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  1. Ice Princess Silky

    Lord of the Rings - Book One!

    By Ice Princess Silky ,


    MLP LOTR Reading
    I'm excited to announce that today is the day that I'll be reading this book with a friend of mine! 
    I've always wanted to finish the trilogy and honestly.... I've shamefully fallen behind on reading this year due to all of the real life stuff going on 
    But with a friend to help keep me in check, there shall be no excuses! I will be pestering them every single day to ensure we're both doing some reading together as we've both fallen behind 
    3:00pm today I shall start and post my thoughts on such chapters today.

    Yay to friendship and keeping each other in check!!!


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    I am SO proud of my little ponies!

    By Ice Princess Silky ,


    Friendship is magic!
    You guys! I am so honored to know those of you who have proven to be strong friends during the harshest of times. Ough, even today with dealing with my silly loneliness.. @Windy Breeze@Starset Twinkle and gosh.. too many others to list, but you're gonna make me cry, so let's just stop while we're ahead... 

    When @Sophie H.was not feeling at her best, @Pandora immediately chimed in to gather everyone up to get her a gift! I am honored to be the plushie in this gift art as it symbolizes that I will always be there as a friend to you just as you always were to us, Sophie. The wholesome yellow mare noodle pony! We love you so much!!
    Thank you everyone who pitched in! @TheRockARooster@Astral Soul (My L'orb!!!!) @SparklingSwirls@Sir Hugsalot@AyalonTHE MUFFIN PRO! @Dynamo Pad@Aticus the Adequatethe derpycus! @Aurora Glimmer

    Together, you've truly proven that friendship really is magic when we get together to cheer someone up! 

    HUGS FOR SOPHY-DERP!!!


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    Alea iacta est

    By Ice Princess Silky ,


    Somber, reflective, thoughtful, confused but optimistic
    Wow! The month of July has been intense!

    Birthdays, weddings, planning social events! And did I mention all the birthdays?! So many people to remember while managing many other things. I’ve been feeling happy like Pinkie Pie! Even though I was informed of something rather disheartening and I guess I kinda want to vent about it here…

    I’d like to write about more positive things when they happen since they certainly outweigh the negative, but when good happens I get too lost in the moments… it’s like a wave that I’m riding — no time for photos, phones or writing — just enjoying!

    But this one issue has truly weighed me down and even caused me to crash into a wave and fall into the sea..

    I’ve even a few art pieces I was supposed to make for some friends on here and I never finished them… (due to my being weighed down…) wilting and unmotivated… but I must push forward.

    Maybe just writing it somewhere, anywhere, will help…

    So, essentially, someone whom I trusted and thought very highly of … told me a falsehood. And through that falsehood a symbolically unstable tower was slowly constructed and while I did see the subtle but wavering sways… I still trusted his word that this was a sturdy foundation to build on. Perhaps some Tower of Pisa situation would result. (Yes, this was the extent of my rare trust in him, because I would have rather believed that, than appeal to the idea that  he spoke and insisted on a falsehood). Especially with his raw conviction….  
    So, I carried on.

    Long story short, the inevitable happened and the tower simply crumbled while falling over us. Mind you, this is symbolic, so no medical emergency was required 

    I just don’t understand why that falsehood was even necessary to begin with. The simple truth would have prevented me from taking so much action to plan the gathering, include him in the event and pretty much just shine together…..

    I mean, it’s no big deal now…  as a realist, I do get over things. It’s just…
    It really marked me on an emotional but not logical level... and yet it’s so ridiculous to explain.. so I’ll try to be abstract…

    It’s one of those things, like in childhood, where… it makes no sense in adulthood but when you have a friend who just ‘gets it’ it’s completely out of this world. And even enhances adulthood because of the hidden layers of it that are wholesome secrets between you and said friend(s)…

    Unfortunately, that simply never came to be with him. Which, is acceptable, there is nothing to be done about it. What I really appreciate is honesty and bluntness. Why not simply tell me “Oh, I’m over that… I did it once and am no longer interested.“ (Yes, even a rude bluntness is favored by me, over a lie) or “Hey, I’m not really into that any more, so if you want, you can go and enjoy while I go do other things but please have fun!” Can even add “I’ll still be here for you.” Polite is always preferred but not required.

    Anything would have helped… It doesn’t even have to be too blunt or rude, I would totally understand and in fact, it wouldn’t hinder me from progressing towards a healthy interest or proper expectations.

    I’m a person driven by action. So, honesty is important since taking action on a falsehood is just.. risky. And stupid…

    Why have me go through all of the preparations and even gather friends to form a get together and a surprise party for when the event finally took place… only… to not show up? It’s so embarrassing and made me look uncoordinated around people whom I respect…

    I feel so lied to and so confused. Like, what was the purpose of that? Why deny things ever happened in order to promise me it will and then it never does? People can be so peculiar at times…

    Perhaps there’s just some hidden emotional tie that he wishes to conceal? And if so, I respect that. Instead, I’ll turn within myself to figure out my own emotions…

    Perhaps this is a lesson in self efficiency and how I should simply pursue what calls to my heart.

    Just because we are alone in our pursuit doesn’t mean that we have to be lonely…. Even though, with meaningful company, it’s certainly enhanced and incredible…

    Regardless. It’s better to be on your own than in the presence of those who may lie or askew your perception…

    How this has struck me is that it thickens the barriers of trust that I was already so tired of having…

    I just hope I can still be a good friend to him. I was always happy to be there during the roughest of moments and the sincerity will always thrive beyond any wounds or strikes. I wish him and myself the best from here on forward.

    So, with a tiny Starry in my pocket, (Yes, dresses now have pockets!) we move onto better things. As the Latin expression goes… 

    Semper ad meliora...
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    Friendship Studies

    By Ice Princess Silky ,


    Friendship stuffs
    *takes a deep breath* Okies!

