You know, when Summer began for me, I felt like it would be the perfect opportunity for me to try writing once again.

But apparently, it's turning out terrible for me, in fact it already has. The two biggest blockades are finding a serious proofreader to, well, proofread, and figuring out whether my style is even acceptable. Turns out, not even the Proofreading Group wants to take me seriously, and not even my own writing style is acceptable.

Ever since I stopped drawing, I've been left with nothing to fill in the gap, except for writing, something that had always been a weakness to me that I thought I'd be able to sharpen.

I tried my hand at writing once before, but it backfired horrifically. I literally made myself sick over it all. That was last year. So far, this year is just an extension of last year's failure.

And even the year before that, I tried writing and it failed. Only one person ever agreed to review my story, and I gave up on it due to low feedback; A good number of people agreed to review my story and none of them, except for one, ever did.

This is a mismashed feeling of betrayal, depression, desperation, isolation, and anger.

I really really really really really really wanna write, but if I can't find someone to help me out, what am I to do? I'm pretty sure Fimfiction won't even want to accept my writing style, and yeah, I've tried TWICE with the the Forums' Proofreading Group.

As much feedback I already get from the friends whom I send these stories to, it's not enough until I get a professional reviewer to give a very thorough review. That's what I've been longing for for so long. If it's really too much to ask for, then so be it.

I'm running out of options, motivation, and time. I can't bear to ask my colleagues over at my other home sites, since I'm already at work for them, and deviantART is pretty much a no-zone for me. My Summer Break ends in the middle of August, and by then, I won't be able to write anything... At all. This'll be my last chance at writing for a very long time.

So what do I write? Anything that comes to mind: Romance, sadness, destruction, random comedy, anything of that sort. And it's all been piling up for years now.

I've heard from places that MLPFiM needs more fiction writers, and I want to take on that task, but if no one's gonna acknowledge that, then what's the point?

I've tried countless times to find a reviewer who can give a serious and thorough review, I've mentioned already, but it's clear that they're not there or that it's too big an order to fulfil.

Anyways, I guess that's it. Either I find a reviewer, or I quit.