I guess everypony know that feel:

-Sooner or later, there come days, weeks or even months, where everything just seems to go wrong.

Depression, Sadness, regret, anger, hate etc. We probably all get trough it from time to time, in Real Life, in internet, no matter if just somepony randomn or a superstar.

This month showed me that good enough.

The month started normally, everything seemed to be fine, until I got annoyed by something in CTaM. I got in a fight with another user, but ended it, before it had gone worser. I petty fast cae over that and keeped on with life ... until around in the middle of the month, I got 150 warning points and a permaban from the thread.

For those who now think: Pftt, just a forum game

...it's like a second home to me, where I met most off my friends

However after explaining I have now a chance for a month.

But that's not all, that the month gave me hard.

I really hate the mother of my stepfather. She annoys and nags on me everytime, for the stupidest little reasons. So I'm pretty glad to usually see her only every 2nd weekend ... but my stepfather renovated few rooms, cauusing her to come and help ... and poof, I had to see her everyday in a whole week(Itronically the same week as my ban came)

Its not fun to come home from a hard work day, only to get nagged by stuff, not even 10 minutes after your home.

Then RPs I have, here, Skype and in another forum. It just seems like, they wont continue or just other reasons. The highlight: Somepony deleted or long, awesome romance RP. Reason? I have other romance RPs with other users, but with the same OC: My main OC Rising Shine. He(And his mare OC) feeled "Cheated". Were still friends, but the RP I reall enjoyed is dead and gone.

Then there is Formula 1. I enjoy watching the races, ut recently I really barely watch the race and hang out more here. First race this month, Button crashes and loses positions, te next race, he didnt even started. McLaren at his worsed.

So, finally done with your-NOPE!

The whole story with Kojima leaving Konami. As a big Metal Gear fan it was of course a giant shock for me to read about that. I'm worried every MGS after MGSV will just be to make money. Not fun at all.

And I was sick, yesterday. Besides of my operation last year, the first time for long to where sick enough to stay home. And trough other pain, a meeting next monday by an urologist.

That all, in one month.

Of courseI feel down and depressing, still kinda do. And even when a few good stuff(DASH'S FIRST SOLO!) I just wonder:

-Why are the ones, that try there best to be calm and happy, are the ones, who's flanks get kicked daily?

Why are the kind ones the ones that get backstabbed? Is our world really that far, to take out the trash and keep the survivors? The killers and murderers etc.

No.

Even when there is times, where we feel down, where we suffer, we just need to stand up and keep going. People try to take us down, for what we are. I'm not strong or smart, I'm nothing the best in something. But I'm still standing, standing strong on my 2 feets(Or 4 hooves). I'm still here, trying to push my bucking life away to make others happy. I dont care, if I ever get a special somepony, if I ever get a real job or whatever. I keep going, because I want to see life. See what he future brings. Things happen, things come, things go. Sometimes they appear in small pieces from time to time, sometimes they smash you with several stuff on you. I keep standing up.

A randomn facebook pic showed it good enough:

-The strong peoples are not the ones, who can care heavy stuff and kick hard. The true strongness lays in the people, that cheer and help people in need, even when themselves are the ones, who need help themselves

What I want to say is:

Rising out.