man dude man

yeah

the first one was meant at Nghtshroud ust seems like it was blatantly intended to mean something nd yeah im not oming back after this wekend

ok well i'm gonna give u a good goodbye

my real hormones are coming back... lol i cant be on the internet anymore lol

Like just talk to someone, dont play some like deductive 20 questions inwardly lol, just talk to them.. people like fix entire narratives about people without ever speaking a word to them

"the conspiracy" lol

I have a conspiracy, dolphins are actually people in disguise.

perhaps someone a little smarter...

i wish they had made this like an actual song lol, i really love that hook

man if they did it top charts

I was looking for an mp3 for it but its almost supposed to be a joke song, but its actually like in the same vain as live to win.. once i give up alcohol ill have nothing, im about to just go insane working out, i got the energy, i just box myself into my depression or somwthing like it perhaps

Before to long i wouldnt be surprised if the magic in mlp was out of the question lol

plus there are a lot of bad people trying to rub me the wrong way... every where i go sadly, up until i can be made out to be the bad guy... i need the discipline for myself.

ive said some silly things before, and in moments retrospect, I have psychological problems, but no, im not a criminal lol, the only indication of that is words, and people with biased perspectives...

lol yeah.

it doesnt hold ya know lol... people cant ignore who you are, what you actually do, what you are vested in, what you believe, what you have done with your life, what you currently do or try to do, and just be like, well i heard a story about so and so from 7 years ago or whatever lol... its like no, thats really stretching things

well, im overly indulged, its just by over critical maniacal people who are on the flames and forks side of my witch hunt

Why would you want to leave?

because im a "goth" lmfao no just remembered some funny shit, idk

if i ever got a call for a job it would be during this time lol, either way its wishing in one hand for me..

People live a lot in their own imaginations while pretending its the imagination of others, a lot of people refuse to believe there is someone or something they cant understand, because that doesnt help them...

I'm not really an anime person in general, but it did spark the "to be continued" meme. Or should I say...

<----To Be Continued

i watch toonami, so yes i do watch it, and his character is just like, you know, just kind of undiscplined, and underwhelming on a foot basis, but in the moments critical, just from times of having out of the box unconventional more developed thinking that others werent quite prepared for...

he kind of comes together more as the training progresses, but he is more of like that moments cast thing, he struggles himself into situations but when he thinks about things, he has like an open book of alternatives... its like a 6/10 to me as an anime, but i just like and relate to his character

for being man enough to realize im the same as everyone else

what matters to me is if you're perfectly fine with this decision,If you want to get banned the decision is up to you my friend

i mean that morally of course

i dont think im worthy enough of that title, more or less is it, an inaccurate representation of what humans believe themselves to be in their greatest fantasies, we are all our own heroes but indirectly someone elses villain, id like to make peace among individuals, I only act in defense, I am not threat to anyone, I am no criminal, and my only direct sincere critcism is to institutions, not racial collectives, not religious collectives (sometimes) but only ruling class individuals, or people that believe organic life is a toy, we are all the same... i would rather respectfully have my ass handed to me like a man, than to have my life taken or scarred disrespectfully in spite... and you dont have to respect me afterwards, but people dont think they are at the mercy of something greater than them and its their own undoing...

you know, public info... im not doing anything to incriminate myself, but people dont care to look at that double standard held against me... the brutally incriminating things said about me, but they are treated in justification while waiting to find ways to incriminate me, while doing things to best my own life... People seem to think I think I am the strongest thing in the world... its like you know, you could be a lot less than a human, but you have no idea the "lot more" xD I am just a dude who wants to live a decent future being who and what I was born as, as all humans deserve....you know, we arent gods, far from, just people that try desperately to dictate the lives of those weaker than them... not realizing the potential hell of that philosophy...

ears out you know... xD not just intuitions...

let me know though how to remove these, like from start to finish lol...

that doesnt mean, you ask, then they reply, it means the joke entails them saying its not a joke, which makes for a shitty joke to begin with so, either they are just unfunny, or they are being for real

its not going to happen.... it would be the most unwise decision that can be made...

