Well, I got no clue of how to begin this... So I'm just going to write as I go.
I think a chunk of you will know me, whenever my name, or interaction, or whatever else.
I originally joined this place way, wayyy back in 2013, on this very day, December 31st, or the day where I said bye to a year and hi to another. That year was something unique, because it was what I consider the worst time of my life, with circumstances both on and outside my control that dragged me towards the wrong roads of life, and even to this day, I believe that joining this place did some important changes to me, which actually did help me steer my life back towards a better road. I'm not going to go into detail of what exactly happened because, you know, personal information, buuut it was by meeting people through my stay here that my way of seeing things took a turn. For the better or the worse? Who knows~ But it did help me realize more of myself as time went on.
A lot of those people are not even here anymore, some because of just leaving, others because of doing something bad, others because a combination of both, or others because of my actions. I don't think most of them will ever see this, and hell, I am not even going to name anyone to avoid possible preferences, but you all did something for me~
Nowadays I still have some people near me, and I could not be happier as a result. I found love, care and kindness thanks to many, but those that are near me today really gave me a slap in the wrist about what it means to follow your own goodwill. Hell, I would argue that thanks to them I found out more about me than I could have found out otherwise.
Another thing is me being a moderator (and former one after this is shown to the public), with me willingly choosing to leave on the same day I joined, I don't even know because of irony or some hidden meaning. But what I want to say is that, when I originally joined this place, I was a mess, in terms of following the rules and a lot more, but some people did also guide me towards being a better person, and realizing my full potential as who I am now, and even managed to help people of the place I learned to love, with said place being this forums. Banning trolls, helping users with issues, and trying to bring the fairest justice alongside the other members of the staff, it was a time to never forget, and even today I still think on my most lively days as a moderator. What I want to say is that anyone can become a better person, no matter how hard or impossible it might seem. But I can tell you this, as I was not precisely the biggest role model on my first months on here, both in real life and in forums, that you can become better than you are now.
Keep on mind that this blog is very disjointed, but I am well aware of it. This is a blog that I write to tell about me and what this place meant to me, where I found people to love and to have fun with, and where I found who I really am, even if today I might still be doing that road in some shape or form. Something I did realize though is that I ... grew old of this place? I don't know what words to use to describe it, but I feel like I should move on towards greener pastures, if that makes sense. Not like it means I dislike this place or anything, but it just... feels different today. Most of my social interactions are done by personally messaging people rather than searching on the outside like I did in the past.
After this blog is on, I'm effectively dropping the badge and leaving this place. I would say permanently, but I can't predict in the future if I'll ever have a wish to come back and post. But for the time being, I am hanging all my effective things and leaving this place. Those that want to keep contact with me already got a way to do so, to be simply honest~
I.. don't even know what else to say, really. Again, I'm writing as I go about how I feel, but even though I share many more things to say, I keep them to myself because of the rather personal presence of them. I just want to say that you are all beautiful people, and that no matter what, joining this place is something I don't regret even a single bit, even with all the weird and bad stuff that happened along the road.
Speaking here is Joel, and this is the last time you'll probably hear me say this, but shippppppppppppppping~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yes, I stole this. And yes, it's actually how it is supossed to go because Deviantart rules. And yes as well, I'll answer. And also yes, yes.
It will be about ships
So yeah, ask because I'm bored
1.- State something I learned about you by looking at your profile for 20 seconds. do I even need to look at it because I'm already a profile stalker
2.- State a color you remind me of.
3.- Name an element I think you belong to (water, fire, earth, air).
4.- Let you know which MLP character you remind me of.
5.- Ask you a question I want you to answer.
6.- Find something I actually find tolerable about you.
7.- Think of something to say if we were roommates.
8.- State the food/flavor/smell you remind me of.
9.- Guess something about you.
Disclaimer: this was the original trash shipfic form of this, but due for my inspiration striking, I had to write what I ended up writting. Eeither way, let me show you what I had in mind at one point. c:
They have always felt some sort of connetion towards the other, but although Nova Blast always seemed that he wanted to take the first step,Viola thought that it was only one of his jokes, so she just ignored that... at least, until one fateful day.
This happened the day that Nova visited Viola's house to give her back her violin. After some events that happened prior, she accidentally left her instrument at Nova's house, and he thought that he should give it back to her. After that, he headed to Viola's house, which was in front of his, and he left the violin at her room "Thank Celestia that she never closes her house with a key, or else this would take ages..." As Nova was about to leave, he noticed one piece of text with Viola's handwritting: a unique handwritting that was incredibly polite. Although he resisted at first, he saw his name on it, so he had to read it. Silly Nova, always flirting with me. How do I know that he is not just lying? I mean, it's not like I like him or nothing, but I have known Nova for a long time, and he always tries to call the attention. Darnit, if he just stopped one second to think about it, he would notice that I may like him a bit.. which I realized that contrasts with what I said before. Eitherr way, he will never read this, I hope, so I can say that I like him a bit. He has something that not many ponies do have, and...
