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Dear Reader,

 

 

It's not often that a song strikes a chord in me. To be perfectly honest, ninety percent of what I listen to is mindless garbage that I wouldn't recommend to anyone. For some reason, I'm attracted to trash when it comes to music. But every once in a while, when I am in a particularly creative or melancholy mood, I'll stumble upon a little gem like this one.

is a song I'd never heard of, although I vaguely remembered The Script from such smash hits as Breakeven.

It made me wonder, Dear Reader. I've never been in a serious relationship. This is a problem I plan on rectifying upon graduating from college, while I pursue my career. Until this point, I see no reason in investing energy in dating, until I'm old and mature enough to seriously look for a long-term companion. Not a common thought for a nineteen year old, hormone-addled girl, I'm sure.

I've always thought about relationships in a soft-focus, romanticized way, since I've never had any basis other than books and movies. But this song, which I can't stop listening to, made me wonder. Do I want to have that kind of power over a person? Do I want to be able to crush someone with a single word or action? This thought terrifies me - absolute power corrupts absolutely, as they say.

I don't ever want to drive a man to that point. I don't want to get a call in the middle of the night, hearing a broken man on the other end of the line, saying that he still loves me. That's a position I never want to put anyone in. I may just be gun-shy, but that kind of power frightens me.

If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure.

How could I do that to someone? It may be my too-often exploited compassionate streak coming through, but I'm at the age where I'm looking around at men and going, I could see myself marrying him. Those kind of thoughts frighten me as well. How could I say no to someone who would promise to love me forever, to stay with me, to give me everything he has and everything he will be?

Yours,

Earl

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As a 14-year-old socially awkward male nerd, I'm really not into relationships since our teacher (I'm in a Christian school, you probably know that) would always tell us that we should focus on our studies first.(Having a boyfriend or a girlfriend WILL get you expelled there, like what happened to 2 of our students last year) Let me share you something, Earl. When I was a kid, I would call it the "time my hormones are in overdrive" (That wasn't even puberty) I was immature back then, my unbridled hormones control me like a puppet master. I remember the times when I cried like a kid who didn't get he wants for his birthday, just because my crushes are with somebody else. Gosh-darn it, I was so stupid back in my childhood. The most humiliating thing I ever did was in my 1st year of high school. So, I was crushing on this girl, and I obsessed over like I'm stalking her.(I WAS 12 BACK THEN) To the point I used bizarre and idiotic methods just to get her attention. (I won't specify them, and they aren't what you think!) to the point that I had to talk with her mom, and my teacher had to say that I'm not allowed to go near her. The most idiotic thing I ever did was deluding myself that everybody ignores me and doesn't even care for me, but everybody is too smart for that. They were right, I loved my crushes too much. TOO. FLIPPIN'. MUCH. and "too much love will kill you".

When I saw and heard the song in which you mentioned, those memories came back to my mind like a boomerang. This looks like gender-flipped, but I empathize with you on this for this, since I know how it feels like being the guy on Nothing by The Script. Loving somebody else even if you didn't know if you are being loved back.(Yep, I acted this when I was 10.)

I might not know how it is to be on a relationship (After all, I've always thought relationships to be the way you mentioned and I've also had never any basis except romantic movies and novels and this sounds a little hypocritical, considering that I have no girlfriend myself), but here is what I know. Judging how you post on this forums, you really are compassionate. Circadian was right about you being probably the nicest user he had ever seen, focusing on zen, love and tolerance.

I know that you don't want to hurt the feelings of men, considering that most men will give up everything, or even go insane or commit suicide if the women they love dumped them big time.

Judging by this post, I strongly believe that you, Earl Grey, is the #1 Nicest  and Most Compassionate MLPForums user I've ever seen since I became a member two weeks ago. I, Noflippinbody, won't just commend you for being a    good Christian, but also on being nice. Never I saw this kind of being nice everywhere.

Earl, I hope you see this comment.

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As a 14-year-old socially awkward male nerd, I'm really not into relationships since our teacher (I'm in a Christian school, you probably know that) would always tell us that we should focus on our studies first.(Having a boyfriend or a girlfriend WILL get you expelled there, like what happened to 2 of our students last year) Let me share you something, Earl. When I was a kid, I would call it the "time my hormones are in overdrive" (That wasn't even puberty) I was immature back then, my unbridled hormones control me like a puppet master. I remember the times when I cried like a kid who didn't get he wants for his birthday, just because my crushes are with somebody else. Gosh-darn it, I was so stupid back in my childhood. The most humiliating thing I ever did was in my 1st year of high school. So, I was crushing on this girl, and I obsessed over like I'm stalking her.(I WAS 12 BACK THEN) To the point I used bizarre and idiotic methods just to get her attention. (I won't specify them, and they aren't what you think!) to the point that I had to talk with her mom, and my teacher had to say that I'm not allowed to go near her. The most idiotic thing I ever did was deluding myself that everybody ignores me and doesn't even care for me, but everybody is too smart for that. They were right, I loved my crushes too much. TOO. FLIPPIN'. MUCH. and "too much love will kill you".

When I saw and heard the song in which you mentioned, those memories came back to my mind like a boomerang. This looks like gender-flipped, but I empathize with you on this for this, since I know how it feels like being the guy on Nothing by The Script. Loving somebody else even if you didn't know if you are being loved back.(Yep, I acted this when I was 10.)

I might not know how it is to be on a relationship (After all, I've always thought relationships to be the way you mentioned and I've also had never any basis except romantic movies and novels and this sounds a little hypocritical, considering that I have no girlfriend myself), but here is what I know. Judging how you post on this forums, you really are compassionate. Circadian was right about you being probably the nicest user he had ever seen, focusing on zen, love and tolerance.

I know that you don't want to hurt the feelings of men, considering that most men will give up everything, or even go insane or commit suicide if the women they love dumped them big time.

Judging by this post, I strongly believe that you, Earl Grey, is the #1 Nicest  and Most Compassionate MLPForums user I've ever seen since I became a member two weeks ago. I, Noflippinbody, won't just commend you for being a    good Christian, but also on being nice. Never I saw this kind of being nice everywhere.

Earl, I hope you see this comment.

 

I've tried to write this three times and each time my computer shorted out. Silly laptop.

 

First off...thank you for the compliments. ^////^ There's much nicer people on here than me, you just haven't met them yet. And I wouldn't be nearly this nice if I didn't have God to vent to every day. It's a good thing he's a patient Father. :P

 

Secondly, I know what you mean about the hormones. I had that exact same problem when I was your age, only with fictional characters. Mostly Star Wars or Lord of the Rings. I'd go bananas over them, and drive my parents crazy, but it did help me minimize my embarrassment over real people. Thankfully, I can count on one hand the amount of guys in real life I've crushed on, but my fictional crushes would be too numerous to count. It's all part of the age, they fade away over time.

 

Also, a quick warning. When faced with a choice of compassion or reason, always pick reason. I've got the curse of feeling extremely heightened emotions 24/7 - I don't do anything halfway, and nearly every emotion I feel is amplified. Including my compassion. My family knows I'll do anything if they ask the right away, so my compassionate streak is often exploited.

 

My fear is that I'll be in a damaging relationship and be unable to break I off, since I don't want to hurt anyone. Guys feel incredibly heightened emotions when it comes to women, too, so that's my worry. I don't ever want to hurt anyone, especially if my concern for myself is rather low.

 

Keep on being awesome. <3

 

Yours,

Earl

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Thanks for the warning.

I really don't know, but I just feel that you're probably the nicest user I've ever saw, and I wish I could see more people like you.

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