Okay so you may know about how I have been feeling lately, depression, anxiety, suicidal and having mental breakdowns, which has made me lash out at specific members, resulting in my current moderation state, for a long time I could not explain it, but now I have come to the reason why to I have done this..

It is because of my severe lack of irl friends, I mean I have a couple but they are always busy with work or school, and the meetups are very rare, and when there are meetups, i am usually broke so I cannot go, so due to this lack of irl friends, my depression, anxiety, lonliness and sadness comes into play, and at times it gets so bad i have mental breakdowns and lash out at people when I don't mean to. I truly apologize to the member I lashed out at, what I did was completely uncalled for and i hope we can forgive each othere, also, I apologize to the staff for having to deal with it....

Good news is, I will be moving in with some friends in New Zealand in a month or two.

Also to all my wonderful family and friends on here, thank you so much for sticking with me through my best and worst of times and for loving me like you do, I truly do appreciate it.

~ Scarlet

P.S To everyone on here who I have scared, made worried or lashed out at, I truly am sorry, this is not the real me, the real me is my OC/Ponysona Mirror Image but everything has been getting to me and making me change...for the worse