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    I figured out what my drive is, the force behind everything I love and do....ambition. If I were to represent it as a symbol, it would be a rising star.
     

     
     
    I always need to be pushing towards something, big or small....I felt empty and bored when I was on summer holidays with no job, waking up with no purpose.
     
    My ideas are often too big for what's actually needed, but that doesn't stop me from thinking them up.
     
    I love to prove my worth by working hard, to the point I get greatly upset when I don't think I've proved myself.
     
    I'm inspired and enjoy watching others see the fruits of their own ambitions.
     
    I can't see myself in 20 years or in any amount of years reaching a final goal...I see myself continually bettering myself, creating wonderful things for the rest of the world. Perhaps even inspiring others to live their dreams.
     
    As corny as it sounds, I couldn't have come to this revelation without the show and the fandom...before I thought of certain elements of this as a weakness....being weird, abnormal. But I just bottled it up and pushed on, ignoring them to seem like I was stronger. I eventually figured out we all have our weaknesses fine...I started to look into them more and try to discover myself more, and my "weaknesses" seemed to all tie together, so I started trying to find a root cause. When watching the open letter to the newbie artist training ground on equstria daily (thanks for the inspiration btw, continuing soon!) while my art was now fresh in my mind, I suddenly started thinking about that unknown root cause, then came to that epiphany. It's no weakness at all, it's a part of who I am.
     
    I know I'm probably making no sense whatsoever right know, but I've figured out who I really am, not who I THINK I am, or who I think I should be no....I'm a man fueled by his dreams and hopes for the future.
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    I got a kick for this game again, and I was also looking into mods for my new laptop that I ordered (I'll be lucky to see it before the end of the month =[ ) and found this computer can actually run them! So I'm having fun with a new world and shaders.
     
    I choose a specific seed so I could start out on an island. I'm going to clear it out, make my home on it, then sail out to distant lands to explore! Progress so far:
     

    One got loose!
     
    About halfway done clearing and lighting.
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    ...I loved it! I kinda knew I'd love it, it's just a new design....even if it is somewhat questionable. Only issues I really had was big problems instantly getting solved with a little song or a dash of friendship, but that wouldn't be the first time this has happened =P. It was a nice way to cope with the wait, but now I'm feeling empty and more aware of the wait.
     
    There's always the fandom I guess, there's still tons of stuff I've missed! I haven't even READ cupcakes yet! (although I am aware of what it entails) Speaking of which, there's a new "friendship is witchcraft" if you missed the news, featuring babs seed and snowdrop! =3
     
    ...shameless advertising or not (watch it, don't watch it, don't care XD) have a good evening and hang in there...we're over halfway there.
  4. Outkin

    Start Up

    By Outkin,

    Hello everypony! Got my blog started here. I'll be posting my random thoughts and questions here and later any of my work that's pony related. I'm going to be getting some hardware soon, I just got my first job and I'm going to be raking in cash soon. In the meantime I'll try to keep this interesting for anyone who chooses to come and see me. (Unlikely at this point, but even if one person is hanging around I don't want to leave ya hangin)
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