Not really. It's no me being sarcastic, but part of me goes into denial as a way of coping. I make myself laugh to try and stop feeling down. It's a good trick, and really does seem to work. But only as a delaying tactic. My life is empty and I have no real future.

I'm 31 and still going nowhere in my life.

I'm just no a good person.

I don't even mean that in a "good guy / bad guy" way, but more "I'm not good at being a person".

Hell, part of the reason I bitch here is that I don't like doing it with people I do know. I need to vent, but I becoming more and more anti-social as I grow older.

Funny since my issues stem from being bullied as a child and having no friends for most of my life.

Fuuuuuccccckk.

I'm going to sleep now.

What does it say that for me, the worst part of my day is waking up?