Let me rephrase. I cannot KILL people in survival games. I recently bought DayZ and Rust. In both of these games, I have a lot of fun. But there is one part of these that literally make me hurt inside.

I cannot kill people. I seriously cry when I am shooting or attacking someone, and my heart beats seriously fast. I do not understand why. I just can't.

Something is wrong with me, and I am trying to figure out what. I can kill people in any other game, but not this one. It just feels... so wrong.