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Yeah. Well there's another girl and a boy that are in that class. So it'll be fine I guess. Plus, it's for a college level course (because there's a program that lets high schoolers take them) so I think they're more mature about it.

So there's this extra credit project for a class and we have to do a presentation about 3 contrasting characters from the same series. I chose Twilight, Pinkie, and Rarity. But I need around 30 character traits each. I need some ideas.

Lol. I haven't met a single programmer that loves java like I do. It's like Ruby on Rails where you can do so much and it's simple. Probably the reason I got third is cuz they did a TON of java.

She's a great mom and she helps relieve my stress. She says she loves me and when I cry she hugs me. My dad is really tough. It's hard for her to stand up to him because all he does is yell. I don't know why she hasn't left him tough.

I know there isn't anything else goin on. My mom would tell me. He is just a huge perfectionist. And that makes me sad. Whenever I'm not busy and I want to use THE MAC I BOUGHT WITH MY OWN MONEY. He says that I'm the reason he had a heart attack and that I want MY OWN FTHER dead.

Especially since.... I don't know.... Oh! I WON AGAINST OTHER PEOPLE LIKE THAT. THE 1RST PLACE WINNER WAS SOME CHINESE GUY PROGRAMMING SINCE THE AGE OF SIX AND I LEARNED ALL ON MY OWN.

I do everything he wants me to. I was in the Mathalon and (mostly bc of me) we made it to the NATIONALS. We were 2 rounds away from getting into global. They asked some trigonometry question that involved more than college level algebra. There were 5 people in our group and we were facing off against some college kids. WE WERE 13-15!!!! No one knew the answer but I thought I had an idea. I was wrong. He didn't let me go to the HUGE school dance they have. Just because I got that question wrong. I stayed home and he spent 3 hours a day for 2 MONTHS teaching me the subject that I understood in a mere half hour. Also, I've been programming for 5 years and I was invited to some competition in Australia to solve BINARY PROBLEMS AND ADVANCED C++, C#, Python, and JAVA PROBLEMS. The first prize was a $100,000 scholarship. I got 3rd AGAINST 30 YEAR OLD PROGRAMMERS WHO HAVE PHDS. I got a $15,000 scholarship fund for whatever school I want to go to (it was prize money if the adults won and if a teen won they won a scholarship). My dad still said I could have "worked hard". That made me cry. Actually if I cry even if someone died he tells me to stop acting like a pansy and then yells at me. Which makes it worse. All my teachers say they know ill be going to an Ivy League school like Harvard or MIT but my dad just doesn't believe it. He yelled at one of my teachers for "getting my hopes up". And when they say I'm smart he says that there have been "smarter people that have lived. Like Albert Einstein". IM A TEEN!!!! IF HE READ THE BOOK EINSTEIN THEN HE WOULD KNOW THAT IM THE SAME AS HIM IN HIS TEEN YEARS!!!!!!!

Yeah. He's always been like that. But only the past year or so he started to get REALLY like that.

A. Telling him what happened is out of the question. He's REALLY paranoid. B. Telling him that I like it is NOT going to happen. He'll leave my mom and I just can't think about living without him (even if he's like that) C. My mom IS helping me but she can't end the situation D. I can't try to get him to the light side. He thinks what he thinks and there's no way you can ever change his mind (even if I showed him seeds of kindness) E. (lol E) He hasn't even seen rule 34 or cloppers or furrys so the situation could be.... Worse?

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He has always had a heart problem. He's been having one every 4 years since the late 90's. I guess it's my fault since I know that and I still like it. ;( Plus he says that bronies have an agenda. He says he doesn't know what. But I know what he's talking about. He was comparing it to the Nazis because bronies "brainwash people". And he's a HUGE homophobe too. And not religiously either.

My dad has been disapproving of MLP ever since I started to like it. In July he had a heart attack and was in the hospital because he was fighting with me about it. And there was a really cute girl I knew that is a brony. And he wouldn't let me see her. I didn't stop liking it though. And I've been keeping it a secret. Last night I was preformed at my schools talent show. There was a teen that said good job. I saw his shirt that said something about anime which I really enjoy. My dad was 2 rows in front of this scene. I said "do you like anime?" He said "yeah I'm a brony too" since my dad was close I wouldn't talk about it I just lied and said "bronies? Meh. I don't really think anything bout them. I just stay away." His little brother said "he wet to bronycon" I guess because my negative reaction he wanted to embarrass his brother (that's what little brothers do). My dad heard that little kid saying that. At night I heard yelling. My dad was shouting at my mom saying how I "want him to be dead." I don't want that to happen. But I have no idea what to do. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. If he dies ill be guilty all my life. What do I do?