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I just wanted to apologize to everyone. I know that I've made some pretty big mistakes in life, but this one has been by far the worst. I'm gonna tell you all what I did, and I know that your opinion of me is going to change DRASTICALLY. But I've excepted that. So I guess I'm ready to tell yall what I did. Tonight, I finally saw Deadpool 1. I know. Like I said, it was a huge mistake to NOT have seen that movie by now. I know that finally seeing that movie won't make your opinion of me better again, but I hope that you knowing that in exactly four minutes of the movie, Deadpool became my all time favorite movie, is at least a start on the road of forgiveness. I plan to watch Deadpool 2 tomorrow, unless something prevents that from happening. Thank you for reading, and I hope you all can forgive me. 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm doin fine I suppose. I brought 3 bottles of water with me and I lost one of them and I drank two of of my other ones. So by 5th hour I had no water and I got really dehydrated really quick and I had no water. There was a vending machine in the hall but all I had was a $5 bill and the water was $1.50. So I had the money BUT the only problem was that the vending machine does not give change. So if I put my $5 bill in there, I would loose all $5. And I was NOT buying $5 worth of water. So I waited till R.O.T.C (2 hrs later) to get water. I got a bottle cause R.O.T.C has 1 water bottle for $0.50 (sorry to all my friends who don't understand how American currency works) so that was pretty cheap. BUT now because I got so dehydrated, my throat is MESSED up. I can still talk but drinking cold drinks just builds mucus and my throat feels scratchy when I'm not drinking anything. I've fortunately got my recording for the week done, but hopefully my throat is better by next week otherwise I don't know if I'll be able to record. How've yall been? 

So I was having a chat with someone who commented on one of my more popular videos and they brought up the Rainbow Factory. And I realized that the rainbow factory is a good representation on how bad discrimination can be (not literally shoving people into machines, but like murdering them because of something they can't help). Very interesting. Also how have yall been? I'm doin good but my day is going to be a bit busy.

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm doin pretty damn good if I do say so myself. So yesterday something happnened that I NEVER expected to happen. I got a boyfriend. What happened was this. During lunch one of my friends asked me if I was single. I said yes, and he asked me out. Now I've been friends with this guy for a few months now, and he's really nice, funny, and super sweet. So I said yes, and he's really happy that I said yes. So yay I've gotten a date. Now I did tell him before I said yes, that dating me was going to be very difficult because of how my g-parents are. We won't get to hang out, outside of school and we won't be able to chat over the phone. We'll have to see each other at school and talk over facebook. Now I know that a lot of, if not all, of yall are probably saying *dude the chance that things are going to work out between you two because of these circumstances are little to none.* I know that, BUT I'm willing to give it a try. I'm not going to give up before things get started. Anyways. So today was pretty good. How was yall's day? 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. So today I was watching Sparrow9642 do an editing live stream and he was making thumbnails with a software called Gimp. I've never used Gimp before so I decided to try it out and it works wonderful. I'm gonna start makin my own thumbnails instead of using the images that the writers use for the thumbnails on their stories. This is the first thumbnail I've made and I think it looks pretty good. Better than the thumbnails that I'd make using Canva, Picditor, and Toolpic. The font I used was made in https://cooltext.com/  I love using the MANY font styles they have to offer there because there's a lot of choices and they look really nice. How've yall been? 

It has been a few months since I've listened to an MLP fanfiction story series. So tonight I am going to start and finish Reborn. A fanfiction that takes place after the events of the Rainbow Factory. I am excited. 

Hello everypony. How are yall doin today? I'm doin pretty good. Today I talked to the Army recruiter. Apparently I did really well in a lot of the computer areas when I took my AZVAB test last year. Everything expect auto-motives was in the 100's and even then my score in the auto-motive area was 95. Apparently I even broke a couple of the qualification records.  Also since I've been in R.O.T.C for 2 plus years I'll become and E2 instead of starting off as an E1 and that will get me $300 more every month. So instead of making $1500 a month (E1) I'd be making $1800 a month (E2). This definitely reawoke my motivation to join the military, but I'm gonna talk to as many recruiters as I can before making any final decision. How have yall been? 

