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  1. KiraTakahashi
    So I haven't been on this site much. Usually I don't feel like doing much of anything besides watching dvd or playing games when I get off work. Especially if I work the next day. So if I disappear at random that's why.
     
    Works been annoying. It's either customers being asshats or workers being idiots. Most but not all. Nothing changes at walmart. Hell almost got fired the other day. I honestly don't even care anymore. I stopped caring when they decided to deny my moving departments within the store and take my hours away. I've been applying to other places but not much luck coming out there.
     
    For about a week or so I've been trying desperately to find something that would give me a happy moment..no luck in that field as well. Anywhere I look I see everyone I graduated with has a decent home, kids, college out of the way..everything..here I am almost 10 years later..living paycheck to paycheck..a college drop out and just feeling like the reject that I've always been.
     
    Maybe that's why I got so invested in the character cloe from life is strange. Seriously the way she acts and everything is how I used to act at that age. That and I totally shipped her with max hardcore. That's another reason I feel kinda meh..that game was super deep. Parts of the game dealt with shit I had to deal with. So it hit pretty close to home.
     
    Ugh I'm gonna find something to get my mind off everything.
     

     
    My fav ship now.
     

  2. KiraTakahashi
    So I've been mainly busy with work, sorting through financial business, packing up and getting ready for christmas. It's been kinda stressful but not too bad.
     
    My only problem that I have right now is my work situation. My hands have gotten worse. It went from a small rash to now my hands are covered. I have been trying to take care of them but work makes it worse. Sweating burns like hell, and I wear gloves for about 6 hours and 30 mins everytime I work. I got hot easily so as soon as the gloves are on I'm already sweating. To top it off its hurting just to use my hands. Heck today I even burned my thumb right on the rash. That wasn't fun.
     
    Here's what I'm talking about though.

     
    That's just the left hand, the right is even more covered. What sucks is I'm still too new to move around the store plus I don't have the training to do anything but deli. One manager told me I had to wait 90 days before I could even think about it. That's two more months of this just getting worse.
     
    And I know of two causes. The sanitizer spray that we use to clean everything and the juices from the meat cause it to get worse. I can't just up and quit my job..I seriously need it. And I can't go to a doctor because the bill would be ridiculous since I have zero health insurance.
     
    So needless to say I'm in some pain. But this isn't new pain. I've had eczema on the back and sides of my knees before..took 10 years to get rid of it. I am still trying to help the spot on the crease on my right elbow that has it as well. So it's nothing too new just a new area.
     
    I'm thinking on my next two days off I'm going to get my resume ready, take a typing test and apply for the jail office jobs down here. It'll be more pay and set hours plus decent insurance. It'll take awhile before I will hear anything from them but that's all I can do right now. I've tried before and it didn't work but I'll keep trying.
     
    On a side note..that dang deli needs to be shut down for some serious cleaning. We have an ant problem, I've seen a roach and grease is caked onto everything. I know grease is hard to deal with but if you clean things right every night it won't be a problem.
     
    Like hell the other night I wanted donuts. So I go to the bakery and was choosing a donut until I saw freaking ants all over each one. Like seriously please shut that store down for a week and let me clean it. Cause damn would things look nice and be bug free.
     
    Though I did get lucky today. After having a few rude customers I found a walmart gift card on the bathroom floor. Had 5 bucks on it. Decided to keep it since I don't think there's a way to trace it to anyone without a receipt. So I got some bombass cookies with it XD.
     
    Oh and in the night I've been building and building a private island on minecraft. I have the first island as my house and such with a garden, portal room, underwater basement, barn, mini store and aquarium. The next island is an amusement park. It has two rollar coasters, a boat ride, a ticket booth and a tiny cafe/picture place. The last island is pokemon themed. Has a pokeball hotel, mini safari, gym, poke mart, poke center, an elite four gym and a pokemon champion gym. Here's some pics.
     


     
    I'm thinking my next island will be Harry potter themed. I'm gonna try to do the hogwarts castle.
  3. KiraTakahashi
    So today was a really tiring day. Woke up at 9 to get bills out of the way and kitty now has 8 months of flea stuff since the vet was having a sale. Work was ok..I did almost laugh at this old lady though.
     
