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Dear Reader,
It's not often that a song strikes a chord in me. To be perfectly honest, ninety percent of what I listen to is mindless garbage that I wouldn't recommend to anyone. For some reason, I'm attracted to trash when it comes to music. But every once in a while, when I am in a particularly creative or melancholy mood, I'll stumble upon a little gem like this one.
It made me wonder, Dear Reader. I've never been in a serious relationship. This is a problem I plan on rectifying upon graduating from college, while I pursue my career. Until this point, I see no reason in investing energy in dating, until I'm old and mature enough to seriously look for a long-term companion. Not a common thought for a nineteen year old, hormone-addled girl, I'm sure.
I've always thought about relationships in a soft-focus, romanticized way, since I've never had any basis other than books and movies. But this song, which I can't stop listening to, made me wonder. Do I want to have that kind of power over a person? Do I want to be able to crush someone with a single word or action? This thought terrifies me - absolute power corrupts absolutely, as they say.
I don't ever want to drive a man to that point. I don't want to get a call in the middle of the night, hearing a broken man on the other end of the line, saying that he still loves me. That's a position I never want to put anyone in. I may just be gun-shy, but that kind of power frightens me.
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure.
How could I do that to someone? It may be my too-often exploited compassionate streak coming through, but I'm at the age where I'm looking around at men and going, I could see myself marrying him. Those kind of thoughts frighten me as well. How could I say no to someone who would promise to love me forever, to stay with me, to give me everything he has and everything he will be?
Yours,
Earl
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