Hello everypony. How have yall been? OHHHH BOYYY today was bad. It started off in Culinary where some of the kids did one thing in the kitchen then got on their phones, and some kids were being plain annoying. I literally went into the kitchen and two of the kids at the sink and taken a sheet pan that was in the sink and used the soap bubbles to make breasts and they were messing around with that. I swear, I love people but...sometimes I just can't with them. Then during math, after I took a test I had to go to the office, and for some reason I ended up talking to an Army recruiter. So I have to meet him tomorrow at the recruiting office. I'm not interested in going into the Army or even the military anymore BUT I am trying to get my motivation to join back so I'm going to go and listen to this guy and see if I can get remotivated to join. If not, I'll tell him that I'm not interested and that will be that. In R.O.T.C 1 we played Dodgeball and I got so hot that I stood in front of the sprinklers and got soaked. It sucked because I smelled bad the rest of the day BUT when I put my P.T. clothes back on they were cold, so that benefited me when my R.O.T.C 3 class were dying in the heat playing Soccer and I was not sweating as much. I had to take multiple tests today, and sweat got in my eye and it burned. Also we've been working on getting our Food Handlers card in Culinary but it was decided that if we want our cards we have to do the test on the weekend, instead of doing it in class. That's rediculous but whatever. I'll do it and get it done. I'm finally sitting down and I'm doin a lot better now. Sooo my day was not good. Thank gosh it's Thursday. How've yall been? 

OKAY SO, I WAS RECORDING TONIGHT AND I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF THANKING EVERYPONY FOR GETTING A FANFICTION READING I DID 3 MONTHS AGO TO 410 VIEWS AND AS I WAS THANKING EVERYPONY, I LOOKED DOWN MY PAGE A BIT AND HAD A STROKE (not really but my reaction sounds like I had one) AND I NOTICED THAT MY FIRST FANFICTION READING WAS AT 1000, yes 1000 VIEWS. HOLY SHIT. I DON'T KNOW HOW, OR WHY BUT I'M SUPER HAPPY ABOUT IT. GONNA DO SOMETHING SPECIAL AS A THANKS AND I WILL INCLUDE THE AUDIO OF MY REACTION INTO THIS VIDEO. HOLY SHIT THOUGH THAT IS SOOOOO AWESOOME!!!!! How are yall doin today? 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm doin great now. Earlier I felt sore from yesterday, and out of nowhere I felt icky. You know how when you have a cold, your body feels icky all over. That's how mine felt. But I feel better now AND I spent 2 1/2 hours working with my phone. Here's what I did.

Also I finally figured out how to have my songs in a specific order on my phone. Turns out that if I lable my songs 1-10. The 10th song will be in the first songs spot and the first song will be in the 10th song's spot. But after an hour I finally figured out that if I have my songs labeled 001-010, then I can have my songs in their proper spot. How've yall been? 

Thanks for the follow. Always nice to meet new friends. 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. I doubt yall know this but I have R.O.T.C twice this year. One is with all first years and the other with 3 and 4th years. Since I'm the only second year in the class of first years I help my friend/option, and today he had me help him show proper facing movements (those who have been in R.O.T.C or the military know what I mean) and I actually got to command the first years today. They actually did really well for first years. They all were actually doing better than some of the second and third years so that's awesome to see. I can tell they actually want to do this and they have a lot of passion. Some even came up to our option during lunch and asked for some more help with the movements. So that's amazing to see. Other than that nothin else crazy happened.

