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What am I?

Heretick-Tock

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What am I?

 

In magick, spiritualism or the like, we seem to want to find a name for ourselves in order to separate what we practice from something else. I find myself doing this in order to make sure that people don't mistake my beliefs for that of a Wiccan or other low magician. I find each one to be childish, in approah approach to magick, and unable to sustain themselves whenever a trial manifests itself.

Again and again I am reminded that I have a truly incoherent perception of what my own consciousness is; the world cannot and will not be bent to my Will unless I know who I am first. That's the main problem with my whole study, I don't know who I am.

I pretend to know what I am capable of, that I am a magician of the same initiation of Aleister Crowley, or have the wisdom of a Buddha, but I am cut down by my own pride and made aware of what I truly am: a fraud.

 

I am a fraud because I think of myself as someone who is above everyone else. I constructed my own path instead of relying on others to tell me what to do, so I feel obligated to shove it into my “enemies” faces in hopes that they'll see the dissolving of what he or she believed to be powerful, something that separated themselves from the rest.

Ironically it seems both of us are fighting in the same boat, on top of the same river, in the midst of the same storm.

There might be a difference in what we call ourselves, but the parallels between what we perceive seem to intersect more times than either of us hope. We follow the same belief system but create an identity for it just so we can further our own egos.

For someone to truly integrate himself into Chaos, they must let go of the ego.

Unless the Western world begins to accept that everything that happens is a shared experience we will never amount to anything less than a divided, warlike people.

 

Magick cannot be conducted with the intent of manipulation. It should be looked at as a way to continue the creation of our own consciousness. Acceptance of creation, substation and death must be brought to fruition before our continual need for pleasure will be met.

This is the pattern of Chaos, it is the Will of God.

 

We need to take it for what it is and stop trying to make sense of any of this by attaching human philosophies to what it entails. It doesn't operate according to what we find ethical or necessary in this life or the next, nor is it physical in nature. It simply exists, it is, and that is all it has ever been.

 

God is bigger than we ever thought, and whether that is comforting or not is completely irrelevant; we are a incarnation of God.

 

If there isn't an answer to something in our life, as to why human nature is so nihilistic, maybe it's time to stop trying to change the world and accept the way things are, the way the entire universe is.

 

When we can identify nihilism, that means we can also understand humanitarianism and compassion. One implies the other.

 

Maybe it is time we stop trying to change the world?

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Fluffy Pinkie

Sadly i have to disagree the fact there are good natured humans proves that there are actually good people, i used to have given up but i have met a few good natured people that give me the courage to attempt to make the world a better place. Giving up i don;t agree with especially seeing as i have seen good people. 

 

I do agree in the end i believe many of us our connected and in order to change we must first come to the conclusion the for all the differences people have we are still human in the end and must come together if we wish to be the best we can be.

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Heretick-Tock

Sadly i have to disagree the fact there are good natured humans proves that there are actually good people, i used to have given up but i have met a few good natured people that give me the courage to attempt to make the world a better place. Giving up i don;t agree with especially seeing as i have seen good people. 

 

I do agree in the end i believe many of us our connected and in order to change we must first come to the conclusion the for all the differences people have we are still human in the end and must come together if we wish to be the best we can be.

Having good nature does not make a good person. It means that everyone  has the potential to be good. Birth, life and death is each a learning experience on its own.

Each person needs to accomplish the understanding that hate does not create acceptance, but instead only more hate (and vise-verse).

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Fluffy Pinkie

Yes i agree that everybody has the potential to be good, which is why for myself i continue to attempt to help others it is at times stressful but for me i wish for a world that even if not perfect is filled with more good people who help one another and can be different without attempting to feel that this makes them better or above others

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Heretick-Tock

Yes i agree that everybody has the potential to be good, which is why for myself i continue to attempt to help others it is at times stressful but for me i wish for a world that even if not perfect is filled with more good people who help one another and can be different without attempting to feel that this makes them better or above others

 

Trust me, I'd love a world were we all got along. But that world isn't here and it isn't now. We can't control what others do, and when we try it only ends in retaliation. There's no way to control the world, so we might as well just live accept the order and disorder of all things.

 

Whatever side the coin falls on, it will be because it was supposed to.

 

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Fluffy Pinkie

 

 

Trust me, I'd love a world were we all got along. But that world isn't here and it isn't now. We can't control what others do, and when we try it only ends in retaliation. There's no way to control the world, so we might as well just live accept the order and disorder of all things.
 

 

I respect your view but like i said i can't agree completely with that i understand there won't be completely peace here, but saying it's because it was supposed to be means there's no point in trying anything. Nothing is handed to anyone all the changes that have happened because people had the courage to take a stand. I will continue to help people i know not everybody will change but it's a start if everybody just gave up and accepted the order and disorder of things we wouldn't have movements such as the civil rights movement, or woman's rights.

 

In the end no people should attempt to make change change will not just come just because it was meant to be, it's because people actually pushed hard for change

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Technicolour Dream (Sunny)

Well, a post like this typically strikes me as attention seeking. Publicly displaying a view like this that scoffs the betterment of humanity and suggests that our shortcomings should not be fixed is an easy way to get a reaction. While there are bits and pieces in this that are self evident, most of it is pure pessimistic riff raff. Seems to me like a sort of diatribe in regards to humanists and for those of us who will display our discontent for the current status of humankind and it's trials. I to be honest, cannot possibly imagine how you came to such a conclusion that humans are naturally nihilistic. I myself practice many of the philosophical aspects of theistic nihilism (or simply put, believe that god and humans are separate without a cause or a reason). Humans are wonderful but flawed. Being flawed gives us something to do with ourselves. We get to fix those flaws and mature. Those of us who refuse to recognize or fix our short comings are outright immature. We are not gods. If we were gods, we too would be perfect and without flaws. I don't want to tackle religion here, but even as someone who is openly agnostic, the idea that we are anything close to any sort of god is rubbish in my opinion.

