Hey MLPF, hope everyone is well. i've been doing some reflecting for the past month. specifically in regards to the forum. i have been on this forum for almost 13 years now. what an amazing community. i remember some good friendships, laughs, moments and so on. however i also remember some bad times. specifcally ones that were caused be me. truth is i haven't always done right by the forum.

Specically, i want talk about the following:

-Aggressive statuses: in the past i have posted some rather...depressing and angry statuses. such as "i have everyone" or "i can't stand you all", "no one likes me etc." i've also lashed out from time to time and that isn't acceptable. i remember throwing a fit once because i was kicked from the forum server over letting my depression spill into the server. i was mad as heck but upon reflection i understand. there's nothing wrong with expression your pain, but dumping it on others, it's not okay. and i can understand why some of my past statuses have bothered others before. I am truly sorry to any member i lashed out against or dumped my depression on. I also apologize to any staff member i have given a hard time.

-I also wanted to address the fact that admittingly i have flirted with women on here/discord. usually unwanted flirting sadly. it is okay to say that you are single and looking of course.but i realize that just because a woman is single doesn't mean she is looking for a relationship or comfortable with flirting, regardless if harm is meant or not. I don't specifically remmeber most of it but it did happen. and for that, I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart to any female member i have ever made uncomfortable here.
 

This post was tough for me to write. it's not easy talking publically about this. but i felt like i had to. recently i tried to put myself in your shoes, to the best of my ability. and even then i can't imagine what it felt like. i never meant to cause anyone harm or pain. but i did. and i need to own that. which is why i am making this post.

From here on, no more. no more aggressive or depressing posts/statuses. No more flirting. No more dming without chatting. no more accusations of hate or being mean. We're all in this together, growing. Idk if this post will reach all ears but i hope it reaches any ears it can.

Lastly, I want to thank this forum. you've all affected me in such amazing ways, especially recently. I had near left the forum acouple years ago but key members here brought me back. I owe it to them to take accountability for the past. So that i can love myself into the best version of myself I can be. and to be the best friend i can be. thank you for all for your kindness. and i hope you are all okay out there!