When I got home apparently my g-parents told me that their monitor wasn't working, so they had to use my computer (they gave me that computer so I could use that instead of being on theirs) and my g-ma saw my background picture of Derpy holding a letter. (Literally that was all it was) and she said to me "I don't know what that is, gut I don't like is so you will need to change it." I wasn't in the mood to fight about something that's child friendly, but I just thought in my mind "Well if you didn't like that, then don't look at my phone background." My phone background isn't too innapropriate but it's suggestive, so...yeah she would've hated it. Other than that my day was good. How was yall's day? 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. So my day didn't start out very good. So during my third hour, the fire alarm went off and we had to wait out side in the heat. It wasn't a fire drill, but there was no fire. Turns out that maintenance accidentally set off the alarm. But because of that we had to wait until the fire fighters showed up. The fire alarm, ended up giving me a headache on account of my sensitive hearing so I had a headache the rest of the day. Then in Free Enterprise, I have no clue why we were on this topic, but basically we talked about why baby's poop is so smelly. It was so gross that I literally had to run out of my classroom, and go to the bathroom to vomit. Fortunately I didn't vomit, but I'm so squeamish that I was very close. Everybody was laughing at me when I ran out of the room but I did not nor do not care. It was either that or be at risk of puking all over the class room. Anyways after that I suffered with a headache and that haunting thought for the rest of the day. Then I got home watched a Try Not To Laugh challenge, and felt better. Anyways now I'm for sure that I'm NEVER having kids. I mean unless I adopt a child in which, I will adopt one after they stop wearing diapers. FYI if you don't know why baby's poop smells so bad, DO NOT look it up. Unless you have a strong stomach. But now I'm doing much better so, how've yall been today? 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. So I got up at 7 and went to the fire station with my fellow Coast Guard Auxiliarists and we exchanged people's old life jackets for new ones. We ran out of all the adult sizes within a couple hours and had quite a few of the children's life jackets left over. I gave out water to people, and cut up old life jackets that weren't reusable. All in all it was a a fun mission to do. This was my first mission with the Auxiliary, and I enjoyed it. How was yalls day? 

So apparently MLP is not going to be on Netflix after the 16th. I hope that's not true but I looked at Netflix and it said that it's available till the 16th. Now this is the problem for me because that's what I watch mlp on all the time. I mean I know of another place where I can watch probably watch it, but still Netflix I'm mad at Netflix because they keep removing good shows. How are yall doin? 

So I was recording my next video for Saturday, and as I was talking about some stuff I thought of an interesting base for a grimdark. If somepony can do something with it go right a head, because since schools started, and I've got my weekly videos, and Coast Guard Auxiliary stuff going on I don't have time for making this into a decent fanfiction. So again if somepony can do something with this go right a head. So here's the base. A struggling, shitty voice actor is having trouble doing a Pinkie Pie voice. He practices doing Pinkie Pie's voice, and eventually he realizes that he can't stop using her voice. By the end of the story, he's been completely taken over by Pinkieminna  Diann Pie (evil Pinkie is what I'm getting at) and I'll leave the rest in to the creator. But anyways that's the fanfic. I'm kind of tired but it's the weekend so I'm going to be stayin up a while. 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. I got new glasses today and they're next to impossible to get used to and they slide off my face so just in case I'm going to bring my original pair which have BlueTech (blocks out blue light from electronics) but these new ones are Transitional lenses (they go from normal to sunglasses when I step out in the sun). Honestly I prefer the BlueTech. I wear a hat for a reason and switching back and forth between my BlueTech and Transition lenses will get annoying whenever I get on a computer or go outside. So next year I'll just get the BlueTech since I'm always on the computer. Tomorrow I have to go back to school, but I'm excited cause I get to see my friends again. How's yalls day? 

My fellow friends. For many moons now I have been on a quest. A quest for true happiness. And today I have started my day out wonderfully, for I have achieved a big step in my quest. Last night, I finally had my first lucid dream. A lot of you may be wondering why having a lucid dream is a step in having true happiness. Well, I've never had a good dream before. My dreams are either depressing, or nightmares. So I spent a lot of time trying to figure out how to lucid dream so I can make myself have good dreams. Even my first dream was a nightmare. But last night I have finally stopped it. Though it was very short. I did end up stopping myself from waking up twice, and I found a method in which I can use to realize I am in a dream. Unfortunately I rarely dream, but hopefully next time I dream, I can use this method to realize that I am dreaming.