    Ok so she comes up and asked me what this certain chicken was. I said ranch wings. She then asked what seasoning is on it. Once again I said ranch. She then does a huff and says to me "Do you even speak english?" Uh yes dude I do..but I think you need to turn your hearing aides up. Of course I didn't tell her that...before I could get a word out she waddled off.
     
    Here's the thing. In the deli we have fans running, fryers running and it's pretty damn hard to hear you. And in return hear me at times since I speak so quietly. She was the rudest customer we had. Sure there were others but not as bad as that.
     
    I did have one guy say he wants a meal. Then pause...so I ask what would he like. He tells me....then just stares at me. So I make it and wrap it. When I give it to him he says he wasn't done. Sir...don't fucking pause long enough to show you have nothing else to say..seriously.
     
    After work we had enough money from my gfs check (got paid more than what we thought) to get food finally and an mlp movie. The ever free forest one..since I haven't seen it. Though we missed the one before so we gotta get that too lol.
     

    Now I'm just stuck. I've been trying to draw two peeps ocs and they just keep coming out awful. I like perfection or close enough. And I also don't like to keep people waiting. I think I'll try again tomorrow after work.
  4. KiraTakahashi
    For anyone interested in knowing a bit of my history here ya go. If you are not interested don't read on XD.
     
    So I go by Iggy, I'll never tell my real name since I don't like it much. I'm 26 and of course love mlp. I've been a fan of the show since 2014 after watching a documentary (cannot remember name) and giving the show a shot.
     
    My interests include watching/drawing anime. Learning keyboard (need to get a new one) and reading supernatural books.
     
    I'm also bipolar and the kind that goes through emotions in seconds to minutes. I'm a walking emotional mess at times. My main issue that I need to work on is anger. I get angry very easily at times. Other times not so much. I also change my mind a lot and some people usually can't keep up. Henceme having a short dating record. Longest is 2 years.
     
    I love animals but hate them at the same time. Low maintenance is best for me. I'll help animals who need it but only up to a point. I don't know why but I just don't like the responsibility of it. It's why I usually end up finding them a good home shortly after helping them. Only a few rescues I have kept.
     
    I am also an odd person. Things have to be done a certain way. It's why I usually end up cleaning everything by myself. If it's not perfect I get depressed. Hell even the coat hangers have to be a certain way.
     
    I partially blame my dad for that. My normal chores consisted of : picking up sticks in the yard (had a huge yard), redoing the mulch around the shrubs, mowing the lawn, raking the lawn for grass and disposing of it, spraying the trees for silk worms, spraying the grass to help it, dusting, dishes, cleaning my room, cleaning anything else in the house that was dirty, cleaning mom and dad's car and taking care of the pets.
     
    If it wasn't done to his liking I would have to redo everything until it was. One time he even went so far to measure the grass.
     
    At age 16 my parents got a divorce, they thought I would be the one to freak out but in reality that was my sister. I couldn't care less because dad started to change just a few months before than. Come to find out he was dating mom's friend and even ended up marrying her. I cannot stand her. I can't stand when someone calls my hair ugly, makes me get it cut to their liking, tells me what I should do for my future and try changing my clothing.
     
    I've let my dad know exactly how I felt after the last time he and her made my sister cry. The exact words were you need to get your head out of your new wife's ass. 8 years later he hasn't changed..if she's around he ignores me even if he and I were in the middle of talking. Happened right in front of my gf, she's sassy and likes for it to be known. But I didn't want a fight so I asked her to rant to me about it later.
     
    Oh here's the best thing dad called my teeth ugly and forced me to get braces, ignores most of my messages or calls, but damn me if I don't answer his message I'm suddenly ungrateful. Oh and even though he knows I don't have much he still wants me to visit. Why should I visit when you ignore me, your wife belittle me and my niece doesn't even know who I am because of you?
     
    Moving on..I've dropped out of college twice both due to depression, I've lost a year of my life due to alcohol..yes I don't remember being 19. My body reacts bad due to my past history of abusing pills. I'm going to give school one last try though.
     
