I know you guys may not know a lot about me, who I am, or what I've gone through in my life. I would like to allow you to understand me, and for the reasons why I may act a bit odd. In no way is any of this a pity party for me, it's just clarification.

At a young age, I was diagnosed with a high functioning form of Autism, Aspberger's Syndrome. Ever since, I've been labeled an outcast, and has led to years of bullying, emotional abuse, and severe psychological issues.

I was robbed of my childhood, being played as the biggest pawn in an ugly divorce my parents staged. I was forced to choose sides, being brainwashed and manipulated to believe lies and the wrong answers. As a result, I developed chronic depression and suicidal tendencies.

I lost my father nearly 6 years ago, after he went through similar depression, only he lost his battle to it, and chose to end his own life. I lost my best friend right before Christmas, after he fought a long battle with Thyroid Cancer.

I have numerous psychological issues, most linked to my past, that not years of professional therapy have been able to resolve. In essence, I am not a human being, but rather the shattered, desecrated remains of one.

To this day, I still wonder how I'm alive, and how I haven't let all of this get to my head, forcing me to act in a way that would destroy my life.

For years now, I've tried to do my best to pick up the pieces and move on. Becoming a brony was a part of that.

I try to take my experiences and apply them, by giving other people advice so that they don't go down the same path I went down. With that statement, I will openly admit I sincerely, truly care about each and every one of you here on this site, no matter if we do not see eye-to-eye. I just don't want to see anyone hurt.

I've made a lot of friends here, each one I would give anything to keep safe. There's also one very special individual on this site, that I would lay down my life for. Her name is . I've seen and felt her pain, and I would, will, and am giving everything to take that pain away from her, so that she may live happily for many years to come. I would be absolutely devastated if anything were to happen to her. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself.

I'll admit I'm a huge coward. I'll admit I have huge trust issues. I'll admit I get severely jealous. I'll even admit that I am probably the most flawed individual created from God's image. But I know that I am doing the absolute I can to move forward. I know that I have my mistakes, and that I will continue to make them, but in doing so I grow stronger, learning from my mistakes.

Closing, I acknowledge that some of you may believe that this isn't good enough. I also know that I have done things in the past that I probably won't be forgiven for here. That being said, I extend a formal apology to each and every one of you for past, present, and future mistakes and conflicts that may occur.

As I said, I'm doing my best, and that's all anyone can ask for. I am not a victim, I am not an afterthought. I am a survivor, and my fire burns stronger than ever.