my heart has been torn a lot when i was little i have had bad things happen to me. i made a mistake that will stick to me till i die, i casted a spell that would let me leave my body and escape to other worlds. the price (which i did not know then) is that my heart slowly blackens. now the only cure for this is love for it is the ultimate light. but the cures stops people from falling in love with me, it also prevents me from dieing (want proof well lets say i swallowed a knife and i am still here ok?) also i have to have the worst luck ever. so there now you know it is not your fault ok? i was just struck stupid as a child. darkness is real and it hurts me every day. i hate what i have done but there is nothing i can do. so for those that think magic is awesome and want to be harry potter forget it please for your own sake because all magic comes with a price.