    I hate smiling due to my last living situation. I lived with 4 other people in a 3 bedroom house. In the beginning it was nice. I felt great kinda living on my own and I was still close to my mom. But then my room mates went back to their old habits. I was the only one to clean the house besides a friend that helped and 2 people were hoarders. The two people (the hoarders) who controlled the house didn't spend money well so there were times things were shut off. I wasn't allowed to eat almost anything in the fridge except ramen and maybe some bread. Why? BECAUSE THAT'S FOR DINNER! dinner which always happened at around midnight. Because of that I lost weight. The money I did give them they didn't use on bills like I thought but instead new games or something dumb. Here's where the teeth come in. The house smelled of bong water and alcohol, I hated it. I would spend 6 hours cleaning for them to ruin it in one night. So I stopped cleaning and bam huge stressful depression set in. I stopped doing the things I loved, I stopped eating, I don't remember 4 months of 2014. When I finally came to..my teeth were awful. Because my diet became awful since I got cut off from foodstamps and they wasted money. We either wouldn't have any food to eat or I was banned from it. I even attempted suicide while living there. It was my last time..I think that's what woke me up. I jumped in front of a car while drunk..needless to say my mom was called, the police were called and I was in the back of that cop car. I ended up at the hospital because they were afraid I had alcohol poisoning. My gf moved me down here to texas where there's new drama but not something that will bring me to the brink of suicide.
     
    I'm working on saving up and fixing my teeth. I want to not get looks from people anymore. I want to feel beautiful at least with my teeth.
     
    And another topic, I can't stand medicine now due to my fear of I'll revert back to what I did with them. I can't drink much alcohol because it instantly makes me sick. And lastly I'm getting off my ass and I'm going to work hard to not be who I used to be. I'm gonna save up and pay off my debts, I'm gonna pay for my new apartment in full, I'm gonna save up for my teeth and I'm going to back to school and not leave until I have that damn piece of paper to show that I did it.
     

    So there you have it, I went from addict to getting my life together. Yes slowly and maybe a bit later but it's better than where I was at.
     
    And if anyone is asking why I didn't move back in with my mom while living with those nasty people. .I couldn't. My grandma had moved in and I didn't want to make her move out or live in the basement. I had too much pride at the time. I also was so depressed I couldn't hold a job..so how could I help my mom when I had nothing to give her?
  5. KiraTakahashi
    Ok so today I've been nothing but angry. First off I wake up in pain from grinding my teeth. That will be fixed when I get paid. Second around 3 I start to feel sick. So I decide to call my job and ask them what I should do. Before I can actually ask they tell me to call the damn Hotline and hang up on me.
     
    First off rude, second I want to work today and third LET ME F****** TALK!
     
    Anyways so I call the dang number only for it to ask for a number I don't have. So I call my work again to get said number, only to find out I should of had it at orientation but I never got it. So the manager is doing so many sighs trying to find the number and finally tells me. So once again I call the Hotline give it the number and it tells me a confirmation number and that I should call the deli.
     
    I call the deli to not get any answer a few times. Meaning boss ain't there. So I call a different manager to explain my situation and I get interrupted asking for the con number. I give it to them and they hang up.
     

    So I'm fuming right? Maybe 30 mins later I'm back in the bathroom feeling like I'm dying and I calm down because I tell myself I work with food now I can't go in sick. I can't get fired over this because I called 3 hours early and I did it the right way.
     

    So now why am I still pissed? Well since I'm sick and don't wanna move around too much I check my email. I see my prize I won a few days ago of a 5.00 amazon gift card. So I'm like ok cool day got a little better. I put in the code and bam got 5 bucks.
     
    Awesome right? So I'm looking around for rainbow dash stuff since I don't have much of her. Site keeps messing up, mind you I can only use my phone and after a bit I find something cool. So I put it in the cart and keep looking around. I see a bunch of stuff under 5 bucks but the shipping kills it. So I'm like eh I'll just get the thing in the cart.
     
    Easy enough right? SO FREAKING WRONG! For some dang reason there is no continue to purchase or anything so I can actually buy it instead of it just sitting in my cart.
     

    So I decide I'll do it later and download the walmart app they told us about in orientation. I get it downloaded since it doesn't take up much space and go to register. Takes a bit to register since I kept getting the stupid emails for access codes late..yeah they put a time limit on it. Finally registered and ready to login..only for it to freaking say my username and password doesn't match.
     
    So I put in a thing to get my username and password. I get it..login in for it to say the same thing.
     