knowing is personal accountability and to many people know... i mean, i do the things I do to protect myself not to hurt anyone else... I mean if someone has something to prove to me as an individual, than you know, they can take it to wherever they want to prove they are a bigger man than me, but in any vilified or moment of over hedging I have over anyone, I wouldnt do anything to change who they are, people can hate me, everything about me, but you know, it just would be an unwise thing to do... I am a much better person to have as a friend than an enemy, but people act like the world is shoots and poops or whatever.... I have no ego in who I am, I just am who I am inherently, the version of me that cant live without being fucked with

i guess especially to some of the people that hate me lol... some people just truly have no idea... lol, i hate being "useful" but that is a title that can more commonly describe me, than "liked" or sometimes "tolerated"

people think when time passes that all of the variables defining a situation just go away (this is seperate to the past) like I used to always say, my "bad guys" transcend people that would like to be, for some reason my life has become a commidity of self reassurance for people that like to look away from someone being treated worse than a zoo animal, because at least in their natural habitant, their existence hasnt been chemically manipulated.

yeah the perks of modern life are here, just not he privacy, the mutual respect, and the respect for personal boundaries, I cant order vitamins online, because im the crazy one, well chemistry tells a different story lol

i can be diplomatically forthcoming i believe, before i wither away to nothing or subside whats left of my free will, i feel it coming back to myself, we like to have these things habitually to help us cope with uncertainty or to give our life a rythm, well I got to get my strength back, and unfortunately we may not have the conversations we had at once, to many people have treated me as an ignorant fool to long, and im tired of sitting back and staying mute about it

people play the fool, but the fool plays the people

calling someone paranoid, who is telling the truth, irregardless if they are not paranoid or if they are facts to subside

one nor the other you know, its not okay to treat any human that way, people shouldnt have the philosophy of, "I did this unfair thing to this individual, now I need to stalk their every movement, and hear out their every word to either justify myself or confirm them" no? they dont need confirming one way or the other, you are the oppressor, you just dont like feeling like it, so you tell yourself whatever makes you feel justified..

followed by "shamans arent favored bro, we're totally knocking tunnel trog and totem golem out of meta, maybe."

competitively it is tiered and chance, im not complaining, I am just saying that some decks have much greater probabilities than others... and its easier to hit rank 7 in two days with some decks than others....

well do what it is you want to do rose,and don't let anyone get in your way of getting you a job 

good luck and i wish the best for you,this is your life and its up to you to decide what you wanna do with it 

THE WORLD IS YOURS. 

Thanks bro, i wish people really knew how hard i tried to be my best, to contribute etc, and i look and do everything im supposed to, but its like, thats not of what anyones looking for in me i guess, yo, im down to work your crappiest job and find a progressive alternative solution for whatever problem there is, just give me to the job haha, what i want from the world is simple, but im just kind of alienated and finding a job isnt always easy, me if i got to man up, i got to do what i got to do, because im someone that will go all the way with something if others arent weighing me down

you're welcome rose,I as well have some of the same problems you are mentioning,I wish everyone would just except everyone for who they are and not care how much people make or what they wear,what matters is whats in the inside.Good Luck I know you'll find one c:

Circumstances can play a huge role in our emotional interpretational determinations of the significance of events and such... Personally, I understand "losing my mind" from what I've been going through. I believe you're familiar with some of that, as I've mentioned previously.

One thing that helps me take momentary comfort and "re-center" myself though is simply getting lost in something free-spirited that I love... Such as music, or ponies for that instance. ESPECIALLY humorous comedy-eske stuff... And then there's always good old humorous pony content. 

maybe i have to look for something I already identify as positive, im like in a bizarro mind warp, and sometimes like, i already have intense cognitive dysfunctions inherently, but when i get this drunk, I just completely malfunction, lol... its like, dude lol, what is this, im taking not a dead end road, but im in a hamster wheel seeing a dead end would bring me solace...

literally, im like contemplated when and under anything else, but alcohol for me, is literally like putting an angry rat inside the core of a desktop lol

it may seem insensitive to say shit like, "so and such is whatever" but everyone does it, and its played out, playing this "collective villiains and victims shit..."

i cant do internet sarcasm or read it properly, guilty, its of verbal exchange, and not everyone in this or any world doesnt always just say what they mean you know, but the problem is people acting like a small biological indifference is telling of who you are or it plays any part in your identity, it doesnt, realistically with countries like America, your income defines your identity.

*crap, *screwing, excuse that they really need to add an edit post feature.

sometimes though i literally just like, see a bunch of people i dont even know how i know lol (even on here) and i am just like, I feel like just messaging people to start a random conversation

well not so much "avoid i guess" i am a pretty easy person to find publicly hahaha, but the only people that want to be friends dont really want to be, they just trying to get to whatever they can get out of you, hats off for being resourceful i guess xD but im not your guy, or anyones for that matter xD