Here No Longer

Thinking about what I want to do next so I can stop being a nuisance to a Discord server

Well it's pride month now (Late happy pride month I guess) and this thread hasn't been posted in, in 6 days so I guess I'll reiterate my whole situation.

I'm a pan enby (non-binary, literally NB if it were made a word) only romantically interested in men (term for it is androromantic, forgot to edit this post after I re-remembered the term for it). I think that's been the same for a while, but like reiterating it

Paladins, Tetris, and Destiny 2 mainly. Just started playing Destiny 2 a couple of days ago, I like it thus far I suppose.

How fat these tight jeans make me look is kind of depressing.

*Randomly getting handed a Chick-Fil-A Chicken Burger*

"My morals are saying no but my stomach is saying yes..."

On 2018-06-01 at 11:51 PM, Somebody that Exists said:

I'm 5'10" and weigh 125 or so. That's about 25 pounds underweight, but I don't care honestly. I like being thin, to be honest.

Tbh I wish I was closer to that again, though maybe only down to 135-140 instead. Apparently I have a healthy BMI now since my metabolism kind of crashed and burned around the time I turned 23, but honestly I kind of feel fat honestly at "healthy" weight. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I kind of wish I was underweight again, that actually felt better than the predicament now that I weigh around 155-160.

Just want to get rid of some of this fat really don't like the way I look with it...

Soldier of Dance (aka the Kazotsky Kick song from TF2):

Furret cute   ~~filler~~

I'm feeling like I should probably do something but likely won't.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

On 2021-05-13 at 3:53 PM, Somebody that Exists said:

I don't know why but I signed onto an account with them, but I never really used it. The place seems like a giant scam and honestly I'm inclined to believe a majority of the profiles are fake.

Still getting emails from them and I'm getting really sick of it honestly, especially considering I'm not single and most of the profiles are clearly pretending to be women who I don't romantically want anyways.

This new Firefox sure looks like a downgrade to me

I feel a little betrayed.

We do indeed live in a society.

I was in the process of re-teaching myself Python. Maybe it might be useful for me.

Anti-competitive players of games that are played competitively disgust me. The kinds of casual players that actively don't want people to compete.

An Amazon show called "Undone", that is just wow... I don't know why it hasn't gotten more attention.

Maybe in part because some people could find it convoluted, but I mean, it's a masterpiece partially for the same reason it could be considered convoluted.

I don't know why but I signed onto an account with them, but I never really used it. The place seems like a giant scam and honestly I'm inclined to believe a majority of the profiles are fake.

I have a few games I'd like to mention here:

• Team Fortress 2. I played TF2 for a few years on and off and I cherish the memories I have with it, even including fairly recent ones like when I played Pyro Shark for 3 hours on a 2Fort server The game lacks in no place aside from actual attention from Valve (and the balancing isn't really perfect) and it's really showing that even with now 4 years without a major update that people still flock to this game even now.
• Paladins: Champions of the Realm. I'd say this game is a decent ways away from being as good as TF2, but I keep being drawn to the (unfortunately less than before) amount of depth this game offers. Even if I don't necessarily like certain aspects of the game (like its meta right now and its community of uhhh not entirely great people), I still find it fundamentally a well-designed games even with its flaws.
• I can also technically count Pokemon Uranium here as well since it is indeed a free download. It's by far the best fan game I've seen for Pokemon. It has a significantly better and darker story than most of the mainline games, interesting fake mons, a solid region design... I'd say it's not as good as like Black and White 2 and Platinum, but other than that, it's honestly the best mainline-sort of pokemon game there is.

I tried to play a Demo of Ghostrunner, but it seems like it's very poorly optimized to the point it can barely run on my computer and it was just built not even 2 years ago so it's not like I'm trying to play it on an old laptop. For reference this computer can run Borderlands 3 at high settings perfectly with nothing resembling framerate issues.

Like how am I supposed to have fun playing a game where my framerates are just absolutely terrible the entire time? Gameplay seems like it would be quite engaging if the game were, uhh, playable? Like it felt like I was trying to play Skyrim on a 10 year old laptop with a messed up graphics card.

I think it's mostly because they try to appeal to as many people as possible and they also abuse the algorithm by posting dumb pointless videos. Literally saw a 1 second video of a cat meowing with over a million views.

A rather shocking, but very necessary documentary about how bad gay men specifically were treated by the German authorities during the Holocaust (and even a couple of decades afterward). Trust me when I say they had it worse than literally everyone else, Jews included.

Why Halo 3's final level is a Masterpiece (Halo 3 in general is a masterpiece if we're being honest and it's what every non-RPG FPS should strive to be, RPG FPS wise that would be Borderlands 2)

"Pants stay brown, boys"

Khan from Paladins, without context

Honestly I would like to move back to Washington state if I could. I don't know why people think Texas is such a great state, it's really not and the outages have proven that. Washington might not be perfect (Seattle's handling of CHAZ is an example, and of course how Seattle people whine and complain about other people existing that just so happen to live in tents across the street because they've been abandoned by a country that doesn't care for them), but it's the closest there is in these here states.

I've been losing a decent amount of fondness for this country, and from my time living here especially during the pandemic, well, this country is really not the greatest in the world by a longshot.