As Nova was reading the last part, Viola came in, and she looked quite... confused, and angry. "Nova.... What are you supossed to be doing in MY room?"
Nova knew how to answer. After reading that, he knew what to do. He just came near her, and just shushed her, to much of her anger... "I know what you are thinking, I know why you are like that, but I know that you may like this..."
Not too long after, Buffy came out of nowhere. It was that time of the week where both her and Viola would take their morning breakfast, so she came to pick her up before going there. Although she didn't seemed to answer at first, Buffy knew that Viola was there, so she just came in, but she wasn't ready to witness what she was about to see... ...Nova and Viola were K I S S I N G. Like, kissing?!? That only happens on shipfics!! But it was as real as it gets!! Buffy was so confused that she actually fainted without either Viola or Nova noticing it.
"Okay Nova... I think I may have misjudged your feelings for a while... That- That was amazing"
"Yeah Viols... I should have expressed them better. I suck at this, y'know?"
They just were staring at each other, with that weird look that two ponies have when they have feelings for each other. It was the birth of a shipping, and, of course, I ship it! <3
THE END <33
Two years ago, during a stormy afternoon on the land of Spain, I was staring at the Log In screen of MLPForums, decided to join just because of my newfound interest in MLP and its fandom. After nearly 20 minutes of trying to figure out how to make an account, another 10 minutes of me seeing that it had to be done through Poniverse, and yet another 10 minutes trying to remember my email's password, I finally joined this place. Although I though I wouldn't stick too long, little did 16 years old me know about how much would I stick to this place, and how would I grow to love it.
Little has changed about me and my opinion since my blog about my first forumversary. Still loving this place as much as I did since the day I joined, and it doesn't look like that view will change in a while. I had a few issues here and there, but nothing that tainted my vision a lot, to be honest. Soo what has changed since 2014 and 2015? Well, a lot of things. I made more friends, I lost some, I joined staff twice (as Poniverse Staff and then as MLPF Staff), topped the Ship the Member above you post chart, and then left the thread because it became boring, and started to ship raid everyone, and many other things that I don't feel like explaining.
It's not this long, I know, but this place has a small spot on my heart, and it doesn't seem to grow old, so yeah, happy anniversary me, and I hope that I can keep enjoying this place for a third strike c:
DISCLAIMER: I'm drunk, halp home get me ;w;
Applejack was doing her daily Apple Pie sellout, and it was being a success so far, specially when her #1 client, Soarin, skipped his duties to get some. But then, Spitfire appeared and smacked him on the head, and was angry because he stole a bag, and as a punishment, he would have to clean the entire academy.
Spitfire then went to apologize for that behaviour to Applejack, but then, she was attracted by that beautiful face. Applejack was also attracted by that face of Spitfire, which turned fire inside her.
This is the worst fanfic ever
They both eventually went to the Apple field and talked to each other, and the love was on the air, specially when Spitfire looked at Applejack again with her sexy face. On the next moment, they were kissing each other, like if it wasn't tomorrow.
Afterwards, they married each other, made sofas, and lived happily ever after.
THE END <3
Disclaimer: This isn't directed towards anyone from MLPForums. This is something from my own experience through the years I've been on the internet.
Today I was talking with someone, and our conversation went towards the topic of my feelings when people ignores me, and I just started to talk about my experience from the past.
[6:06: 50 PM] Lightwing: But more often than not, people ignores me.
[6:07:03 PM] Lightwing: And I have to message again.
[6:07:09 PM] Lightwing: And I get so incredibly pissed.
[6:07:39 PM] Lightwing: I feel awkard whenever I have to send again a message
[6:07:46 PM | Edited 6:07:55 PM] Lightwing: And when they answer instantly to that message, the pissing increases.
[6:08:16 PM] Lightwing: If they do not want to talk,at least they could have the decency to say it.
[6:08:28 PM] Lightwing: When I don't want to talk, I try to have a bit of decency.
And then, a bad feeling invaded me...
Am I a nuisance? If people stops talking to me all of sudden, and I have to do those things, that means that I'm someone that they don't want to talk to. Maybe they do have something going on, but I am talking about Online experience right now (It also happens to me in real life, but that's not the topic here)
Maybe I am complaining too much, and I am overreacting, but now I can't avoid feeling like that.
