I realized that if you want a tulpa, it shuold be on your mind all of the time. That failed in my case, and now I know why: Summer Breeze takes that spot. So that's why I'm stopping with tulpae. Goodbye, Starlight.
So. The last week went bad. Hardly any forcing was done, and narrative was just not happening. I completely ignored her. Not by choice, but just because I got distracted. So today I promised her I would pick it up again, and apologized a lot for ignoring her so much. To start off, I immediately went to have a forcing session to come up with a proper name. After a few minutes of pondering I settled with Starlit Skies, or just Starlit for short. I kinda like it, and if she doesn't like it, we can
Day 3. Today had plenty of opportunities for narrative, as this was my first day with Tulpa-chan at school. I told her about the classes, and the pupils, and everything. At home the narrative fell a bit short though: I was watching anime and playing games and completely forgot about her. Only in the evening did I remember. So I listened to storm sounds and talked for about half an hour. It was pleasant, I should do that more often.
I think I've made progress again. While I was narrating, I
Day two! As usual, I told her stories and narrated what I was doing, but this time I tried asking simple yes/no questions, like, do you like music? I didn't get clear responses, but I did get some head pressure on one side, and then the other following, as if Tulpa-chan is confused. I also played some music to her using sense-sharing which I found a guide on. I hope she heard it. I asked her if she liked the songs, and got unclear answers like before, with both sides being pressured. Some songs
So I decided that creating a Tulpa would be a good idea, so I looked up a lot of data on the internet. After learning a lot, I started imagening an orb floating beside me at all times, which I told stories, and about myself and my family. I left the personality, gender and form for itself to decide. (Hence the placeholder orb.)
In the evening I suddenly realized that I had been referring to it in my mind as "her" and "she", whilst I had decided that the Tulpa could decide the gender later.
