starwantrix

I played pathfinder campaign for a couple of weeks. A dungeons and dragons game, it's a roleplaying game and I'm playing as Beatrix (Trixie). It was nice at first, I felt great and powerful, my magic was strong and as a sorcerer I could cast all kinds of spells. I was confident and fearless, I killed a lot of evil monsters, saved thousand lives, I searched through dungeons with my friends, we traveled far and wide, nothing could stop us. It was very fun, and I felt happy.

But, today was different. We were fighting a large manticore, our party was confident that we can kill it. So we did, and when it was my turn to attack the creature, to cast a spell of destruction.

I cast a fireball spell at the manticore, but by doing that I accidentaly killed innocent people by fire. They were in a wooden house that the manticore attacked. It really made me sad, I can't keep it out of my mind. Even though, everybody laughed that I screwed up, I feel pain. 

And after this our party got split for unimportant reasons. Me, Paladin and Druid were out of city, but our other friends Rogue and Bard. They went to see a judge for some reason. When we returned to the city, the judge and four guards were killed by my friends. Even though, it's just a game, I feel terrible. Our party will probably be split up.

Today, I learned that even imaginary games can really hurt you, I still think about those people that burned alive by my stupid mistake...