To anyone that talked to me so far, I want you to be completely honest..
Am I a nuisance? Am I someone you like to talk, or you just feel forced to talk?
I just can't take it anymore.
I literally never told anyone about this on my life, and I wish I could keep it on my past forever, but it stroke back...
Years ago, I suffered a problem of depression that nearly drove me insane. For almost 3 months, I lost all interest on life. Nothing interested me anymore,I couldn't stop being sad, and I even thought on commiting suicide at some point. But with time and help, I got over it, and lived the next years without problems, at least until a few days ago.
The symptoms appeared again, and with more force than the last time. I can barely sleep, or i end sleeping too much, I can't even keep my mind concentrated anymore, and I barely have even energy to get up from my bed.
I even barely enjoy things that i used to like anymore, I play games and get bored instantly, I try to read and get bored instantly, i do things that I like and get bored instantly, being those things something that I used to enjoy.
I didn't thought again on suicide, at least not yet, so that's something good compared to the last time, but it doesn't solve the problem. I'm still able to hold myself a bit, and I tried to ignore it for a time, but today i woke up and just stroke me with force...
I don't know why am I even writting this. No one will hear it, or will ignore it, and even if someone does, other person will do something silly and get all the attention, while me being left on the dust...
You silly illuminaties.
You may have took over MLPForums and made a new World Order or whatever,but you still have a lot to learn,you young kids...
Say no to the triangle and help MLPForums to be what it once was.
OBEY ILLUMINATI,I HAVE TRIANGLES,WE ARE LEGION WE ARE LOVE <3
I originally didn't wanted to write this blog,and just made a status update and a few changes on my About Me(what a twist),but,recently,a lot of changes have been affecting my life,and I thought that it would be a good chance to make a few things clear,and to update my current state.
Without more hesitation,here it comes:
Don't go sending me random friend requests:
I like to talk to new people,that's something that I want to make clear. There're very few exceptions about which people I won't talk to,but I think that I don't need to explain them all here. Just..don't go sending me friend requests without even trying to talk to me. Sometimes I may delay a bit on answering PMs,but that's because I tend to use the mobile version of MLPForums.
After all,it's not really hard to press that button who says Send Message,right...?
Until now,I had my Skype shown to the public. I still use it,and it's my main method of contacting people,but,from now on,I'll have it hidden,and I'll only give it to people that I really I'm friends with. I don't want more spam,trolls,or people that just says one-liners. Sorry if I offended anyone with this change,but this is the truth.
Don't go thinking that I'm stupid
Really,I'm not pointing at anybody on this forum,and nobody here did nothing that made me go 'angry',but this is a thing that I would like to make clear just for the future:
I'm not stupid
My most common place for posting is the Cloudsdale Colliseum,specially on the Forum Games and Forum Lounge,where I make a topic about something each few days. I like being a bit silly,and I like to have fun with other members,and give other members reasons to have fun(which is the point of my topics,because people has fun while they last),but I DO NOT WANT PEOPLE TO JUDGE ME JUST FOR THOSE POSTS.
Even if 90% of my forum time is spent there,I like talking,and I enjoy culture and reading. I can write lenghty posts when the situation calls for it,and I can also defend myself efficiently on a debate,so don't go thinking and telling everyone that i'm just "A stupid person that only knows how to post stupid things"
My gender and my sexuality:
This was the point about me making this blog,and the reason of why I want you people to read it,please.
Lately,i've been having a few gender issues that made me rethink about my own gender,and caused me to look inside me and realize what I am really,so,without hesitation,let me explain myself.
-I'm biologically male,but I'm Gender Fluid. The gender that I feel related the most is Female,and I would prefer to be treated like that unless new adverstiment.
-My sexual orientation is Demisexual, which means that I'll only develop feelings for people with which I have a deep emotional bond.
This is a heads up for both people that knows me and people that I start to talk from now on,and I would like you all to respect my decision,thanks.
Wait,does that change something about you?
Of course not! I'm still the same person as before,and I still do like the same things as before(people that really knows me will get the reference),but now I'm just part of the opossite gender,and this change may be for better or for worse for some,but,for me,it's what I really want to be. <3
And that's all that I wanted to make clear for now. There's not much else that I want to say now,except that I wish you a good day to you all,and I hope that you respect my thoughts and opinions that I just stated on this Blog. <3
Today I had a long day at school,and,when I come to my home and I check my mail,I found something that surprised me,heh...
