I tried but looks like i wont be able to be as active these days as i used to be back then even if i wanted to, its not the same and im not the same anymore  back then that was what i needed but these days its not something that i am willing to go through again as it was also pretty straining on me and my emotional health. 

Stabilizing myself and my emotions has been somewhat successful when i took the break from here and i feel quite content about it now, my presence here was something that i miss but also i think it went bit too far at some points. I committed too much energy and emotion here and it caused me to be in kind of a rollercoaster emotionally. but it is something that i learned from since  that was my first time when I participated in a forum and actually communicated with people.

I feel grateful for everyone that i've encountered here and i hope i will continue to meet many people here and learn from them as i've been able to learn from the ones that i've already met here