And for those who are wondering what my dream last night was, I was (of course) in an anime style, sword fight. How've yall been recently? 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm kind of depressed right now to be honest. My day started out fine, but IDK I've just gotten depressed as the day went by. Earlier today my sister came home from the retirement home she volunteers at with a Pin and a certificate signed by the President himself. She got this because she spent 100+ hours doing community service (which is her volunteer work at the retirement home). Now I'm not going to lie. I'm a little jealous. She gets a certificate and a pin from the President, BUT I am happy for her. Now that's not the thing that's making me depressed. What's making me depressed is this. My whole life I've loved helping people and making people laugh. I found that out at a very young age and I've always loved making people smile and helping them. Now don't get me wrong. I don't need/want anything for helping people, EXCEPT to be remembered. I want people to remember me as the person they can ALWAYS rely on. And what's making me so depressed is that my sister is getting recognized by the president, my whole family is praising her, my mom even wrote about it on Facebook. Everyone is recognizing her for doing 1 thing for 100+ hours, but I go and pay respects to the police officers who've died protecting us and I get called an embarassment from the mayor. And that's what's making me sad. I do so much for my community, for my family, for my friends just to make them happy. And all I get in return is crap from life itself. I've gotten MURSA, a kidney stone (I'm certain I have another one), a cyst, I've almost died multiple times. Again, I don't want a certificate or a pin, I just want to be remembered. I'm the computer nerd in my family, but my g-parents are always asking my sister for help. My parents are always giving my sister stuff before offering it to me (although that hasn't happened in a while). Even the last remaining friends I had before the two worst years of my life, decided that they wanted to hang out with my sister, and just forget about me. I do so much to help, and I don't need anything given back. I'm just tired of being in my sister's shadow. I'm a person myself. I want someone to laugh with, to love. No more crap. I just want to help people, and make them smile. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being selfish. Again I am happy for my sister, but I'm tired of being in her shadow. Sorry for the rant. I just need to go outside, and reconnect my soul with nature. I'll get a few good laughs in me then be ok. How've yall been today?  

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. So today nature decided to give us a nice rain shower, and I decided to go swimming while it was raining because the pool was 85 degrees F. So now I can officially say that I've swam while it was raining. It's so beautiful outside. How've yall been? 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm tired and my feet hurt because today was sooooo long. I went to the Back Pack Buddies today at my school and sat around and led kids to where they needed to go. Also set up and took down some Yeezies. Well in one day I got my whole semester taken care of for community service hours. Although I'm still gonna do a lot of community services, it's nice to have finished my requirement. How've yall been? 

Just watched The Notebook. OMG that literally made me cry. Since I heard it was going to be sad I didn't think I'd cry since I'd be expecting something sad, but damn that tugged my heart strings. Definately worth checking out. Like I said, I kept hearing that it was a sad movie, but it still got me so go watch it if you haven't seen it. It really is amazing. 

Hello everypony. How are yall today? I'm pretty good. So today I'm going to tell yall a little story about how I just avoided the cops. Now I'm just going to say it right now, that it's not as bad as it sounds. So here's what happens. As yall may know, I work for the son of my grandmothers friend, and my job is to water his house, and make sure his house isn't broken into while he's off in California (the house I check up on is a house he rents out to people). So today my g-ma and I were watering and my g-ma said that she heard a weird sound that sounds like an alarm. Now I decided to ask my dad to borrow his Ipod so I could listen to some music while I was watering, and I had my head phones in. I lifted up one of the headphone sides and I didn't hear anything because of how loud my music was and I just wanted to listen to my music so I didn't bother taking off the other side of my headphones. Turns out that was a mistake because apparently when i got home I sat down at my computer and checked my emails as always. I got a message from my boss saying that the alarm in his house went off at 2:15 (the time my g-ma and I were there). So I kept reading the message and apparently the cops showed up. I'm assuming they got their right after we left because we didn't see or hear any police as we were leaving. We're kind of lucky that we left there when we did because if the cops had shown up there while we were there... then we might have been in a lot of trouble because we would have had NO PROOF that we were there to water. My phone was dead so I would've had no way to show the officer that I was just instructed by my boss to water or anything like that. We did have heavy rain and LOUD thunder while we were watering so that might have set off the alarm, but if it didn't then I have no clue what did. I told my boss what was up so he probably informed the police of what happened. Anyways, how was yalls day? 

So recently I've decided to go outside and go up onto a big hill that's right outside of my neighborhood. It has the best view of the desert and I love just sitting right up there. I sit down and close my eyes and let my soul connect with nature. I let my body and soul relax. The calm and peaceful atmosphere that surrounds me just melts all of the stress away. After I get done I stand up and thank the nature gods for the beautiful day and wish the spirits will rest in peace. It's really a calming experience.