Thuja

ngl, this house is kinda cool too... If I had millions of dollars, I'd easily build this house!! https://beaverhomesandcottages.ca/Model/Hollyhock

So sometimes I like to look at houseplans from the same place my mom went through for her house. My mom and I may not be on speaking terms anymore but I still hope to build my own house like she finally has(or at least from when I last saw her, she was getting the ground ready for the foundation. I'm sure it's built by now, been a few years). I know I can't even afford a car, much less a house but still, if I were to win the lottery tomorrow, I would definitely keep my dream house in mind for some of the money I potentially win... It's kinda an odd thing to look at for someone who can barely afford to survive but one of these days, I hope that I can live more comfortably and have a place to call my own. With the world going to shit right now, it's been a comforting yet bittersweet practice to indulge in, looking at homes you know you could never afford, the thought of having even $2K in the bank seems like a dizzying sum. Regardless, I like looking at houses from this site. I could imagine myself living in a few of the ones that I like looking at the most. Not too big, not too small either, cozy, with a separate bedroom that I could use as a gaming room or for sewing!! One of these days, I hope I can enter one of these dream homes and know that it's mine... I think it would be cool to have at least most of this home off the grid and have my own solar panels since where I want to live gets a fair amount of sun, the amount for electricity in rural areas is ridiculously overpriced and the power gets knocked out a lot by heavy winds or storms. Anyways, here's some of the plans I really like, if you want to look at them! Hope you're all having a great day~!!!! https://beaverhomesandcottages.ca/Model/Tidewater https://beaverhomesandcottages.ca/Model/Lindhill-I https://beaverhomesandcottages.ca/Model/Beauwater

Not enough people have learned from vampires to come in only when invited and it shows smh...

I want to make a big blanket for some reason. I keep thinking about an old blanket my mom gave up on, she was using an embroidery hoop to trace out the shapes on the blanket and sometimes I would do some of it. She gave up on it because she couldn't balance out quilting and medical school at the same time so she gave the unfinished blanket to an actual quilter cousin so they could do it instead. I'd kinda like to try making my own, but halloween themed instead?

Since I have more of an idea of what my fursona is, I kinda want to try sculpting his head out with clay just so I can properly draw his damned antlers. My fursona is a Predatory Elk, I just call him that because he has sharp teeth. I got the idea from one of the furry artists on tumblr that I follow who draws predatory deer and I was scrolling through their art and was like, What if it was E L K? ooooo... I love elks so it works out lol.

You know what? I've changed my mind, I would totally date her, just to see if she's a good dater.

I would probably first upgrade my bank account so I have unlimited spending since it's only limited to 25 transactions a month before charging me for overspending. I would then pay off some of the gofundmes and other fundraisers I see on tumblr. I would then get everything that I need for my planned top surgery, just some basic stuff like food prepping, getting scar medications, supplements, probably buy enough food to last me the month or so, whatever else I had in mind for post-op care. At some point, I'd probably have to notify my disability worker of my winnings, which means they'd probably kick me off of the program but that isn't that big of a deal. I'd move from where I live currently and move to a bigger city where I can get the education I want since my local community college doesn't offer much that I'm remotely interested in. Work to get my driver's license. During all these goings on, I'll probably set myself on a budget of, let's say, 4k a month? I mean, I currently live off of $1,200 a month so something like that will make things so much easier for me and I want to ensure my bank account can stay a float for a long time instead of being one of those lotto winners who loses their money in a short time. My ultimate goal is to one day move back to the reservation and help my people out. I would love to have a business there or maybe become a therapist and help that way, I'm still on the fence about it tbh. At some point, I'd love to build a better pc too, the one I have currently has lasted me a long time. Whenever someone mentions "Lotto win", I immediately imagine the house that I get built back on the rez, with a large garden and a few apple/cherry trees and being able to give away a lot of what my garden produces. Have some nut trees too, like hazelnuts since those can be expensive to buy at bulk barn.

I think for halloween this year I'll just get some shopping done and not do much this year. I would LOVE to decorate my house in a halloween theme so I've been slowly looking for halloween types of decorations. I only have a small amount of things to decorate with but it's better than nothing, I suppose. If I had the money to do so, I would like my home to look like halloween threw up everywhere, for most of the year, if not all year. I probably would go nuts with the custom fabric over on spoonflower and get a ton of halloween themed fabrics lol. I love halloween, it's the best time of year!!!

I think for valentine's day next year, depending on if the pandemic's going to continue to then(which at this rate it probably will) I think I want to make it a habit to treat myself to something I normally don't have, kinda like how for my birthday I try a new recipe. If no one else is going to treat me to anything, I might as well do it myself because I deserve it.

I'm a Leo and also a goat in the chinese zodiac

For me currently: Cyberpunk 2077 Paralives Avowed The Elder Scrolls 6

Not really, no. I have so many things I want to do with my life someday, so many hopes, that it would be sad to not be able to complete any of those. What about all the video games I'm waiting to play? Books to read? Art to make? Stories to write? They would all be useless if I died tomorrow and that would make me even sadder about dying, if I had the ability to feel sadness after death that is.

I haven't bought actual cereal in years, I just make my own muesli when I feel like it, though recently I've been having more overnight oats. Once you get down how much milk/oats/yogurt you need for the base recipe, the sky's the limit of how many different flavours of overnight oats you can make. I also buy soymilk since I'm mildly lactose intolerant, cow's milk makes me sick but yogurt oddly doesn't, so soymilk doesn't expire as quickly as cow's milk does so I can buy two weeks worth of milk(typically 5 cartons of soymilk for me) without it spoiling in the fridge.

Whenever I'm walking across the road and the person who wants to turn is just sitting there, waiting... That's so annoying to me, like you're wasting your own time, the people behind you and you're making me feel bad for taking everyone's time. Like, you could've turned twice already waiting for me to completely walk across the street. Of course, with these incidents, I would normally just run but when I have my grocery cart with me, I can't run with that since it sometimes rolls over the back of my foot and hurts, so I have to walk with it. If you have more than enough space to turn, just do it. Seriously, just go, you've got space to go and I'm not even past the first lane of the other side of the road, just GO!

Watching a Kazuliski video on Cyberpunk 2077 news, he's one of my favourite sources for news about the game.

You just reminded me to eat lunch, thanks for that!! No wonder I have a headache lol Anyways, I was drawing 10 minutes ago. Going to try drawing some more in a bit after a break.