Thuja

Something long that drapes nicely.. Maybe cloaks or some sort of flowy outfit? Lots of alternative wear too, definitely!!! Since my preferred fashion is a mix of goth/fantasy/punk/vintage, probably something from one of those? I'd like to look like walking Bloodborne concept art or something lol...

99% of the time, I don't cringe. If it was an old post, I'd know that I was in a different headspace at the time. It's ok to make mistakes, that's just a part of growing up and changing who you are as a person. There're only a few posts I've made in the past where I'm like, "Oh boo, what is wrong with you?" or something similar lol... At the same time, some of my old posts can be triggering since it's talking about something difficult. Even though I'm out of those situations now, it's still sometimes hard to deal with the memory they've left behind.

Well since the sun's currently setting, the moon isn't as obvious right now but beyond that, I normally don't see the moon since I'm on the wrong side of the building.

*Boops @Dark Qiviut back* Hope you're having a good day!!

This one where my teeth fell out and then my whole body twisted and turned inside out. My nightmares usually have A LOT of body horror, thankfully I don't have a lot of nightmares.

Hmmm, I guess I'm feeling comfortable right now? And good. Just getting some baking done, currently waiting for the dough to rise but everything else is prepared and ready to go. Just listening to some music right now in the mean-time.

Why do more people tend to notice MTFs instead of FTMs? Mostly toxic masculinity imo... Most FTMs can scoot by without being noticed if they want to "blend in" since it's more accepted to want to be a guy than it is a masculine presenting person wanting to be a woman. I mean, how many jokes in media have you seen when the punchline is "lol, man in dress" yet you barely see anything joking about "lol, woman in pants and short hair"? Not very many, sure they're still around but not as frequently. I'm ftm, so my view on the subject might be biased. Someone might look at a feminine body type wearing more masculine clothing but most people dismiss it as some woman who's being a "tomboy" but when a masculine figure wears something remotely feminine, you suddenly hear talk of "perverting the youth", "Man in dress wants to just be allowed to go into the women's restroom to assault women and girls!!" and other transphobic nonsense. Sometimes, people might complain about ftms or "tomboys" being in more feminine spaces, one instance I could think of was a butch woman who had officers called on her when she entered the women's restroom with her friends. Imagine two male officers trying to drag a woman out of the women's restroom even though her friends are yelling at them to leave and that she's a woman? She was a cis woman yet she was STILL treated like that because of how she was presenting, which is absolutely ridiculous. Our rigid definition of each sex and how people born into those sexes must act or present themselves is absolutely ridiculous and archaic. We need to start from the foundation up and make something that works for everyone instead of harming so many in our societies. Fix what is so obviously broken. Anyways, I tend to get some stuff from people, some slurs but not as often as I worried about, mostly because I'm a masculine presenting person yet have long hair but beyond that I normally go into men's specific rooms anyways without too many odd looks and I'm good, the hair still seems to confuse people but it's a cultural thing for me so I refuse to get it cut short again. That's just my guess as to why it seems like there're more MTFs than FTMs, it's more noticeable for a trans woman to want to wear a dress and makeup or express their femininity in anyway while for trans men, it's not, unless he expresses his identity to be a little too feminine sometimes like potentially still wearing makeup, dresses, what have you. Also, keep in mind that trans people are still people, I think some of us can be very kind yet some of us can be exceptionally grumpy, we're just like any other group of people. We're not all perfect little angels. But please understand that depending on where people are on their transitioning path, some things WILL trigger some sort of anxiety in themselves and they will feel the need to defend themselves. I still get triggered when I have to use my birth name and be referred to as "she" by people, do you honestly think I should just deal with it and let them continue making that mistake? I mean, people are STILL being murdered for being trans in the world, keep that in mind. We simply wish to live our lives the way we want to, isn't that what anyone else wants? Each fellow trans person I've met has gone through their transition differently, there really isn't one right way to go about it. Everyone'll react differently to hormones, at differing times in their lives and some trans people don't even want to take hormones, which is perfectly valid. Just please be patient with people and act with understanding and compassion. Also respect pronouns!!! If someone's appearance confuses you, don't assume he/she pronouns for their sake, assume They/Them pronouns until you can learn what their pronouns are. It ain't that hard to do once you practice it!

Oh gosh, must be 12 or 13 years ago? Last zoo I went to was the philly zoo when I lived in the area. Was kinda disappointed that they didn't have a butterfly hut like the Detroit zoo does and I think going there was a spur of the moment thing from my mom since we were driving in the area and she was like, "hey do you want to check out the zoo?!" it was nearing closing time by the time we found a parking spot and actually got to the zoo but it was fine, didn't really get to see much though.

Great job, it's good to see how much you've improved over a short time!! Keep it up!

I sometimes will, I've never really been comfortable with my appearance though so I don't really take photos of myself. I think in total, I've probably uploaded 3 or 4 pictures of myself since being on the internet, most of those have been recent, mostly for the sake of family members that haven't seen me since I was a baby.

I don't see the point in talking about my sexual history with someone unless I plan on sleeping with them. I don't really think it's anyone's business but mine outside of that, or my doctor.

Since I no longer live in the same country as where I went to school, no, I don't. Also since my schooling years have always been a bit traumatic for me, I don't even want to revisit areas like that. If you think it wasn't as bad as I'm saying it was, I was once sexually assaulted on a school bus and the friends of the people involved would taunt me for the rest of the school year because of it. I absolutely do not want to go back to places where such things happened, even if I'm in a better place mentally and emotionally now. Not to mention, I've moved so many times through my school years that I don't see the point in doing a tour through the US just to revisit my old schools. I think the only place I'd like to go to is when I went to school in Ventura, California. It was a good school with some great teachers and the bullying wasn't that bad there and I actually had a good circle of friends there. Would like to see most of them again, they were good people but from what I heard from a friend I used to be in contact with, the group fell apart over time which sucks but I guess that happens with a lot of high school friend groups.

That would be up to the person to decide, none of my business anyways. I kinda think shaving your body outside of a need is a bit weird, no matter your gender or sex but I guess that's just coming from someone who was forced to shave their legs for years because "women shouldn't have hairy legs" or something stupid like that. I like most of my body hair but that doesn't mean other people should too, if they want to shave? Go for it. If they don't want to shave? Go for it, none of my business anyways.

idk, I'd rather not turn this into a debate that clogs this topic up though. Guess it's just personal preference.

You ain't ugly, you're just not your own type! There are people out there who will find you attractive, even if you don't see it in yourself!