    All in all..WALMART YOU NEED A SERIOUS UPDATE, SERIOUSLY TARGET RUNS THEIR CRAP BETTER THAN YOU. IT'S JUST SAD.
     
    Rant over.
     

     
    Yet again Juby.
  6. KiraTakahashi
    You know what's really fun? Getting cards on Christmas. Yes presents are nice too but a hand made card speaks more than something you bought. I think it would be really fun to have a secret Santa card deal on here. Like you get someone's name and make them a card and send it off.
     
    But I do see a downfall to it as well. The people under 18 who still live with their parents. Parents seeing am envelope from a complete stranger can make them pretty paranoid even if it was intended innocence.
     
    But if we did just 18 and up that really wouldn't be fair at all either. I know I get jealous when somebody gets something and I dont.
     
    Maybe a digital card? Hm maybe not. The world has gotten so iffy these days because that one person has ruined it.
     
    I dunno I really just like making someone's day. And having to draw for someone gives me motivation and makes me feel better in general.
     
    I'm going to put more thought into this just because it would be a fun idea. I suppose I could just create a shop in the art center on the forum . Wouldn't be much of a secret santa..but non the less still a sort of santa.
     

     
    Another pic of Juby.
  7. KiraTakahashi
    I literally had to go to the library to use the computer just to create a blog. My phone really doesn't like most of the forum it seems like. While at the library I found the book I reserved on the shelf...thanks for the call guys..I haven't been waiting for this book for a month or anything. At least I was lucky to find it. I'm really dreading work. I have 3 more slides to do for training. And I'm gonna set up my checking deposit account without them since I know what to do. Might as well right? I think I may try and just drag out the training at least for today since they may send me home early. I want my hours yo.
     

    On a side note I'm gonna save up and buy new art supplies and fabric. I want so badly to be able to make things and sell em. I like working with art and I've had a few small gigs but I want my own thing. Something that could start out as a side job and possibly end up being a full time job. All my worries and nervousness would go away. I know it's gonna take a long time and so much practice but I'll get there.
     

     
    And here's my kitty Juby.
  8. KiraTakahashi
    So I've been away from the site for a bit. I've been busy packing, working, moving and of course getting sick by the end of it. Well almost end. Just got in the new place. Gotta say I really like it. All that's left unpacking is the kitchen and living room. It's a cozy place, and even though the bathroom is kinda small I love the tub..so I over look the size. So far management is just awesome, even let my gf and I pay rent early. There's a decent size pool here, nice gym, mail boxes are in a great area and the laundry mat even has a vending machine. I feel a bit fancy and it's pretty nice.
     
    What's even better is I even got my taxes done early. It won't be much but I plan on using most of it to buy my gf a new phone. Hers just keeps getting worse. We can't even trust using it as an alarm clock. But anyway so far the plan is working out. Her mom is gonna just pay water and electric. Which shouldn't be high at all since my tv is an energy saving tv, I use the sun as light during day time and I unplug everything I'm not using as does my gf.
     
    I also plan on saving up and buying a new washer for my gfs mom, I'm looking into the water saving ones. And definitely getting my gf a new dresser..the one we are using is broken and it was built with really cheap wood so there's no fixing it. On a side note the cat is freaked out. Which I expected. But she does feel safe in our room so thankfully she won't be too stressed. AND OMFG THE CLOSET IS HUGE! like it's ridiculous. .I love it.
     
    As for work it's gotten worse. They gave up on moving me. Meh that's fine I've been applying to other places anyway. But holy crap the scheduLing person really needs..I think they need training. Having two people in the morning is fine and all if it's sunday. But every other day needs at least three. We are always so behind. Just the other day I went almost 4 hours without a break just so the other morning person could take a lunch and their job. And of course the mid was late so I had to wait 5 hours to take a lunch myself. But I was nice enough to take the trash, clean the floors, cook all food that needed to be and clean the slicers just before I left for the closer. The morning people never do that but I do since you are supposed to.
     
    So the past two months have been pretty hectic and yes I came very close to quitting my job at least once or twice but never went with it. But everything's kinda slowing down now..we'll besides work so that's a plus. Guess that's it..so yeah check out my room.
     

     
    The doorway.
     

     
    Right side of the room.
     

     
    Unintentional pic of my gf and kitty on the left side lol.
     

