I remember back when I was younger, around the ages of 9-18, when my life used to be interesting and I always had something different and fun to do day in and day out.

Now, it seems like my life has become one boring repetitive cycle of: go to work, come home, watch some shows or play some video games, and go to bed. I just can't seem to find anything remotely interesting to do anymore. My job(s) are boring and then I also have to deal with people being absolute jerks to me day in and day out.

I can't find the ambition to play video games anymore now that most of my friends either no longer play them or they have trouble connecting to me due to my terrible Internet connection.

The only shows I watch now are MLP:FiM, Hell's Kitchen, and Game of Thrones; and that's when I actually have the time to watch them.

I've lost ambition to go on my afternoon walks since the mosquitoes are terrible here and those walks were my favorite way to relieve the stress built up from work.

I also need to pay off the thousands of dollars in loan debt that I've accumulated as well, and that's always weighing on my mind.

I don't even know why I'm talking about this tbh...I think I'm just afraid of living a boring and uninteresting life with no friends nearby and being alone.

I guess I just, I dunno...want to be somebody. And right now I feel like a nobody :/