As a teenager, being in a relationship is one of the worst decisions that you could make.

With the raging hormones that we posses plus the fact that our decision making skills are off the radar insane, you would think I would try my hardest to stay out of the world of dating.

Yet, I continue to find myself back into it.

As many of you know, I am an extremely extroverted and dependent person. I really need someone to control my emotions. While I have been working on this for years, I find myself flocking to the nearest source of comfort.

The closest source?

Relationships.

They sound great at first. Who wouldn't want to be loved, and loved in return? To always have someone there for you? To never be apart?

Then, when you dive into it, you realize how much of a hellhole it really can create.

Drama, shattered feelings, and broken hearts. This is the most usual outcome of relationships.

I am here today to tell you:

Think before you get into a relationship.

I've been in 19 different relationships so far. Each one has ended in heartbreak for myself.

My longest relationship was 3 years. Shortest was 2 days.

What keeps me coming back?

I love the feeling of love.

But it i slowly breaking me apart, piece by piece.

What brought me to the conclusion of straying away from dating?

The latest dramatic event that occurred just today.

For the past few months, I have been in an on and off relationship with my ex girlfriend, Amanda. I really did love her more than anything, as is what I usually do. I am the kind of person who hands their heart away at will to anyone I think is worthy.

Well, she has had a boyfriend for months as well.

What is keeping me from leaving her?

Many reasons.

1. She won't let me move on. I tried once. She flipped out, and screamed at me "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" (Note, this is AFTER she got a boyfriend.)

2. I still love her. It's sad but true.

3. I need the feeling of comfort in my life.

Well, technically she has been cheating on her boyfriend, and it was hurting me so much, that I finally couldn't take it anymore. I told her who she wanted, me, or her boyfriend.

She chose her boyfriend.

Here is the shocker.

She has said multiple times she only loves me.

She doesn't love her boyfriend.

She only chooses him because she can hug and kiss him, but can love me at the same time.

She wants both of us.

My heart, and possibly my head exploded from her answer. I told her off, and pretty much said she was an immature, heartless bitch, who just toyed with me for so long.

Now, I fear she may kill herself, as she is prone to doing so.

Honestly... I'm starting not to care about that anymore. She has threatened it so much, and has hurt me so much, that it barely affects me anymore.

So this, my friend, is why I am staying away from relationships, until I am older.

Thanks for reading.