     
    Spacious closet.
     
    So there's the tour.
  9. KiraTakahashi
    So I'm ready to snap. I feel that one day I was afraid of is getting closer. It seems just about every day now I'm angry. Work is awful. I have customers yelling at me over something I have no control over. Three Co workers who are becoming even more lazy. Two of them who have went to management to complain about me. Saying I do nothing. Yet every time I work I am the one who rushes to the customers while they ignore them, I clean up after them, I put their stuff away and I cook. Yes there are some things I don't know. How to use the oven to make pizza, how to take a party order, how to make a party order, and how to clean the fryer.
     
    But luckily two Co workers stood up for me. They said I still don't know some things and that I do quite a lot actually. It got one of the 3 Co workers in trouble for lying. Then the other day that same Co worker was complaining again that I do nothing when I close. Really now? So I didn't sweep the front and back floors, mop part of the front and all the back floor, put up salads, clean every single dish, clean all the tables, clean the sink and put up all the food? Yeah and what did you do? You moped part of the floor with the wrong broom and took 3 hours cleaning 3 meat slicers that usually takes at max 40 mins to clean. But that's ok...I see the things you do...I see the rules you break..I can end you.
     
    Then last night I bought stuff that added up to 20 bucks and some odd cents. So I give 21. 3 fives and 6 ones. Guy counts it and gets 16. I said no I gave 21. He counts and gets 16. Now I just got off an 8 hour closing shift and I see no managers around..so I'm like ugh fuck it all here take 5 bucks I'm going home. OLD PEOPLE SHOULDN'T DEAL WITH MONEY. FUCKING RETIRE ALREADY. oh wait..you can't can you? Because walmart benefits suck and so does the us.
     
    Now today I stayed up till 4 am watching dexter to get my mind off shit. Wake up at 8 am to see my gf off to work and go back to sleep. Only to be woken up by a tv and a screaming child who is sick. I'm a light sleeper and after about 30 mins of being awake I'm fully awake. And to add to that my gfs mom decides to use the broken washer that loves to bang loudly against the walls. I've tried telling her to not use it. That I will pay to get her clothing washed. But no don't listen to me. I'm afraid a neighbor will complain and send someone up here to deal with the problem. If that happens they could see that two people moved in with a cat and are not exactly on the lease. We would have to pay a fuck ton and possibly get rid of my baby kitty. Your clean clothing is not worth that. So tonight I will talk to her again..if she doesn't listen and along with everyone else who uses it I'm cutting the cord. NO ONE WILL USE IT THEN. I've already offered to buy a new and better washer that saves on water..and I get denied?? Wtf you aren't paying for it..I AM!
     
    ALSO I will be having a talk with her about feeding the cat at 4 am. That is a huge NO. I have her on a schedule so she won't wake me up at odd hours for food.
     
    Needless to say I'm fucking done with everyone.
  10. KiraTakahashi
    So today started out kinda meh. First day off after working 5 days in a row. I wake up at 6:30 am wide awake for no reason. So I play on my phone for a bit. An hour late I'm back asleep. I dream of cutting meat for customers..I give up on sleep around noon.
     
    I go to clean my gfs mom's apartment and start to wash clothing. Only for the washer to break. So I hand wash two full loads of clothing and as we're waiting for them to dry we go on an adventure. We take our full preorders money from gamestop and put it towards target sun and moon so Friday we can get two 5 dollar gift cards.
     
    We end up using most the money on tiny things, like zelda cards, mlp figures and coffee. Mainly since I get paid Thursday and I can easily pay for both games on friday. My gf was so excited when she got a majoras mask temp tattoo...of which we forgot at target :/. I went back for it to be missing so I got her another pack of cards.
     
    Then we go to a used game store and put a kick ass ds for me (I don't own one) on lay away and only have to pay 100.00 in 8 weeks. We also buy a cheap ass transfer pak for the n64 since gf never saw any game boy game on a tv.
     
    After that we get our laundry and go home. I cook an awesome full chicken and as she is taking a shower I head to look for the n64 I packed up. I labeled all the boxes so I could find things easier. I can't find the box labeled n64.
     
    So I take out every single box and unpack every single on. No n64. I look through both closets, the bathroom, living room which is very bare and kitchen. No n64. I check everything 3 more times. Still no n64.
     
