I'm feeling pretty down these days...

[Inuemon35 27]

heard that many people experience 'growing pains' in their late teens to early twenties, and I feel like I'm experiencing them these days. I feel like I'm not financially well off, and I worry about things like, "Should I really have gone to college?" and "Will I be able to get a job?" I feel like I'm so far behind the person I wanted to be when I was young, and I feel so pathetic about myself...

[Tira Daffodil 29]

I had that and it's the same now. I've heard that everyone can feel like a loser. Although this is not the case. I've had the feeling that you're trying to talk to someone but everything pushes me away. I am very afraid for my future. I want to find a job and fly to Sydney. It all depends on my studies. So I'm just trying to be better and try my best. Sometimes I snap and start screaming. But you need to ignore everything. Besides, I take everything to heart.

So it's okay.

I hope it was useful for you. 

[ZiggWheelsManning 11,097]

About to turn 40 in February, many days cold and cloudiness that's blocking the Sun.  Half year away from summer coming back.  

[Dreambiscuit 10,170]

I’ve been there too. Most people have unless they’re lucky enough to have won the lotto, were spontaneously grabbed off the street by a passing casting agent for the lead in a major blockbuster, or just got hit on by the love of their life. One of the biggest obstacles is expectation and fulfilling the high hopes we had when we still knew how to dream big. Dreaming big is good, but have a realistic alternative to fall back on in case things don’t come out as planned. I will say this; going to college is the biggest waste of time and money imaginable. I’ve known so many college graduates that ended up with a ton of debt and no more options than anyone else. College doesn’t equate to employment in the job of your dreams; that’s just an absurd assumption generated decades ago by the people selling the textbooks, and the gullible parents who insisted their kids go to college without even thinking why. Getting the life you want depends more on luck or lots of hard effort in putting yourself out there, and thinking outside the box. Whatever your path in life, you shouldn’t feel regret. Regret isn’t a productive emotion unless you can turn it into motivation for something you want to pursue. I’m not going to tell you to give up your old dreams or to think small, because it’s often equally easy or difficult to make a small dream come true as a big one. If you want something in your life, pursue it. If you don’t want to start fresh, you don’t have to. Find something that makes you happy and chase it down, whether it’s big, small or even ridiculous. Happiness can be lurking around the next corner, so just keep an eye out.

[ZiggWheelsManning 11,097]

Several mornings of negative temperatures and tomorrow's is the coldest I'll experience.  Could be stuck showering in cold water for many months.  

[Clawdeen 15,513]

Because this is a life advicey sort of thread not in that section I’ll be as vague in details as possible with my response.

As a person who hit rock bottom and is slowly on the up from it. You really have no where to go but up when you hit that really bad low point. Truly. All it takes is one small thing to help push that pendulum in the opposite direction. Capitalize on it when it happens. For me it was having two things suggested to me that I followed through on because I was desperate. Things that would have went in one ear and out the other if I was in a good spot. Things I wouldn’t have bothered to do. Desperation can be a pretty powerful catalyst for change. It’s why it’s often used to manipulate and take advantage of others.

I mention this because you’re worried about things such as never getting a job. Hopefully you will find one as I know it’s rough out there. However if time passes and you still don't have one. Just know that when push really comes to shove you can get yourself out of it. 

This includes jobs. When push really comes to shove, you’ll be able to find  yourself one.

I lied some during my job interview to get my current job because I was desperate to get out of the one I was in. 

Do I recommend lying during your job interview? No. But I was desperate. When you’re desperate you do what you gotta do to make it. Made things harder for me after starting sure. But then the desperation set in to figure out how to make things work. I’m going on my second year now of sinking and swimming at the same time in this job.

TLDR - When push comes to shove you can get yourself out of your situation. You can only go up from the very bottom if things ever get as bad as what you fear. As for the rest of what you mentioned I highly recommend looking into doing something to help boost your self esteem. Whether that’s therapy, yoga, meditation, mourning, etc. You deserve to feel good about yourself.