(ooc here was Sparkshowers answer)
Sparkshower sighed "Look I want you to know that, when I became a princess I didn't really change, sure I had wings and a new job but I was still the same mare in here" she put her hoof to her chest "The real change happened when.." she swallowed and tried again "When you left I begged Celestia and Luna to change me back, they couldn't help me because there is no counter to the alicorn spell. Then I tried to find a way to magically at least remove the wings, I even tried Discord, but because he had sworn allegiance to Celestia the spell had been on the list of things he couldn't do unless somepony was dying. I was in a real Dark place then. So... I... I tried to cut them off, I didn't want them if they meant losing everything. ... Celestia and Lubna stopped me of course, and after that they kept me awayfrom sharp objects for months and put me through therapy, At first they tried Cadence but I couldn't stand the sight of her... it was like rubbing salt in the wound... I'm sorry... I really am." she had never meant to hurt him with it, she had just wanted to get him back