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Kinda Paranoid...


Misty Rose

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So I've decided to start watching Without A Trace again (cause why not :P) and I've sort of developed a little fear in regards to my future.

 

Since I'll be moving to America (most likely never) in two years or so I'm worried about what can happen. My family wants me to go back to Houston and live with my aunt or at least close to the family there. But I really just want all family out of my life, I don't want anyone checking on me or criticizing me anymore. Plus Houston isn't the best place to live without a car, and I don't want to depend on my family to get anywhere.

 

Therefore I've decided without a doubt I'm still moving to Redlands. It's the best place I can go since it has everything I need and want within biking distance of the apartments I hope to live in. But....since I'm watching a show dealing with missing people, that's where my fear comes in :(

 

I'm scared that since my ex no longer gives a damn about where I go or do, he won't want to help me once I move. So even if I go to Redlands or anywhere else, I'll be alone. If anything bad happens to me no one will miss me or inquire about my whereabouts. I could have an accident at home and if I die no one will find the body unless I miraculously die around the time the rent is due ^_^

 

So yeah I'm pretty scared....if I'm kidnapped, raped, followed, no one will know. As much as I want my freedom there are tremendous risks that come with being alone, and this is one of them :(

 

Plus there's also the fact that even my mom had help when we moved while in Houston, I'll have no help whatsoever and I'll be taking at least two suitcases with me, I don't know how to cook much, and I can't even clean a bathroom. So I'm pretty much screwed -_- My ex seriously expects me to just take this humongous step in my life completely by myself and even though I look forward to it, I'm scared :(

 

I don't know what I'll do....

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I'd totally move where you would be if I could! *hugs* But that's impossible...I'd say if you do end up moving there, try to get to know a (TRUE) friend so you'll have at least someone to be in touch with nearby.

 

I don't know how to cook much, and I can't even clean a bathroom.

 

Holy moly, that's exactly me! :P My kitchen skills consist of filling a pot with water and setting it on the stove to boil (but nothing after that) and cutting biscuits with plastic knives. XD

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I won't have a way to make a good friend though :( And if something happens to me shortly after I move, it'll be too late -_-

 

And I know how to cook some things, just not alot :P

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You could always try staying a bit with your aunt... then, after feeling a bit more confident... moving along =p

 

Also maybe try going to college... if u can get in you might have a easier time adapting to being 'alone' while not being exactly alone =o... thats what im planning to do

 

Chance of something happening is small tho... i mean its there... but shouldnt worry that much (pepper spray?)

 

Just think that there are LOADS of people that went through this and they are all fine and happy... so theres no reasons stuff wont look up for you too =)

 

 

Lol...all i know to cook;

 

Omlette, omlette.... and omlette (Also sandwhiches =p)

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You could always try staying a bit with your aunt... then, after feeling a bit more confident... moving along =p

 

Also maybe try going to college... if u can get in you might have a easier time adapting to being 'alone' while not being exactly alone =o... thats what im planning to do

 

Chance of something happening is small tho... i mean its there... but shouldnt worry that much (pepper spray?)

 

Just think that there are LOADS of people that went through this and they are all fine and happy... so theres no reasons stuff wont look up for you too =)

 

 

Lol...all i know to cook;

 

Omlette, omlette.... and omlette (Also sandwhiches =p)

I said I don't want to move to Houston because I don't want to depend on my family to go anywhere. You need a car :(

 

And I'm not going to college. There's no reason why I should -_-

 

I don't think LOADS of people moved somewhere completely by themselves with no help or support from anyone. I also bet those people aren't orphans like me >_>

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I said I don't want to move to Houston because I don't want to depend on my family to go anywhere. You need a car :(

 

And I'm not going to college. There's no reason why I should -_-

 

I don't think LOADS of people moved somewhere completely by themselves with no help or support from anyone. I also bet those people aren't orphans like me >_>

Well... public transport might be an option there =p

 

Well... actually... good college degree = chance at better job = more $$$ = less problems... so  should consider college

 

What i meant was a lot of ppl moving alone... with support... but still alone... but that really doesnt sound like a good idea anyway -_-

 

I still think trying college might give u a better chance ^^

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