    I know I didn't lend it to anyone because we both only share the same friend and he doesn't play the n64. We haven't moved any boxes to the temp apartment. But we do know the last Tennant ehem my gfs brother last lived here and may have a key.
     
    She knows for sure that he stole her last n64, he even admitted it, he also stole a lot of her other stuff and pawned em all. We also know he has many side gfs and he could have given them a key. A game system packed up in a closet doesn't just go missing on its own.
     
    Tomorrow after I clean our apartment I'm going to once again go through everything and try to find it. If it's still not showing up I know for a fact something came into the apartment. My gf is only devastated because I worked to buy her the n64 for her last birthday along with a zelda game.
  11. KiraTakahashi
    So today started out kinda meh. First day off after working 5 days in a row. I wake up at 6:30 am wide awake for no reason. So I play on my phone for a bit. An hour late I'm back asleep. I dream of cutting meat for customers..I give up on sleep around noon.
     
    I go to clean my gfs mom's apartment and start to wash clothing. Only for the washer to break. So I hand wash two full loads of clothing and as we're waiting for them to dry we go on an adventure. We take our full preorders money from gamestop and put it towards target sun and moon so Friday we can get two 5 dollar gift cards.
     
    We end up using most the money on tiny things, like zelda cards, mlp figures and coffee. Mainly since I get paid Thursday and I can easily pay for both games on friday. My gf was so excited when she got a majoras mask temp tattoo...of which we forgot at target :/. I went back for it to be missing so I got her another pack of cards.
     
    Then we go to a used game store and put a kick ass ds for me (I don't own one) on lay away and only have to pay 100.00 in 8 weeks. We also buy a cheap ass transfer pak for the n64 since gf never saw any game boy game on a tv.
     
    After that we get our laundry and go home. I cook an awesome full chicken and as she is taking a shower I head to look for the n64 I packed up. I labeled all the boxes so I could find things easier. I can't find the box labeled n64.
     
    So I take out every single box and unpack every single on. No n64. I look through both closets, the bathroom, living room which is very bare and kitchen. No n64. I check everything 3 more times. Still no n64.
     
    I know I didn't lend it to anyone because we both only share the same friend and he doesn't play the n64. We haven't moved any boxes to the temp apartment. But we do know the last Tennant ehem my gfs brother last lived here and may have a key.
     
    She knows for sure that he stole her last n64, he even admitted it, he also stole a lot of her other stuff and pawned em all. We also know he has many side gfs and he could have given them a key. A game system packed up in a closet doesn't just go missing on its own.
     
    Tomorrow after I clean our apartment I'm going to once again go through everything and try to find it. If it's still not showing up I know for a fact something came into the apartment. My gf is only devastated because I worked to buy her the n64 for her last birthday along with a zelda game.
  12. KiraTakahashi
    Ok so today was my first full day of work. 8 hours including an hour lunch. Let me start off by saying so far I cannot stand the morning people. I did in fact get yelled at but for something that I had no power over. Our hot food that should be up front was empty..but thankfully the guy I like working with let them spare me because I just got there and I'm new.
     
    Second thing, the morning people don't clean up after themselves and expect to clean up after them and our mess. That ain't how that works peeps.
     
    3rd I did pretty good greeting the customers and getting their food and I'm usually shy.
     
    Now the fun part. There were a few rude customers and one fully stands out..and they work in walmart too.
     
    So this guy asks for a meal of chicken and potato wedges since we didn't have mac and cheese. I give him 3 chicken legs and the wedges. That is the exact amount you do for one meat one side which is 3.48. I go to give it to him and he's like I want the flatters too.
     
    I give him a wtf look. I ask..the what? He responds with the flatters and points at the chicken. He says in a condescending voice you know the flat pieces. YOU SIR MEAN THE FUCKING CHICKEN WINGS? THAT IS THE DANG TERM. CHICKEN WING. Don't you dare make me feel stupid when you don't even use the correct term for chicken wing.
     
    And get this he wanted 6 pieces of chicken and a side for 3.48. Uh no sir that's stealing. He kept getting angry when I didn't give it to him. -_- in the end I gave him the damn 6 pieces of chicken...whatever. next time sir you ain't getting it.
     
    Alright rant over.
     

     
    Juby and a friend.
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