I've literally been under the rays when the re-alignment or re-orientation started happening. Not only was I under the tropical heat and sun of my homeland but I was also surrounded by the ambience of cacti, red soil and other dried plants. There's something about letting my skin slowly burn under ultraviolet radiation as well as being in a desolate environment removed from civilization that gets me to re-orient my thoughts like the fixing of a compass.

So... What thoughts went through my mind as I absorbed the desolate ambience under the ultraviolet radiation of mid-day? What a lot of people think about in these days; that is, how to make ends meet. The difference is the context. Where most people would think about it in the context of finances, there I thought about it in the context of my natural environment. There I thought about it not as a citizen but as an organism. I was reminded of how dependent I am on the economy and how I want to change that.What I really want is for money to become more of a vain luxury rather than a necessity in my life. I've had such fantasies since I was but a child.

Now that that's been brought out, it brings me to another thing that had crossed my mind; what my calling is. For a long time, I could answer the question of "what do you want to be when you grow up", especially once I had gotten intimidated and confused. Right now I am a college student in electrical engineering. Is this my calling? Not exactly. As I walked under the ultraviolet rays, I learned that my calling is much more... amorphous I guess. It's not one specific thing like most of us would think. For some it is but for me it isn't. What it is is whatever it is that which I see is demanded of me in order to survive, adapt and thrive. This has been taking various forms. However, I'm convinced that this isn't something to be done as a lone wolf but as a pack. It's partly for this reason that I've been delving into topics relating to psychology and biology. Humans are a social species, not a solitary one and we evolved that way for a reason.

Well, I'm going to leave it here because it seems like this could go on to no end.