.... I know it's been a while since I've been here and just up and left. I have my reasons but more importantly I've realized how badly I've treated long time friends here. I've thoroughly enjoyed my years on this wonderful forums. Honest though as I look back at how foolish I've acted in the past few years here... I've been a very negative, self-centered person, overly dramatic as well. If I could go back and change how I reacted to things that have happened trust me when I say I would changed alot of those reactions. I'm certain many are probably fed up with my selfish complaints, negativity and more but I can't change the past. This place will always have a place in my heart I promise you that one.
In the past few months I just feel like I've ruined my reputation to shatters here and that is something that stays with you. Apart of me feels that with all the negativity I have spread here... In my foolishness that something inside me feels that it may be better that I stay away. Perhaps if never let myself continuely spewing the same negative complaints after so long. Maybe I'd would still feel like I could belong here.
I just wanted to say from the bottom of my heart that I apologize for all the negative posts, attention seeking posts that I have littered here. It's definitely not something I'm proud of. At least though I've come to that self realization that part of me needed to change immediately. Because honestly who would want to be around someone who is constantly complaining about life and an attention seeking narcissist? Eventually people will get fed up with that nonsense and in turn will cease socializing with that toxicity.
With all this said... If you want to reach me I've joined a form called depression forums it's a really nice place.
I don't know if I should just move on from here because it's been a mental conflict referring to what I said above... I have mistreated my close friends I've made here... I'd change so many things in the past with how I reacted to things.
I do miss you all dearly maybe this time away will help me to better myself and change those aspects.
I hope you all have been doing well
~ Lots of love Tommy
Ahh... Destiny how I have a love/hate relationship with you.
So my trek with Destiny stated late in during this past summer. I received Destiny as a gift years ago when it released but throughout that time I was rather burnt out on gaming. Busy with school primarily and the like. So this past summer I wanted to get back into gaming and played through and beat all the Halos on my 360 on legendary for old times sake. I beat all of them except for Halo 2, which I still have from the original Xbox, that title is by far the most difficult halo to play on the legendary difficulty.
Anyways cutting back to the chase about Destiny ~ Throughout this past summer I played the heck out of the first destiny... Maxed out all of the characters and nearly all of the subclasses. It took me by surprise why I never played destiny when it first launched. I never had the dlc and upon figuring out I had to pay 20$ for all of the dlc on a console that is nearly 13 years old... I decided to just pass up the offer on buying all of that dlc. At that time I never realized just how much all of the dlc cost during their respected launch dates which REALLY blew my mind just greedy these two companies had become!
I was rather lucky and made a good friend during my time playing Destiny and he found a sort of loophole in sharing all of the dlc with others... So therefore through a very interesting process I obtained all of the Destiny Dlc for free 😮 in turn I did the same thing for a good friend of mine who bought the game for like 2$ saving him 20$ in the process...
Reminder I was playing Destiny on the Xbox 360 and I also learned that they had excluded ALOT of content after so long since the "xbox 360 & ps3" were basically considered outdated. That meant there was no longer a year three for the 360 users and the all of the Rise of Iron Dlc were only available for the Xbox one & PS4 users....
All of this information being dropped on me really let me down as to why Bungie would stoop so low and become to greedy?!! It's a damnation at its finest... Activision... Hearing a lot of advice from fellow friends and gamers. They were oh so right about how cancerous Activision has become.
As for Destiny 2 Ive played it and yes Destiny is fun! I love everything about it: the classes, world's, weaponry, mmo experience, and more...
Destiny 2 was a let down because while they did add a few new things hardly much of anything has been changed. The new weapon system is the BIGGEST turnoff for me why they decided to make shotguns, fusion rifles and snipers as heavy weapons really made frustrated. In your first playthrough well you will find out you don't get a Sparrow until the END of the game... 😥
And yup they are continuing the same process with all the extra DlC you have to pay for later... Destiny 2 is basically well it shouldn't even be called Destiny 2. They should have called it Destiny 1.5 or something like that. Nothing has changed except a new weapons system that in my opinion ruined the game for me... Why do I have to use a sniper as a heavy weapon making it so I can't use it at often... It's frustrating and they took out horns that you could use on your sparrows I the original Destiny. Oh and for some odd reason your Guardian can no longer talk?!?! If any of you play Halo you know Master Chief did talk not much but he did and when he did it was awesome!
With all that in mind I'm done with destiny I love the game and everything about it but the two companies who created it are basically killing their own creation to the ground.
