I'm 38. Majority of the fandom is half my age. It's not so much realizing how alone one is, but how much wiser enough you become, so one can see how little wisdom one had when they were younger, and yet thought themselves to know it all.

I used to think that way bro... but i think ive found friendship.

You just have to find people who resonate with you. And allow yourself to overlook their shortcomings. We all have ups and downs, just be patient, it might turn out to be fine.

Whether or not you have friends, you need to take care of yourself. To me, having friends should be more of a fail-safe rather than primary support. Being able to take care of yourself will better guard you against the potential dangers of being in a community.