Before nothing,as many of you remember,during the Making Christmas Merrier 2014 there was a raffle with gifts and all kind of prizes.Well,it resulted that I won one of them,and today I received it...
It's a 3-toy pack of MLP,which includes Thunderlane,Rainbowfied Fluttershy and Derpy Hooves(whose name is just a muffin,but better not ask that kind of things).To say the least,I felt excited for it.
I know it's not the most awesome MLP thing ever,but it still will hold up a special value on me,because that's my first merchandise that i ever owned on any fandom.
Those three toys just made my day,and I felt like sharing my experience with this.
Also,thank you @Apple Bloom for donating that gift and for allowing me to enjoy it.
You Are A: Neutral Good Human Paladin (3rd Level)
Neutral Good- A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them. Neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order. However, neutral good can be a dangerous alignment when it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.
Paladins- Paladins take their adventures seriously, and even a mundane mission is, in the heart of the paladin, a personal test an opportunity to demonstrate bravery, to learn tactics, and to find ways to do good. Divine power protects these warriors of virtue, warding off harm, protecting from disease, healing, and guarding against fear. The paladin can also direct this power to help others, healing wounds or curing diseases, and also use it to destroy evil. Experienced paladins can smite evil foes and turn away undead. A paladin's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that they can cast. Many of the paladin's special abilities also benefit from a high Charisma score.
Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus.
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Overall,2014 has been,from my point of view, a year filled with different kinds of experiences,both good and bad.
I'll better start my little resume of this year:
Forums:I don't find necessary to mention again how this forums helped me over the course of this year,but I want to give myself a bit of analysis about how it went from my point of view.
Judging from my point of view,I can say that,although I'm not the most famous person here,I can consider myself "well known".I mean,staff knows about my existence,I got multiple times named on the Favourite Users thread,and I made myself a place here due for my randomness but yet sharpness when talking,and I believe that if people sees me at some point,they would recognize me.
Talking about my contribution to this site,practically all of my posts on this forum were made during a period of 4 months.After those months,I went on a second plain,practically reaching the point where I post very ocasionally,and I make a thread on the Forum Lounge every now and then.
Real Life:Overall,it has been a so-so year on my studies.I've never been a really good student,but,this year,it showed really hard with a sucession of mediocre grades on multiples assignatures,and reaching its bottom this month,with 3 different assignatures that I failed.
About my social life on real life,I already mentioned that this place helped me a lot to become more open to the world,and show a more extroverted side of me,although it's still a bit hard.Overall,it could've been better,but not enought to complain a lot precisely.
Other Things: Here I don't have that much to mention,just a few changes,like my rediscovered liking for PC Gaming,and my recent incursion into the anime/manga world.I don't have much to complain about here.
In sum,if I have to define this year from my point of view,it was more like a mixed bag.It had some bad things,some good things,and they balance between them to make this year somewhat survivable.
Here I am.One year later,and still with the same passion that dragged me here on the first place.
I'm not precisely the most social of the people on the real world,and I just wanted to make a few friends somewhere,and a place where to stay and be myself,and,one rainy day, I wanted to find that place,and that leaded me to end browsing through the internet and finding a topic from this place,and then I thought that I had found what I wanted so hard during that time.I never regretted the choice of making an account here,and I still don't regret it today.
I just wanted to give thanks to everyone on this place. You helped me more than you can think, and, thanks for you all being open to someone like me, I started to be more confident of myself, which made my life better on all the senses.
I suck at writting that kind of things... :l
I don't know what more to say now.I shared my personal thoughts,and I'm really happy of joining this place.
But,of course,there're a few people that are really close to me,and I can consider true friends.
Without any hesitation,this people are those who really influected me positively,and I can consider my true friends here:
:The most idiot of the ponies by far,but also a person that I know that I can trust.Also,our random conversations practically make my days.Also,platonic crush <3
:A person that I can laugh about practically everything,lel.But also one of the people that I trust the most here.If I have a problem,I know which person I can trust the most to tell it.Do not change,and stay huggable :v *hugs*
:I could say a lot of things about my Cackle Brother,and expand it for like 20 more lines,but,with the help of an anonymous user,I wrote a poem for him:
Oh,and he also hates Lyra,and is the president of the Lyra Hate Club.
:He's a weirdo.That's the best to describe this weird Twily,Coffee and Guns fan.But also a good friend,that always makes me laugh during our conversations *hugs* :v
This person is awesome,simple as that.She loves Kaneki Ken,and gives me some of the weirdest nights of my life,for the ammount of surrealist conversation that we both have.Oh,and if you're reading this,you'll get this-> :n(
:My very first friend that I made here,and also best Senpai 4 ever <3
But,being serious for one moment,he's a really nice person,and I always enjoy our conversations.