    So, hanging out with friends has been lovely. It's truly soothed some of my social anxiety after this weird pandemic thingy. Actually, one of my friends introduced me to someone new, we'll call him Jared, it turns out I thought he didn't like me due to his stern demeanor but he's simply just very reserved (like me!) and it seems misunderstood. After a while, we got to know each other and it seems an actual friendship is formed. 

    I've also been speaking to a fellow forum buddy about this weird anxiety and he's truly helped to ground me and help me to think straight. He says it's pretty normal after the chaos that took over the entire world.

    A strange thing I had encountered from one of my friends addressing is that I tend to withdraw when I'm going through something like shyness or stress. And the reason is because I don't want to spread being a bubble glum Star Sulk and wish to just recharge before trying again.

    But my friend was like "Let me be there for you, dangit! >:0!"

    And I was like "NUHH D:"

    So, it got me reflecting on my life. I'm gonna have to legit watch Friendship is Magic. 
    Perfect excuse. I know. 

    I am aware that we're on the new generation and I'm looking forward to this new era when it hits at around 2022... however..
    I never got to finish Friendship is magic and it seems I'm really needing some of those friendship lessons.

    Six very different characters, united by the magic of harmony somehow... even though they are VERY different and almost incompatible.  

    So, my friend who was pursuing me and being a darling, kept telling me she didn't care that I had nothing to offer her in my strange.. what? Depression? Shyness? Retreat? She said she simply wanted us to be friends and share being together. But, it's so strange. I just want to be alone for now. I don't feel like she would benefit at all from my presence while I'm in this introverted way. And she asked me "Why does friendship have to mean someone benefits from something?" Erm... she's constantly giving me gifts. Very kind and generous, like Rarity. I'd like to be able to do the same but she doesn't accept it. Le sigh. She says I have to learn to receive and not just reciprocate... ¬.¬

    According to the theories of some friends, I'm way too formal and have confused friendships with how I run my business. Fair and balanced. Ooof

    So, Season 5 - Friendship is Magic shall commence for me tomorrow. Haha yeah, I know, it sounds silly but I'm legit going to learn some friendship lessons from

    For now, I shall just reflect.



     
  5. Ice Princess Silky
    The first time I saw this game, I fell in love with the visuals of it. It's just one of those things where you know you're going to love something before you know you are.

    It is such a somber but sweet game. I've been playing it when I am at home and alone. I love the music and the art is so breathtaking. Actually, the art has inspired me to do more background art -- which is one of my weaknesses. I have to say, the WIP above turned out better than I thought -- considering I'm a complete newbie about it. But art is something I have always wished to pursue and improve. So here it goes.

    The game is so relaxing, soft and sweet. I told my friend Starforce that it is like being in a dream. It's surreal but also relaxing. You don't have to worry about dying or getting it wrong, because it is like being in a dream. The music is calming, the butterflies flutter, but there are still objectives, so it's not exactly an aimless abstract.

    There are, however, subtle messages and visuals. Sadness. It seems there are broken statues of crying people all around. I don't quite understand what is going on. But I do know that the name "Gris" is Spanish for "gray." So, perhaps it's to do with our loneliness, our phase in life when things go bleak and dark and we're down? I've passed the chapters "Red" and "Green" so far. So maybe I am adding some color into my life in this bleak chapter? I've no idea just yet. What I can tell you is that this game has moved me to my core and I intend to explore it further and discover what else it could inspire in me in terms of art, visual concepts, storyline and abstract thoughts.

    As I journey, I feel like the character even has Star Silk's bangs. She starts off rather defeated and then continues to trot on despite the challenges. I wonder how the game shall complete?
     
  6. Ice Princess Silky

    Next day nwn

    By Ice Princess Silky ,


    Reflecting
    Yesterday was very interesting. I hung out with friends and even met new people. I think I shall do one thing every day to take Mark's advice in hanging out more often nwn

    Also, this song video is so sweet, it makes me sentimental.
     
     
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    Meep! D:

    By Ice Princess Silky ,


    friendship
    I'm a little nervous about later today. I was invited over to some friends and after the lockdown and becoming adjusted to isolation and "steering clear" from passing/receiving the virus, my social skills have plummeted. I used to be a social butterfly who mingled and hung around so many people! In fact, I love people....

    But I've also come to realize that I've been such a poor friend to those who were there for me/pursuing me during this time. I think I may have developed a lockdown depression and since my instinct is to retreat so that I don't "rub off my sad mood" on people, they may have taken it personally.
    Which, I don't blame them, but I feel soo sooo guilty. *sigh*

    So, now it's my turn to try to make amends. But, I hope it doesn't seem fake or forced since, in a way, I am feeling so anxious that it is a little forced. @.@ But definitely not insincere. I just hope they can forgive me one day....

    How I feel right now having 
    to overcome my anxiety.
     
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    Ok ok ok so the movie is for today! I'm super excited but I have to hold off because I'm waiting for my friends to watch it with! @Ocean Wavedream pls hurry ;~;

    I'm SO CURIOUS and have SO MANY questions! Like, how is there no magic? What happened? Was it cause of technology? What about the Windigos? Where are the mane 6?! Gosh, I won't be on the forums today because I don't want any spoilers but guysss. I'm just sooo excite ;~: 
     
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    Seriously, if it weren't for these forums, this little doodle would have never come to be. I like having any little excuse to make or interact my character with others. So ;~;
    Gosh, thanks to the fashion event for making this possible. Even if I don't win the badge, my heart <3 I'm so happy

    Aaaaand speaking of fashion -- VOILA!

    The final product....


    Don't tell Rarity or she'll freakin panic! I still think it would look soooo nice on Izzy tho c:
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