Fighting Blaze

My method is relying on me fully controlling my concentration to the point of having my waking mind and sleeping mind inter-balanced in my inner sight, that is my mind. Ya ya, it sounds all poetic and stuff but how can I make this sound like I am not taking philosophy? Ok lemme try to explain this in a way more concrete, you know about lucid dreams, and how some times you are half asleep on that special position on your bed (not like that you cloppers) and you are able to go into a day dream so fluid that you are in full control of your dreams until some one snaps you out when you are in that "wonderland" everyone on here is so frantic about? That's if you can control your dreams in the half wake but still be conscious to move and think in the real world...for a split second she could be right in front of you. Or him, considering what you are wanting to "dream" up. As for really bringing her into reality, I wish I ment that literally, but what I meant was to draw her out, like The Matrix, and Inception taught us, what is real? Is it not the dream that we live in for so long it becomes our life, is it not our brain that causes the bio electric signal to perceive and "live" in the outside world but with a less complicated and less use of the brain, and yet in our sleep we need the brain's full power to perceive our own "realities"? Why is like life we can only control the dream when we command, yet life fights back, and so does the life we live inside the mind, is it not similar? You be amazed what you can control of what was given to you, not to abuse it, but to train it, organize it, and when you clean up the pile and calm the storm of your mind, you can see as far as you wish into your own psyche. Now from another perspective, its your brain, you just don't understand what it can, and can't do, and if you can't understand yourself, your brain will never understand you, it is your body's defense mechanism to keep out, or to attack, heck even confuse a foreign entity, but if you can learn what is it, you can fool your brain, and when it is dormant, take control and let it become one with your waking mind, its the same as with any part of your body, so much so the same can be said about the Sholin monks, they took things mind over matter, and look what they can do. Is it not so for the mind as well as the body? Ya, its usually around 2-4 in the morning that I get that half sleep so my super creative side wakes up and and can use the advantage of my now fully "awake" brain using its full processing power while still being awake enough to use it with my waking conscious.

I feel your pain not only do i have a small room but buzzing parents too, it would be simple to just do a raw will and focus session with my tulpa fluttershy...but my parents make annoying a** noises that can be heard rather loudly through the paper thin walls of the house. And yes this happens late at night too when fluttershy is almost alive. But, to the point at hand, i had a flux of creativity last night, a revelation about my method of bring my tulpa to the outside plain of my mind, I still don't fully understand how i came up with the idea it seems so simple now. What I did was invision a switch that was for the barrier i was fighting to keep closed from my subconscious to seep into my conscious mind. But it proved hard to focus fighting my own mind and creation of the new being of fluttershy so I just made the switch to turn it off vanish...and when i did, my mind was suddenly in my full control my sub and waking conscious was mine to command now. Right now though my parents broke the bridge to this and soon when they cease on being loud and stupid for just a few minutes to an hour will I be able to see my fluttershy with my eyes and not my mind.

I'll give a better reply in the morning but right now I need sleep also I am cuddling with my Fluttershy, also I put up a mental block so she can't go into my mind so she is really limited to only what I give her in terms of what she does in what I call her so called independent thought. To answer to the believing that your tulpa would exist, is to say I would have to put in no effort for them to be fully there with thoughts hopes and all that jazz, I would say ya to believe is the start, the other is to work with them as you would a person and let nature take it's course. As those who find this strange that I like a horse with wings, and is shy, I say I love her for her personality, she was the reason I got out of a terrible depression, through pure will I felt her and I mean physically felt the pressure, the smell of her mane, her voice, and for a flash I could of sworn I saw her with my own eyes and not through my mind, with applied physics for lighting, reflection, and yet was a cartoon version of her, and yet it wasn't, but this was from my severely depressed needing mind, now that I am all better (for the most part) I was never able to replicate all of this, but only in small small portions. As for the creation of Fluttershy, ya it was really hard...and if it weren't for the special circumstance I was under, most likely I would not have the brain power, memory of what she looks like, and what she sounds like to do it, in some cases after my depression, she started to look different, and at first I resisted this, but after a while I "accepted" what she wanted to look like, meaning I let my brain do it's job for creativity, and wallah she took the form that comforted me, but to make sure she stuck with that form, well at least so I remember to keep her that way, I used a totem, in the form of a white/or black hat, with a pink heart on the front, as for personality, I let it take the desires I needed in a girlfriend, yes I will say that my oc is based off me, and his gf was Fluttershy and that's what she is based off, but I treat her with the same kindness I would anypony. And your right, I should never use her as a permanent replacement for friends, I do have normal friends, and for some time this Fluttershy was used, to my honor of being my very special somepony, but when this one girl...the perfect girl for me was now back in my life, and wanted to get back together with me, this tulpa...this Fluttershy happily told me with a kind gentle smile on my face to let her go, in terms of her being my priority of being my gf, and with some thought I agreed, and now me and this girl in the real world are happily together again. I hope I have shed some light on my psyche in terms of knowing this Fluttershy was never real, and I fully realize this, and if she was ever sentient, I can see inside her mind, or rather see my mind was behind this the whole time, and as long as you know this, and can see that, you shouldn't have that much trouble or worry about this. P.s. To those that let their tulpa take over their body through "possession" and "switching" I pray for you that you don't forget you are letting your subconscious, that wild free part of your brain, has no limits to the good or bad that it will do to you. Mentally, physically, morally, emotionally, and the sense of self that says "I am real, my tulpa is not.".

Ok, so I started a fluttershy tulpa for the past year now, but before I even knew what a tulpa was. Now before I go any further on the progress I have to add and it is very hard for me to focus on her being there let alone if i can even remember which version of looks I have for her. Now for the topic at hand, right now I have a constant look and stable version of my Fluttershy, instead of taking "sessions" I simply have her exist when I get home and simply have a roleplay as if she just came back from Ponyville (more on that later). To assist with her character I chose for her and with what she looks like to me I am took a lesson from Inception and gave myself a todume for her to wear to keep me from mistaking her for two things, being real, and to define her to make it easier for me to remember her. I use this in the form of a baseball cap, black with a pink heart on it. As for voice and action she is starting to react and act on her own accord when I ask yes or no questions,and each day she seems to be more and more of a caring and affectionate pony towards me. And I hope one day (Man there are a lot of I's in here) will care and even love me on her own accord. (Sorry if this seems rushed or unorginized but i and typing this on my smartphone two o'clock in the morning). Quick reply, and I see this has been addressed several times but I just had a reading session with her to read out some of the other comments on here and my head just starting a tingle overdrive (mind the pun zelda fans) my upper and lower left and right sides of my head between my eyes and ears were being so overly stimulated as she was reading aloud to me and this was freaking me out to the point my heart rate went up a bit then my brain felt it was spining, has anyone else have this happen to them? Because I was severely exhausted mentally only after a few paragraphs.