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  1. LostButterflyUtau
    So...I have ONE more final to take...at NINE AM tomorrow. And then I don't have to work until two...so, WTF school?
     
    Speaking of school, since I'm almost done, I should be like this, right?

     
    Um...No. I'm actually a mix of this:


     
    Why? Because even though I've grown to like my school and the classes, I have to drop out for financial reasons. I just cannot afford to go to school right now, and am SOOOO sick of fighting with financial aid, only to be told, "but the numbers say "no." Try again next year." If I don't have the money now, what makes you think I'll have it next year?! What part of "we have no money" do you not understand?! The FAFSA is NOT going to change! My parents are still going to be together and still working at tax time when the form has to be filled out. I can't take any more loans because of my car loan. My parents can't take loans for me and will not cosign and I am not going $30K in the hole just because the school and government are greedy. It makes me want to throw things...

     
    I know I shouldn't complain, since everyone else has it worse, but there's a part of me that can't help but be angry. I mean, why should I be punished because I had a good life? I mean, I've worked my hooves off for years! I've gotten good grades, mainly Bs this semester at a school built around rich, residential brats while working 30+ hours a week they're all like, "Sorry not sorry your parents aren't bums."
     
    I'm so sick of the financial aid system in the states in general. If you ask me, (and mind you, I'm dumb) it needs a complete overhaul! It seems like you either have to be really, really poor to go to school or really, really rich. But what about us middle class people? We need money too!
     
    Even my Rari knows that mummy isn't happy...(Even though hugging her did make me feel better. My first thought when I walked out of the office? "I want Rarity!") She's like, but...but...Be happy. You did a thing!!

     
    She tries, she really does...All of them do. But, on the upside I get to finish up my Christmas shopping on Saturday. I'm getting my best friend some clothes for her Pinkie Pie, and if there's one thing I love, it's picking out pony clothes!
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    ...Because the fandom could give two craps about it.
     
    I am currently in the middle of working on a long-arc Fruits Basket story that takes place post canon and revolves around Akito. I am determined to see this project through, as, I have had a bad habit of starting and never finishing fics in the past. So, I will be completing it, especially since I have a full timeline worked out for this one.
     
    But, the fandom will never get to know the ending. I don't know if anyone else had ever had this problem, but I can't get ANY feedback. And it makes me upset that I can only get twelve reviews for fourteen chapters but stories that are badly written, with horrible Mary-Sue OCs and reused, bad plots get like, twenty for two chapters. Now, I don't condemn these people. I can't. I was thirteen once and wrote bad stories, so I get it. But it's so frustrating to pour all this time, work and research into something that no one cares about.
     
    I guess what I dislike more is that this fandom seems to only like a certain select variety of fic. I can't speak for all fandoms on this, however, since I'm not in many, so I don't know if it's exclusive to this one, though I doubt it is. The Furuba fandom seems to only care about your story if:
     
    *You have a badly written self-insert Sue who only exists so you can have sex with your favourite guy (usually Kyo or Yuki). Sue always, always either replaces Tohru or is related to her in some way and for some stupid reason ends up in Shigure's house.
     
    *Your OC is a random member of the Zodiac who has no business being in the story, because you can't bend rules like that. Not in Furuba. And bonus points if they have an awful, tragic back-story and were abused by Akito. Readers eat that up. These characters are often self-insert sues as well and rely on one of the main guys to "help" them through it and then they bang.
     
    *You refuse to admit Akito is in fact, a woman, and write about how Male Akito just needs your Sue to break through to him and save this hot, damaged guy...
     
    *You write a happy, happy story about Kyo, Tohru and their kids. Screw everyone else in the story who made it work. It's all about KyoRu Babyees!
     
    Y'all get the idea. I'm tried of working and writing and staying up late only to get no recognition at all for a story I put SO much into. I feel like no one gives a crap about it and I hate feeling like this. Hell, I've even cried over it.
     
    So, I'm done. I give up. I'm going to finish it...For my friends only. The only problem with that is that they refuse to read any sort of sexual content, so I can't get feedback on the smuttier stuff, which I desperately need.
     
    Has any one else ever had this problem? What did you do? Is there anything I can do about it? Or am I just better off with this decision? It's not the first time I've given up on a fic because of lack of feedback, and I doubt it will be the last.
     
    ***Note: A TON of people on Reddit and one here has already tried to give me advice and convince me otherwise. No, it didn't work. No, I'm not going to listen because it's all stuff I've heard before. Point is, the Furuba fandom sucks, I don't belong in it and I'm out. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you all for listening.
     
    Oh! And if any of you are ​Fruits Basket​ fans who are also sick of reading rubbish fics and want to read a GOOD story for once, I am more than willing to link my own. Provided you actually have something to say.
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