Hello, I'm Ravek.

I'm a thirteen year old girl from Australia, I'm not right in the mind. I do take medication for that, I can't be running around the streets with thoughts in my head now can I?

I've had a past that not many of you would believe, and I personally don't expect you too. You're not meant to believe everything that you come across, your only human. Humans in this day and age are all raised differently, with different views and laws ruling you everyday.

We're human, we're pack like animals. Many people would go mad without the contact of another intellectual being, we are social in our nature. Many studies show this, and it's not hard to see in everyday life. Through the actual world or what we view in our media.

Many things happen in our head, many we do not realize until we actually think about it. I see it as it happens though, I've had too.

I am sure not many of us run on the instinctual level that we evolved from, we're not meant to. But it still happens. When we're alert to our surroundings to our fear or feeling, when we pick up on things we would have never when we were at peace. That is instinct, running on adrenaline to survive, to pick out every detail, to see things more clearly.

Imagine running like that for over 7 years, in developing stages of your early childhood. You can't exactly get out of that mind space when you've been doing for so long.

I have trouble, though I've been getting better. And I would like to believe without the help of my medication, but I cannot know. And I don't think I'm meant to know, the doctors just subscribe me my medication and then soon after I swallow the pills. And I can't always remember if they're for my heart or for my brain.

I have a heart condition, brought on by trauma when I was younger. So I take pills to keep the muscles moving, so I don't drop dead at school. But it's hard with the children there.

Children will always be cruel, their upbringing and personality are usually the ones to cause this. And I know how cruel children can get.

You learn how to run, how to cower, how to fight, you learn how to survive when you're amongst those who do not care if you wake up after your beating. They will watch and then get bored, until you get up and suddenly become less boring. You become entertaining to them.

That's how a kid works, sometimes they are overwhelmed by something, or they are bored after a few minutes. You can always tell, they make it pretty clear.

I am sure that the entire world is cruel, but this is just something that I have experienced before.