Hmm... Seems like I'll finally make an entry for this blog! Had totally forgotten about it. ºwº

Anyway, hello everybody! Lume here, and it's been quite a while since my last visit to the forums! Wow. Almost a whole year, if I'm not mistaken. Most of you guys probably don't know me - I'm still a rather new member. But I was often around the role-playing section, where I've met most of my friends and cool people alike. Unfortunately, as I mentioned, I've been away for quite a long period of time, shutting down almost completely from the world wide web due to a very, very not-fun-at-all state of mind known as depression.

I don't wanna get much in personal details (although I do wanna share with y'all this situation I've been through), but it all started a few months ago. I began to gradually lose interest and motivation in almost everything that I used to love. My studies and hobbies became utterly meaningless, I felt like my friends and family also didn't care about me, and suddenly, the whole world around became gray, slowly crumbling into pieces... The only thought that continuously flew by my head was... "die". "End it all". It was horrifying, to say the least.

I had never felt anything like that before - all my life I've been a joyful, happy person. It all happened just so fast and I was, needless to say, scared and confused. When I tried seeking medical help, they told me that, from all the symptoms, it was most likely a case of depression, and that there wasn't much to do about it except for a few medicines and rest. And so that's what I did. Just recently, two or three weeks ago, I started feeling better and my mind began to resettle. But let me tell you... was that a fight I'll never forget~

Now that I'm still breathing and back to my everyday schedule, I can honestly say that I'm renewed! I came to realize things about my life that I had never thought about before, I started to look at the world with clearer eyes and, most importantly, I learned to cherish my life the way it should be cherished. It's really weird to say this, but I'm thankful for having been struck by this depressive state of mind! It opened so many doors, and it partially changed who I am as a person. Hopefully, from now on, I can do things differently.

So... Thank you very much if you took your time to read this blog entry of mine! It means so much to me. I just wanted to share this experience with you guys and tell you all how happy I am to finally be back to the forums after so long! I wish you all a very nice day/night/evening/whatever and I hope seeing you around! :3

~ Lume WMj