So I came across Warframe & the late but great Borderlands the Handsome collection.
So long Bungo and Actishit... I want to enjoy Destiny but because of you I cannot anymore.
Remember shop smart and play smart!
An old nostalgic song that has helped me throughout a lot of hell as the years have passed me by. I've always wanted to do a review on songs I love. Songs have a different meaning to all of us and our take on them. Some of us tie songs to certain memories and experiences you know what I mean? I always like to say that "music is the love that keeps on giving" whereas with humans heh you can hardly count on at all.
Float on is one of those songs that just takes away all of your stress and worries something you can always listen to when you are down and out. At the title of the song suggests it reminds you life is good and you make life how you want it to be 😊. Don't worry cause worrying does not fix anything and just makes you feel worse.
"A fake Jamaican took every last dime with that scam It was worth it just to learn some sleight of hand Bad news comes, don't you worry even when it lands Good news will work it way to all them plans"
This part of the song reminds me that in any situation or circumstances good or bad. Never let the circumstances take over you. You can make the best out of negative experiences because you learn from them and in turn become much more experienced. When he sings he was hit with a scam then he sings well it was worth just to learn some sleight of hand. Don't let anything get the better of you just make the best of the experiences you have and just float on cause with time everything will work itself alright 💚
Band Modest Mouse
Album ~ Good news for people who love bad news
One of the best songs I've listened to in a very long time. The lyrics stating to never be ashamed about yourself. To not change yourself to be accepted by others.
"Shedding your skin,
Showing your texture. Time to let everything inside show. You're cutting all ties Now and forever, time to let Everything outside you Shed your casing, show your lines And shapes
Wear your insides, on the outside,
Show your enemy, what you look like"
Be genuine/Be yourself always
Just a beautiful song that I heard on Pandora the other day and it brought back to my memory. I never knew this song was about the artist losing his brother to suicide... but this whole song has such a great meaning to it. Showing how much we should be thankful for what we have and realizing you never know what it is someone else is going through.
I remember seeing Seether live in 07 with Breaking Benjamin' & 3 Days Grace. Great artists and it's been forever since I heard this song.
So I randomly came across this while browsing throughout the internet. Come to find out "The creative talent behind Banjo-Kazooie and Donkey Kong Country reform for Yooka-Laylee!" A new original game? Chances of remakes of older Rareware titles? Who knows but I sure am liking what I am hearing from this team of developers.
If this interests you I'd say spread the word!
Got a skateboard signed from a artist I love. Signature by Tim Armstrong associated in bands: Operation Ivy, Rancid and Transplants. Only 100 of the skateboards were signed and I got #88. The first time I've had something signed from an artist :3.
Salute to you Tim Timebomb and all the music you have made throughout the years .
This has been something that has been ever so on my mind as of late. I have asked many people their thoughts on long distance relationships. I have asked for advice and so on as well. I know some here have pulled it off... but I really wanted to get other's opinions on long distance relationships.
Do you honestly think that they can work? I for the longest time have always been sketchy about long distance relationships as I have *never* have been in one up until this point in time. I just want some advice or any tips if anyone can offer that.
Do you think long distance relationships can work out in the long run?
Do you ever feel from time to time when you post on here you get a bad sense that maybe your annoying others possibly?
I don't know but I've gotten that feeling from time to time and its only led me to try and just want to lurk more and stay more quiet. I know silence is never misquoted either and well idk this is something thats been on my mind.
Maybe others responses and thoughts can be more clarifed I suppose. I'll just have to wait and see for myself perhaps.
Things that have been on my mind
Some memories are things you'd wish you could complete burn away. Especially certain ones that haunt you time to time. Whether it be a person you cared for or something that you know would never happen yet you wish it could. Memories that come to your mind from time to time just leaving you to wonder why?
It's just another part of life yeah but certain things would be better left in the past. Its hard to have those memories resurface because you know that certain things will never go back to be how they used to be no matter how much you long for them to be that way. Certain things are out of our reach and its then you have to force yourself to accept the facts and move on.
Just because you move on doesn't mean the memories fade away. Just because you wish things were a certain way doesn't mean its the best for you either. Everything you go through either makes or breaks you. Hold on to the good memories and take the rest as learning tool to move onwards.
Lately I have been feeling very apathetic towards people and just making friends in general. Sometimes its like its not even worth trying at at times. Yeah sure dealing with rejection is something we all gotta deal with and get over.
