Just somewhat of a continuation of my last entry, back in June. For those who care. My prediction held true - I ended up trying to do the unspeakable act, again, with very near success. I can't say I'm particularly surprised, but I suppose it's a metaphor of my life as whole. It all seems to crash and burn in the end. You can keep telling me it will all get better, but that little hope I get granted, always seems to end in disappointment. There's only so much suffering one individual can take an
Well, I've done it, I've hit rock bottom. This is literally the worst state I've ever been in and it only seems to keep getting nastier in time. I'm so sick and tired of everything and I've really reached the point where I'm starting to crack.
It was all starting to go well too. My first majorly depressed phase was way back in September and while it never truly vanished, it was slowly getting better and better. Then, things just started to happen and then it all went to the dogs. It really
I don't know if it's just me, but I always seem to be the type of person who is bitter about everything. Honestly, I'm never not sour about something or the other. Whether it would be my plethora of mental and physical health issues or just my general unfortunate happenings, I never seem to be truly happy. I know that I should be grateful for having shelter, food and water. Trust me, I am, but I just cannot describe the madness that is my mental state. My self-esteem has hit rock bottom and I've
They say that the right thing to do, is always the hardest. It's difficult to take in, but it's true. As we all know, Season 9 is indeed the final season of MLP: Friendship is Magic. The premiere will be airing on April 6 -- April 7 in my time zone, which is conveniently on my birthday. I've been pretty evasive on conveying my opinion on the matter, but I feel that it's finally time. I'm not a sappy person, but I can't guarantee anything for this entry.
I've only been apart of the fandom fo
It has been a while since I last did this. Don't worry, this entry won't be nearly as depressing as the last few.
Here's the short version:
- Got a haircut
- Gave up swearing
- Moving houses
- Got back into MLP
Now here's the long version:
So you may have noticed me being quite on and off lately. Truth be told, this is an extremely busy year. Why? One word, education.
I'm doing two courses which are two years ahead of me - Graphic Design and Informa
There has never been a moment in my life where I haven't struggled with something. From almost being a miscarriage as a baby and having to deal with things such as Autism and various other mental illnesses, in addition to many physical issues. Granted I'm not complaining about my life, given that there are many other unfortunate individuals who live in a considerably worse state than I do. What I'm trying to say, is there's a lot about me. However, I sometimes feel that there isn't much about me
On Sunday, I went to a Video Game convention - PAX Aus. I've made it no secret that I'm a huge video game nerd, so you could imagine how excited I was to attend. I have no photos or videos to show off (I forgot to take any amongst all the excitement, in all honesty), so you'll have to take my word for it. Unfortunately I was only able to make the third day, but it was nevertheless quite the experience. I went with me cousin and let's just say that we really enjoyed it. First of all, man there we
The title pretty much says it all: I'm not going to dance around this, so I'll be blunt - I was told not long ago, that I have depression.
This in turn is a result of various things: I'm unmotivated and practically have to force myself to do things which I normally enjoy. I've been binge eating - which has caused me to gain weight and there are several times each day, where I feel absolutely worthless and feel like vanishing into thin air. My hygiene is also starting to fall out of whack, a
So, I decided to Speed Run the Spring Breeze mode in Kirby's Super Star. Well, I recorded the footage and uploaded it to YouTube.
Final time is around 6 and a half minutes. I made a few small errors, but I'm content with the overall run.
As I'm sure a lot of you are aware of, I went for surgery yesterday morning. The surgery in question is known as a pilonidal sinus excision. I won't explain the procedure in full detail here, but you can research it if you choose to.
After the surgery was performed, I spent the remainder of that day and the majority of today in my hospital room, accompanied by my close family. I got discharged at around 2pm today, after being provided with further medication to control my ailments. I will r
This is a little unorthodox on my part, but I've been wanting to express myself on this matter for a while now.
First, I want to outright state that I've no intention on leaving the fandom or anything. Being in this fandom has allowed me to be happier than I've ever been in my life. Despite the plethora of physical and mental health issues I have, I know that the fandom will almost always have my back. This is just something that has been on my mind for over 1 and a half years.
For those who don't know me, I play a ton of video games. I have since a very young age.
When I go out, I usually take my DS with me and what not. Although, I feel as soon as I start to get into a game, something happens and it completely breaks my focus and I stop playing. It's freaking annoying as all hell.
I don't mean to transform this into a rant by any means.
I suppose I shouldn't be too mad. Besides, it would probably be smart to switch priorities. I have a Networking ass
So yeah, today's my birthday and I'm spending it in true fashion by sitting down lazily and playing video games.
I got $150, clothes, chocolates and a steam gift card. Now to burn all the money on video games and plushies...
Anyways I haven't updated this journal blog thing for a while, but I'll try and be more consistent with it.
But first I have to finish Broforce, I have to prioritise.
Okay, so I know that I literally posted an entry not too long ago. I just need a bit of a vent.
So I was planning to go to sleep early for once, 10:30pm to be precise. I don't know what happened, but it is now 4:45 am. Wanna know how much sleep I got?
At this point I just decided to get up for the day (Not like I was ever really asleep in the first place). Now I'm in the living room, listening to my computer fan, with the blinds open. At least this way I can see the su
I couldn't think of a creative title.
I woke up pretty late this morning (11ish) and I was in a pretty good mood. I do my usual routine, (shave, get dressed, eat breakfast) and I turn on my laptop so I can have some sweet sweet gaming time. I have the entire day to myself, so I want to make the most of it. So I turn my laptop on, it shows the splash screen and then it throws an error. At this point I'm pretty confused, so I turn it off and on about three times until I realise, the hard driv