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Heretick-Tock

Well, a post like this typically strikes me as attention seeking. Publicly displaying a view like this that scoffs the betterment of humanity and suggests that our shortcomings should not be fixed is an easy way to get a reaction. While there are bits and pieces in this that are self evident, most of it is pure pessimistic riff raff. Seems to me like a sort of diatribe in regards to humanists and for those of us who will display our discontent for the current status of humankind and it's trials. I to be honest, cannot possibly imagine how you came to such a conclusion that humans are naturally nihilistic. I myself practice many of the philosophical aspects of theistic nihilism (or simply put, believe that god and humans are separate without a cause or a reason). Humans are wonderful but flawed. Being flawed gives us something to do with ourselves. We get to fix those flaws and mature. Those of us who refuse to recognize or fix our short comings are outright immature. We are not gods. If we were gods, we too would be perfect and without flaws. I don't want to tackle religion here, but even as someone who is openly agnostic, the idea that we are anything close to any sort of god is rubbish in my opinion.

 

It only goes to show that I am a fraud, as I said before.

 

Let everything I say imply that there is knowledge out there. I am no Buddha.

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Technicolour Dream (Sunny)

It only goes to show that I am a fraud, as I said before.

 

Let everything I say imply that there is knowledge out there. I am no Buddha.

"It only goes to show that I am a fraud"

 

How exactly is that relevant to what I said?

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Heretick-Tock
"It only goes to show that I am a fraud"

 

How exactly is that relevant to what I said?

 

Because I'm a fool. I make mistakes.

I'm so imperfect that hot dog buns are my god.

 

I don't KEEP MY HANDS IN DURING THE RIDE.

 

And classy turtles are always in style.

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Heretick-Tock
(super secret...I don't keep my hands in either! DON'T TELL ANYONE THE GOVERNMENT WILL HAVE ME ARRESTED)

 

I hope you like CHUCKY-FLUFFIES, since the battle is just beginning.

Time to activate BURST MODE.

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Rockymoo

Well, a post like this typically strikes me as attention seeking. Publicly displaying a view like this that scoffs the betterment of humanity and suggests that our shortcomings should not be fixed is an easy way to get a reaction. While there are bits and pieces in this that are self evident, most of it is pure pessimistic riff raff. Seems to me like a sort of diatribe in regards to humanists and for those of us who will display our discontent for the current status of humankind and it's trials. I to be honest, cannot possibly imagine how you came to such a conclusion that humans are naturally nihilistic. I myself practice many of the philosophical aspects of theistic nihilism (or simply put, believe that god and humans are separate without a cause or a reason). Humans are wonderful but flawed. Being flawed gives us something to do with ourselves. We get to fix those flaws and mature. Those of us who refuse to recognize or fix our short comings are outright immature. We are not gods. If we were gods, we too would be perfect and without flaws. I don't want to tackle religion here, but even as someone who is openly agnostic, the idea that we are anything close to any sort of god is rubbish in my opinion.

Allow me to summarize that:

I own a thesaurus.

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Heretick-Tock

Cute

 

Yeah, it works best around those who haven't adapted to discordian guerrilla tactics.

It works even better when s/he takes anything I say to be serious and that I'm NOT an attention whore.

 

Bitch, I am the king of attention whores and I'm not lonely.

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Rockymoo

I have no response to the previous argument, therefore I'll just reply with one word that still oozes with sardonism while I stall for time coming up with a legitimate reply.

 

In other words, cute.

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Technicolour Dream (Sunny)

I have no response to the previous argument, therefore I'll just reply with one word that still oozes with sardonism while I stall for time coming up with a legitimate reply.

 

In other words, cute.

"I have no response to the previous argument"

 

There was never a moment in which my intentions were to spark a powder keg. I am not arguing. He displayed his opinion, I replied with my own. No harsh feelings all around. Your reactions are actually surprising to me. Why are you lot so tensed up over this? I'm not trying to piss anyone off, rather I was offering outside input and attempting to persuade him into thinking more about what he said. "Cute" was used to end the tension between us. Clearly it failed. Calm down. 

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Heretick-Tock

"I have no response to the previous argument"

 

There was never a moment in which my intentions were to spark a powder keg. I am not arguing. He displayed his opinion, I replied with my own. No harsh feelings all around. Your reactions are actually surprising to me. Why are you lot so tensed up over this? I'm not trying to piss anyone off, rather I was offering outside input and attempting to persuade him into thinking more about what he said. "Cute" was used to end the tension between us. Clearly it failed. Calm down. 

Here are my suggestions:

 

1.) take off the fedora

2.) become a dog

3.) learn2internet

4.) learn2notinternet

5.) realize that I am a hot dog bun and your opinion has been made in vane

6.) realize friends exist

7.) stop being a dog

8.) repeat step 1 when necessary

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Heretick-Tock

Also, I believe in magick and stuff. So this blog is for people who do cool stuff like that.

If you don't, you have to leave or else you need to learn the special passcode.
(it's not like Contra)

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Technicolour Dream (Sunny)

Here are my suggestions:

 

1.) take off the fedora

2.) become a dog

3.) learn2internet

4.) learn2notinternet

5.) realize that I am a hot dog bun and your opinion has been made in vane

6.) realize friends exist

7.) stop being a dog

8.) repeat step 1 when necessary

Any particular reason you feel it necessary to drag this "argument" out any longer?

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Heretick-Tock

I haven't understood a single thing I've read here. 

 

I love your blogs. 

 

Do you shatter Ritalin over your nipples?

 

I do and it feels great. It also helps me love my favorite blogs more.

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