Turns out what one psychologist diagnosed as autism is now actually PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. Good news I totally know where it came from and am taking some big steps to dealing with the diagnoses just by guessing and tiny amounts of research. Bad news one part of getting myself better means I have to drop a few of my interests and give my personality an overhaul. It's to help me not be so controlled by the defensive tendencies of the ptsd/anxiety. In my case things that I use to avoid/try to prevent or end with with as tools or actions, and mlp has contributed to that proverbial belt. Unfortunately it's tearing a good size hole right through me. Some things I really connected with and it's tough to wanna part with them even though it's to better my mental emotional health. I swear all that goes on mentally is circling a proverbial drain just because of how upset losing the things I love is making me and how worried I am about how my personality will be after I'm not suffering from the mental illnesses.