Lately I’ve been making horrible mistakes. I’ve said some cruel things and have been rightfully punished for it, the last one kept me away from this site for a few days. I was never really meaning to be so rude, so mean spirited I just honestly don’t know what would make me say any of those things, I really don’t. I deeply apologize for it all. But at this rate I highly doubt I’m ever going to get any better. I’m going to end up shooting my mouth up in some way again sometime soon to an individual here and end up being suspended for even longer. Eventually I’ll be banned. I’ve already been banned from one MLP forum, I don’t want to lose this one too. I keep trying so hard to hold back any negativity from opinions I disagree on but it just keeps on breaking through. I don’t realize how wrong my words are until it’s far too late and I’ve been given warnings for them. With the amount of points I have now I won’t be down to none in a long long time. And thats just not any fun. I wish I could go back and prevent myself from making the post that put me on queue, but sadly I can’t. Nor can I prevent myself from making the post that caused my suspension. I just don’t think I can go on anymore.