Thuja

I really think I need to dedicate a space just for drawing, I haven't really drawn anything in a while and I need to practice. For some strange reason, I've been having this feeling of, you need to go to (insert thrift store name), for the past week. I would have gone today but my ankle really hurts so I've been trying to stay off of it for now. It hurts too much for me to go to where whatever-it-is wants me to go, I'm not going to submit myself to a painful long walk just to fulfill a whim. Also, my hair is driving me insane. It needs to be cut but the place I tend to go to is closed until next year. I guess that's what I get for not regularly going to the salon as I should if I want to maintain the preferred length... My hair is literally curling into my eyes and I can't see much.

My ankle hurts a lot today, it hurts to walk around and get up. I wanted to go to this one thrift store today but I can't now because of this pain. I tried walking to somewhere that was closer to me but it felt like the pain only got worse because I walked. :\...

I'm a goat, a metal goat to be more specific. I tend to think that being a goat does describe me as a person, in some regards.

I know, I'm not expecting anything major to happen but at least I'm making my way towards it. At least I'm trying, you know?

Happy (very)early birthday! I'm hopeful that things will turn around this upcoming year. I think my main two resolutions for the new year are to be more spiritual and to (finally)get my driver's license. I've been putting off both of them for a long time. I know, I know, I keep saying that I'll get my driver's license but I feel like 2017 is the year to finally get it and besides, I really do need some form of license to get certain things.

Personally? Probably a 5/10, I've really grown a lot this past year so I guess that's a positive? For everything else? It's been terrible, too many celebrity deaths, a crappy election for the states and just a terrible stuff that's been going on too. This year has taken so much out of people, I hope it improves with 2017, unless that year wants a piece of us too ...

I'm thinking about bacon pancakes right now... I'm making bacon pancakes .

My family had been slowly falling apart over the years, to the point where I'm all alone for the holidays. I don't really mind though, family isn't always determined by blood, it's those that mean something to you. I don't really feel like I have an obligation to be with those that either hate me or hate what I've chosen to become and I refuse to revert into something that I'm not just to make them feel comfortable for an evening. It might sound harsh but that's the way I feel about the holidays, spend time with those that matter to you and love you regardless of who they are.

I feel bored, really bored.

Merry christmas~! I do believe there is a god and/or goddess out there somewhere but my belief in a god or gods is always changing. I was raised with some native american beliefs but not many since my family was disconnected from it due to residential school so I'm trying to mostly incorporate whatever I learn with my beliefs and most traditions are passed around orally so it's harder to learn about them because of some things that are going on right now. So I don't really know much about traditions or ritual. I'm pretty open to just about everything, I'm just trying to learn what I can.

Hello all! I'm very new to the path and I'm still trying to figure out what works for me. I think I'm going to try looking for other pagans in my area that can help guide me along.

Washing dishes! Not a very exciting thing to do but necessary. I think I finally have control over it since there was a growing ecosystem in my sink :-o!

I don't like the fact that youtube puts random ads in videos these days, I was listening to something quiet earlier today and SUDDENLY EVERYTHING IS LOUD. Here's hoping that youtube doesn't inherit the loud ads, quiet tv show that certain tv channels seem to have. That stupid Prada commercial made me jump it was so loud. I get that they need to make money some how but this is ridiculous. I've also been making good on my most recent book, even though I've just been picking at it. If anyone was curious it's called: Paganism: An Introduction to Earth-Centered Religions by Joyce & River Higginbotham. It's a pretty good book, I like how they simplify things and I'm eager to get more books on paganism in the coming months.

I feel lonely and a bit sad. I always feel so happy when winter solstice comes around but when it comes to christmas, I always feel sad and I also want to go get food but things are going to be closed tomorrow.

I think the heaviest thing I had to pick up was a log. I used to help my mom clear her land so she can build a house there(I don't know what she's doing with it now). We were transporting her logs to someone else's house so they can use them for whatever.

