I guess places like these aren't the best for bonding friendships, just occasional chatter. Many are quick to add me, which is odd. I mostly use the site as a means to alleviate boredom and I can't simply stop liking MLP. I suppose being ignored is human nature if it doesn't appeal, excite, or approve of others. I'm a diverse member, not really quite the conformist. I've known what loneliness is for a very long time. I've missed out on a lot. Rather than making friends, I usually run into rude strangers. That's just the safe, anonymous barriers of the net for me.

I highly doubt I'm listened to, it's more of if someone likes my personality behavior or something they desire which is catered to some specific want or need. I've been in the shadows, observing the behaviors of others, but I'm not one to mimic them. I'm weird, a loner, and to some, evil.

I remember watching someone getting beat up on the streets (YouTube) and many would just walk right by them, not even to help in some small way. Thinking back on my life, I remember getting beat up too, and watching so many bystanders enjoy the show. That's the cruel reality that most humans, are indeed selfish in nature.

Why am I so generous, polite, shy, and emotional? Maybe I've just been treated as a living pin-cushion. I'm shunned or pitied based on who I am, but not really accepted. To rid oneself of any stereotype, prejudice, or discrimination is very hard to do. I suppose I've thought about this and looked into the small details that most would overlook.

"Without deviation of the norm, progress is not possible" - Frank Zappa