Passion

Interesting topic to be revived from dead. Yet with very simple answer. End the relationship, all the way. Intimacy is one of the key pillars of healthy relationship, unless both parties are truly asexual, and not just think they are. People need physical contact per default and crave it. We are social creatures. That's an easy explanation as for why I would end a relationship with no intimacy whatsoever. Now, what about marriage? One of the main reasons, if not the prime reason, of why marriages fall apart is incompatibility in bed and lack of satisfaction from the deed. Getting married and then discovering your waves are not in sync when it comes to sexual matters is one of the most horrible things that can happen. Lack of satisfaction, growing frustration, disappointment, unsated desires. Simply perfect recipe for quick betrayal. No, while admirable on paper, the vow of innocence is unhealthy to a serious long-term relationship.

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Indeed so, most indeededly! My one and only OC, Rising Star, has a Golden Caracara pet. Basically a whimsical, full of himself glorious bird of prey who respects only himself and, to small extent, his owner. Sadly, I've never gotten any art of him. But oh well.

Cease of existence. I became painfully aware of my mortality at the age of about 17. I'm 29 now, and that knowledge has never allowed me to forget about itself. That fear is keeping me in steel clutches to a point it is absolutely destroying not only my mind quickly, but is also DIRECTLY responsible for many of my failures over years, sometimes in major important fields and moments. I love life, whatever life it is. I will cling to it, because it will not repeat consciously again. But the knowledge of unstoppable end is the most demotivational factor to anything in my life. Many of my efforts to do things culminate with "but what's the point?" at the end of the day, and it is absolutely horrifying if you ask me. Especially that I firmly believe that all belief in higher powers or afterlife is a direct result of people's inability of accepting death, a constant search for SOME closure to their life. Inability of accepting the fact that once you're gone, that's it. I guess that is why gods and afterlife believes are important. To stop you from slowly slipping into dejected state of slight insanity.

Since we're at it, I might throw in two cents myself. + Initial magic premise + Initial setting Why initial? Because although in spite of what Buck says, it allowed free interpretation by each person separately to make things work the best way that would work for them. Technicalities they would be comfortable with so they can focus on getting out of comfort zone by playing their characters mainly, to put the effort in making the characters work and develop rather than move energy and focus into trying to fit all the rules and newly presented restrictions. + Character interactions Ley having Ghalan as Nemesis was perfectly natural, so was her competiveness against Druantia. Even though it seemed her and Ghalan were at each other throats, it was perfectly fine for the RP. - Upgrading characters OOC This one probably weighed on me the most. I have put a lot, and I mean a lot of work in reworking original Ley concept, story and,most importantly, powers; to have her work in RP without being broken. I have resigned from number of powers she originally had, put a number of restrictions on some of her spells, tuned everything in my mind to have her, although powerful, still be at appropriate power level with other characters. It was a defined, static character. But then OOC happened. And characters I was using as templates to balance Ley out were suddenly getting "upgrades". How about I get x? And y? And also this and that. This MURDERED my satisfaction from having created an actually balanced character in my mind, what in turn made it sore for me to RP from a position of potentially inferior power without resorting to upgrades myself. - World development Why am I placing this as a negative? When I eas getting into RP I knew perfectly what I'm getting myself into. Now? I do not know really how things work anymore to be honest. There are suddenly governments involved, special forces, etc. So many rules about how, when, why and who can use magic and in what purpose. I am AMAZED how newfound powers which barely got a solid University are already so well researched and have all their laws developed. If all governments worked so efficiently, man :x but I digress. Bottom line of this is that the changes that were being made and implemented were in direct conflict with Ley's story and invalidated it. I had to constantly readjust my view of her and look for exceptions/law loopholes, turning her from basically a tyrannical aristocrat into an open foreign criminal. Basically, with all the changes she stopped serving the purpose and view I was supposed to have her serve. - Pacing I know I had my characters wander off alone, but I did it expecting they will be able to get back into action quickly. My mistake, I overestimated it. Still, some of the scenes dragged on, but more importantly. Some of them escalated way too quickly to have them develop into anything interesting. I think from my perspective the scene with Dru/Ley/Ghalan in corridor where he broke their little game of wits and nerves was efficient. It developed naturally, Ghalan's actions were justified, Ley and Dru both had reasons to see his actions as unjustified and the scene yielded proper result as a followup: the Duel. It served a purpose to further the RP. But I digress again. How long have we been stuck in same hour/timespan? I think we have advanced time only once. While we could have done it more often, develop relations in OOC offscreen and then recap in retrospect while playing out scenes we WANT to play out and need to play out.