But its like each day I am out in public I detest being around others... >.> idk why I have been feeling more like this. Only a few people I enjoy talking with these days or spending time with but like trying to get to know others on a new approach is not like just simply shooting fish in a barrel.
Here I am speaking my mind about stupid stuff but ehh... I guess just as you get older the more you realize how alone you truly are out there and how much more you gotta take up and look out for yourself.
So this concert I just so happened to hear about 2 days ago and it was only 15$.... the best 15$ I have ever spent. It was one of my favorite concerts I have been too. So much energy from the crowd it was just amazing.
I took some videos they are very shaky in some parts but eh thats how crazy everybody was going on with all the energy.
Well I have really never messed around trying to actually try to play something out of creativity.... Always have just tried to learn songs by tab. Just got back into playing guitar recently but I plan on working with these two little intros I kinda delved into today. Just wanted some thoughts on them and if it sounds alright.
Was a bit nervous on camera never really tried it before
. But yeah I have been planning on getting back into playing more.
So there are some characteristics that standout from her character to me. Those would definitely be caring, passionate, self sacrificing, patient, and smart. We don't get to know much about her from the show's standpoint asides the fact that she is the elementary teacher. They never really have shed light upon her past too much either. So here's hoping they give her the spotlight in a upcoming episode and not like hearts and hooves day that was a funny episode but it seemed kind of forced. I began liking her character a lot from reading several fanfics on her character and *not Cheerilee's Garden*...
Artwork by philo5 Gorgeous picture btw
Well its artworks like this and from one of the fanfics I read. It almost seems like Cheerilee is one of those characters who is really under-appreciated. Going back to the episode where the CMC remarked to her and was surprised she did not have a special somepony her facial expression idk felt like it gave a bit more depth to her character then. Like she wears a happy front at times but inside she may not be happy with herself. *Quoted from philo5* " Cheerilee never gets invited to parties. She wasn't at the Gala or the wedding and I can't recall any other party in which she was present. And she stayed home on Nightmare Night.
Anyway, this (in my mind) would be her dress she'd wear if she ever got an invite to a party. It took a long time to get this design right, or at least to a point at which I could say, "Yep, that's a dress Cheerilee would wear." Obviously it's based heavily on her colors and her cutie mark.
It's OK, Cheerilee. For now you'll just have to go back to a world of making lesson plans, grading homework, bratty students, snobby parents, and intrusive crusaders. And not having a special somepony. Just keep up that brave and cheery facade and things will turn around for you eventually."
So yeah those are a lot of reasons I like her character a lot :3. Some ways I see myself kind of like her maybe so... All in all I did not expect to make this long at all but I let myself get the best of me xD!
Have one last awesome drawing!
Artwork by TwilightFlopple
So yeah I am going and hop in the bandwagon with this.
So my real name is Tommy
I am 20 years old and my birthday is on Oct 24 born in 1993
I am part Puerto Rican yet I do not look like it
Autumn is my favorite season
Pretty shy/quiet person but I am really easy going
I enjoy listening and talking with others
Favorite color is green/black/gray
I love Dr. Pepper
My fav. genres in music are: Blues, metal, classic/hard rock, grunge, alternative, nu metal, punk rock, ska punk, skate punk, power metal and usually many things in those genres.
I love anime
I love fishing
I do not like country music aside from Johnny Cash. Johnny Cash is amazing
I guess that does it there really is not much to me
Is homosexuality acceptable under a Christian perspective?
This is a topic that I found elsewhere from someone else. Now I have a very serious question to other Christian believers out there.
13 “‘If a man has sexual relations with a man as one does with a woman, both of them have done what is detestable. They are to be put to death; their blood will be on their own heads.
Okay let me get this straight gay people should be punished under death right that is what is said. For the longest time I detested gay people and was very closed minded to many things but as of two years past I have really become more open minded to things. Gay people are like anyone else they are human beings wanting to find happiness within' this life. What right does anyone have to strip someone of that right there? Why would a all loving God wish upon death to gay people? That if I start to think about it is pretty sick. Death really people? what condones that? I don't have any problems with gay people should they not have a right to be happy in their life? So please I would really like some feedback on this with honest answers because it is really confusing to me as a Christian to hear this... Thanks
I know this is not my favorite holiday but heck enjoy the day regardless you know what I mean. I wish you all a wonderful day and just have a good time with a friend or just anyone you care for.
:3 I died when I saw this dawww