I'm really craving meat right now, maybe some chicken or beef. Most places are probably closed by now because of holiday hours...

Alone, probably. I haven't really celebrated christmas in a few years so it's not really that big of a deal for me.

​I love Thane and I liked the colouring of this particular icon. I found this on tumblr, I've been wondering if I should change it or not. I don't know, I'll find a new one eventually.

​So I got my book in the mail, I'm pretty excited about it and I've been slowly making my way through it because of my terrible attention span lately. I should have taken a picture of my mailbox when I checked it today, my book was pretty much curled inside it with the rest of my mail crammed against the door. It was pretty funny but I'm glad there was nothing fragile in there. I don't know why but I feel right, if that makes sense? Like stumbling on something that is right for you, reading through the book it's like, "yeah, makes sense." I can't wait to learn more and try stuff out.

Having someone exercise with you is a bonus and really does help. I've noticed that the cravings chart doesn't always help(with me anyways, I love chocolate too much lol) but I'm hoping it'll help with you, just remember that you can treat yourself sometimes.

I have hazel green eyes, not very exciting. I'd like to have maybe purple or green eyes, I'm actually considering getting contacts just for that. I'm not very comfortable with touching my eyes though...

Balance everything and don't let exercise feel like a chore. I think the best way to get into exercise after not being in it for a long time(or ever) is to do something that you enjoy doing or something that you've always wanted to try. Like maybe try doing some sort of martial art, bellydancing, yoga or just walking around more. Elect to use the stairs instead of an escalator at the mall or in your apartment. Just remember, losing weight is a hell of a lot harder than gaining it so be patient with yourself. I don't really suggest just jumping into something challenging, take baby steps, you won't get as sick of it compared to just jumping in and getting fed up with said exercise because you might not be as good at it as you thought you might. Balance out cardio and strength training, don't just go to the gym to run on the treadmill, take some time and work on your muscles! There are some good youtube videos on working out at home so if you don't want to go to the gym you can try one of those channels. I don't think there's anything wrong with enjoying a little treat now and again, it's ok to enjoy certain foods sometimes but so long as you're not having those all the time it should be fine, you can't out exercise a bad diet. So maybe save those times you go out to eat at a fast food place to a minimum. Maybe try replacing certain foods with healthier alternatives like maybe if you want to have some chocolate, eat fruit instead(not all the time but try getting into the practice). Here's a craving chart: Just remember to go easy on yourself and try not to push yourself too much in the beginning.

​Is it a bad thing that I'm already planning how I'll spend my money next month? The term "budgeting" comes to mind but I know I won't spend my money wisely... There's so many books I want to buy. ​Kinda funny but the only time I actually get excited about babies is with OCs or fictional characters. Imagine: ​Some person: Look at my baby! Aren't they precious?! ​Me, disgusted: Ew no, babies are disgusting. ​Me, sees some random fanart of Solavellan babies: OHMYGODAREYOUSERIOUS?!SOCUUUUTTEELOOKATSOLASHOLDINGHISBABY!!!LETMESHOWYOUMYOCSBABIESSSSSS!!!ANDTHECHEEKS!!!THOSEPERFECTROSYCHEEKS!!!HE'SGOINGTOBESOHANDSOMEWHENHEGROWSUPHERE'SMYFANARTOFHIMATAGE23!!!!11!!! ​Seriously?

​Going out and actually talking to people made me happy. ​Also a book I ordered is supposedly going to arrive sometime tomorrow, so excited.

​I'm just going to throw this out there, post count doesn't matter. You don't get any "special prize" with how many posts you have besides the rank thing changing so save yourself a lot of frustration and don't really mind the amount of posts you have(or brohoofs either). Just post what you want and sooner or later, you won't even notice your rank. Something I suggest doing(if you're so inclined) is to search the forum for whatever topic you want to post. It's the little magnifying glass next to the sign out button, it'll save you lots of time and the mods won't have to constantly merge topics or close them.