of you have lately cared for your own lives? Taking the burden of other's issues is never a positive for one's own health. Besides, if we really want to help someone out... ...why don't we first search in our family? Between our friends? The ones we love? The internet takes what's best of us and gives little in return. A bit of thinking made me undergo a little catharsis. I'm sitting here, writing these things, and wondering when was the last time I've called my parents, grandparents, brothers, simply asking if they're fine, how's their life going. After all, isn't family the most important thing in this world for me?

I'm going to grab the phone now and just do it. They supported me on each step of my life, they're the pillars upon which I've been building it. Perhaps I should sometimes altruistically give something in return.

Khajiit out.