I'd miss you if you died. Yeah, I might move on after a while, not sit there and miss you every second, but that's not the same as forgetting about it entirely.

 When my grandpa died years ago it really hurt me, it still hurts to think about sometimes, and of course I still remember him and think about him. Maybe not all the time, but it's still there. Same with pets I've lost, and even to a lesser extent with shows and games that have ended. Losing something, or having something come to an end hurts.

 I'm no more special than you are. I sit in my room, play games, watch shows, talk on these forums. There's nothing all that special or interesting about me. I have a few minor talents, occasionally say something smart or funny, but really nothing that great.

 You've become my friend, and if you vanished tomorrow I'd get worried by it. Maybe all you can offer sometimes is just to listen, or say a few kind words, but sometimes that's all that's needed.

 I can't offer much advice, since my position isn't much better. But you aren't a worthless fool. Not unless so am I.

First of all, I don't think it's brainwashing. Have your parents had a very strong influence on you? Yes, very much so, a lot more than they probably should have.

There's a movie almost exactly like this, it stars Adam Sandler. That movie is The Waterboy. I don't know if you've seen it or not, but it pretty much paints the picture of what you are going through.

I digress. No matter what your parents say and do, you are your own person. You have free will, you make your own decisions. You are also at that age where you're starting to figure out who you are, and part of doing that is figuring things out for yourself, even if you have to break some rules to do so. Believe me, I know all too well.

Yes, there is an element that you are whining, but at the same time, it isn't pointless or meaningless. Underneath that complaining is a real issue, and someone who's hurting from it because it's digging deeper and deeper into you, and there's a chance that you might not recover from it. Here's the thing: you won't know until you try.

If you are genuinely concerned about your family, or your safety, you need to find someone you trust, and tell them how you feel. Even if it's the neighbor, or a relative outside of your immediate family, or even the mailperson, but you have to tell them.

*Huggles*

Well, I didn't mean that I wanted someone to be shattered forever by my disappearance, only that I would like to know that they missed something. Not out of cruelty. I suppose that in and of itself is selfish.

First of all, I don't think it's brainwashing. Have your parents had a very strong influence on you? Yes, very much so, a lot more than they probably should have.

 

There's a movie almost exactly like this, it stars Adam Sandler. That movie is The Waterboy. I don't know if you've seen it or not, but it pretty much paints the picture of what you are going through.

 

I digress. No matter what your parents say and do, you are your own person. You have free will, you make your own decisions. You are also at that age where you're starting to figure out who you are, and part of doing that is figuring things out for yourself, even if you have to break some rules to do so. Believe me, I know all too well.

 

 

Yes, there is an element that you are whining, but at the same time, it isn't pointless or meaningless. Underneath that complaining is a real issue, and someone who's hurting from it because it's digging deeper and deeper into you, and there's a chance that you might not recover from it. Here's the thing: you won't know until you try.

 

If you are genuinely concerned about your family, or your safety, you need to find someone you trust, and tell them how you feel. Even if it's the neighbor, or a relative outside of your immediate family, or even the mailperson, but you have to tell them.

It can't be someone face to face because there is literally no one. Although, I do admit brainwash is a strong word.

Well, I didn't mean that I wanted someone to be shattered forever by my disappearance, only that I would like to know that they missed something. Not out of cruelty. I suppose that in and of itself is selfish.

It's selfish, maybe. But I have the same feeling too. It's only human, to want people to care about you.

 If I vanished from the site for a while I wouldn't want anyone spending all their time freaking out over me. But at the same time I'd feel pretty bad if I came back to find nobody had even noticed or cared.

I would very much miss you if you died. I care about you. You're my friend! Hey, I've lived a sheltered life too, but there is no reason for you to feel like this. I'm sorry, but none of what you said is true. The internet can be a wonderful place, I've made lots of friend through it, and you can too. It may not be the greatest social interaction in the world, but it can prepare you for the world in the near future.

I'm not gonna tell you not to leave, but I'd sorely miss you if you did. All of your friends here and on SmashBoards would.

I appreciate all the support, truly. I'm not in a constantly depressed state; it sort of comes and goes. So I'm not as bad as it may sound, though I know I still need to do something about it.