Did I got noticed by you...? <3
Another great individual,whose actions and words make people feel better.You really like to wub people,and you deserve the title of Super Senpai <3
:You were missing like a million years,but now you're here again,so you deserve a mention <3
You helped me more than you think,and i want to give you all the posible thanks to you.For being there.For being near me.
Those people are the ones that influected me the most,and helped me to become a better person,but,even if you didn't got named here,you're really important to me.Don't forget that <3
Anyways,here it comes a random (aka Sir Cracklefruit) and Lyra Heartstrings shipfic.
Why? Because they're bound to each other...
It was a nice morning on Sir Cracklefruit's moonhouse.It was a bit ordered,and with a lot of Pringles,with a sign who said "NOT SHARE >:C".Anyways,Sir Cacklefruit was waking up,and opening the door,when,suddenly,a smiling green pony appeared in front of him.
The pony simply stared at Sir Cracklefruit.Then,he poked the pony with her hands,and that caused a response from the pony's part....
The pony then jumped over Sir Cracklefruit's body,and hugged his hands.Sir Cracklefruit didn't knew how to respond,and just laughed awkardly,and proceeded to ask to that pony what was she doing there.
She hugged again the hands,and Sir Cracklefruit stared at the mad pony.He didn't knew why,but felt the urge of rubbing her head,and he...liked it,he liked that feeling,and it seemed that Lyra liked it too,as she purred at the mere touch of his hands.
The next thing that he made was to try to give Lyra a single pringle,and to see how she would react.
OMG,THAT'S A PRINGLE!!!
Lyra ate the pringle instantly,and he tried to give her some more,and she ended full of pringles.Then,she started to walk on circles and rested her head over Sir Cracklefruit's belly.He,of course,smiled,and rubbed her head before sleeping too...
Of course,they started to meet each other,fell in loved,and,guess what?
They made sofas <3
So yeah, x Dashie is OTP....
"Oh,I love you Dashie...."
*she smiles at you*
"I love you too,Risy..."
*she kisses you,and then gives you a hug,just to fall over you after that*
"I feel like in heaven,Dashie...I don't want this to end..."
*she suddenly kisses your forehead,and smiles*
"And me neither...I always felt that the goal of my life was to being the faster pegasus,but...you made me think that maybe there's another goal on my life,Rising..."
*and as the two lovebirds enjoyed those treasured moments on their lifes,their lifes were going to change drastically,due for the appearing of certain pony*
"What the fuck?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?"
Because there was another pony there,who also loved Rising,and this pony was...!
"Rising!!!Why is Dashie on our house!?!?!?!?"
*Rising then got up,and buttslapped Base,just to scream at him again*
"Don't you get it?!?I love Dashie,and I want to be with her!"
*suddenly,Base blushed and buttslapped Rising back*
"But...But what about our stuff?!?We were so happy!!!"
*Rising then blushed,and whispered at Base something*
"Base,that happened a long time ago...."
"But I've been unable to forget you,and....it seems that you didn't forgot me neither..."
*Rising was touching Base's hoof*
Aaaand this is the moment where the public chooses!
Do you want Base x Rising to be the final pairing,or...do you feel daring,and want to see the Rising x Dashie ending?
Or...Do you feel even more daring,and wanna see a different ending?
Open the spoiler whose ending was the one that you choose up!
Base x Rising
Rising x Dashie
During many centuries,we asked what was the meaning of life..
Today,that question shall have an answer.
Basing ourselves around Twilight Sparkle:
She always play a major role when defeating al their enemies
If we look at this window,it has 42 sides,and resembles certain cutie mark from certain purple horse...
She also stars a show,with an interesting air date.
Her trading card number is 42
Summing up all the sides from the starts from her cutie mark lead to 42
Basing myself on more and more things,I reached the conclusion that Twilight Sparkle is the meaning of life.
What am I going to ship this time,will you be asking...
This time,I ship,nohing more,and nothing less,than...
"What's wrong,my love? <3"
"I wanna hugs D:"
**gives you squiddy hugs*
"Thank you... <3"
*and then,another young couple entered the Stuff room,and pulled out a black curtain,to make Squiddy x Hamster stuff,and,suddenly,advance to the next level,and makes sofas <3"
Yeah,I ship SCS and Sir hugoholic.Why? Because they were made for each otheeer....
"u wot m8?"
"marry me IRL"
*and then they kissed each other,and loled through the forums,and announced their weeding via Mailmare's account,receiving the blessing from all the other admins,but Aquila,who was with Twily <3*