It's funny how some days play out for me, try as I might to be optomistic which I do force on from time to time. It feels like the universe in a way intentionally tries to find new ways of bringing me down, challenging my ability to find a happy moment in the day more difficult.

Yesterday was a realitvely nice day. I got to hang with my friends, play a few games, had loads of fun RPing here on the forums, AND got to watch the new Godzilla movie that just came out!

Oh...

Not to mention we also recieved a new blueray player that can play all region dvd/blueray movies since my husband's regen 2 or 3 movies couldn't play on a normal player for me here in the states. We spent $159(freeshipping) from an ebay seller to get it. Though to our shock that day, we not only got one, but TWO players of the same brand!

Now I know what some of you are thinking: "Why dont' you return the extra player back? Kinda rude that you're keeping it aren't you?"

The reason why is simply this,

- They've not messaged me to send the extra player back, meaning they don't miss it so far

- I would have to pay a shipping fee to send it back when it wasn't my fault they sent the extra player to begin with

- and lastly, unless they do contact me on sending the player back, I would be happy to do so provided they take care of the shipping fee.

So moving on from that.

After watching the movie, and reorganizing the player and putting all the movies up (took longer then we though) we played one of his movies and it worked like a charm. Happy day right?

Well...only for my husband to litterally lose his temper when he pinched his finger in one of our drawers trying to get out one of his comics. He cussed out so violently over a little thing that it was shocking. Course I had a talk with him about it and he apologized, was just surprsing he'd lose his temper so fast, thinking there was more to his anger then I though.

Anyways moving from that...I'm thinking this morning was going to be great too. I'm having loads of fun on The Grand Galloping Gala RP I'm hosting and I'm making new friends, its awsome! So I take a break from it to go down and get some lunch...when i get word that last night my Nana apparently feel, and she had tried to call up to me and my husband since we were the only ones home at the time. We can't hear her on a good day or litterally sitting right next to her...so it's not a surprise I didn't hear her last night... But the fact is...

She fell...

She needed help...

And we weren't there for her...

She's got servere altimers, and can't remember things five mins after she says something. She can't hear a normal voice home volume...and now she's claiming to have dizzy spells whenever she stands. So naturally I ask my folks "Shall I stay down stairs whenever you all are not home?" But my nana refused, saying she'd be a burden to me...and of course my mother says "But what happends when we are all not here for Nana? That's the issue..." to which obviously we don't know what to do.

Nursing homes are out of the question, we don't trust them and no pony should

And her Pride, is an issue when it comes to taking care of her. She says she's too scared to stand for fear of falling from her dizzy spells. Yet tells us she doesn't want us to be there caring for her 24/7...

*Sighs*

It's just another day in Paradise though, there is happiness around every corner... I know this will work out or we'll find a solution...just its gonna be another challenge is all,

to find that smile.