Okay, this is a serious, well not that serious, problem...

How long do you think did it take to write this blog entry here? A few minutes? Five? Ten? Or more? Yes, it took longer... No kidding. I guess this is not unfamiliar to all of you who are not native speakers of this wonderful, yet sometimes confusing language. I started to learn English in the fifth grade. That's been over ten years ago now.

Can I speak it fluently? Not really. Do I need to frequently use a dictionary? Yes. Is this annoying at some times? Yes. Do I improve? Is it an improvement to undestand it way better than to be able to express myself in it? Well, it is, right? I mean, watching shows, playing games and reading texts in English is mostly not a problem, but when I want to talk to English speaking people or try to respond to topics here on the forums, for example, I often don't know what I'm doing. I'm serious. I often just sit there, for several minutes, and think about a single sentence. Can you write it that way? Is this the right word for what I mean? Is this comprehensible? And then I often delete what I already typed in and leave the thread...

I don't even try to translate German into English. I directly think and write in English because the former is a futile attempt when you want to be at least a bit fast. But still... I feel like I'm using a tool that I'm not really familiar with. Even though I've been using it for over a decade. I often realize that it'd be easier if I was able to speak English as good as I speak German. So many topics I don't reply to, so many posts that end up to be more simple than I wanted them to be... The problem is that I actually know that there is no way that I'll ever be able to speak it perfectly. Has something to do with genetics and psychology.

But do I give up? No, sir! Am I alone with this problem? I'm sure I'm not. Will I try to do my best? Yes!